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Burning desires

2011-08-11T22:06:00.002+03:00

Burning desires
have got me overload
one thing that you want from me is
the only thing that I've got more

I walk three miles
cause the bus is out of my reach
one thing that I can say from this is
my health is kicking up

money, been no friend to me
since my day of birth
it ain't my enemy too
so sometimes it shows up

my friends, likes me
they like to hear my talk
they talk about the nuisance I've done
as a child and it was fun

next month bills come
and I swear to god
this time I'll work hard and
pay all my bills and debts

my son like to play with me
says dad come home please fast
if I don't work my ass off
then he would fight with starve

I wanted to be an actor
it was my childhood dream
my movie's on and I am acting this life
but unfortunately its a sad drama

I wrote more than hundred songs
and I burned them all
singing was my passion too
but it really didn't took off

so my burning desires
have got me overload
resources are all empty
but my brain is ticking up

If that little road was mine

2011-08-11T21:36:00.000+03:00

If that little road was mine
I'd head to Mexico sublime
smoke some weeds and drink some wine
and feel so fine

If that little road was mine
I'd smoke the weeds and drive so fine
I'd drink some wine of the country pine
and feel so fine

If that little road was mine
I'd drive my baby blowing mine
she'd blow it till my shit turn white
and I'd feel so fine

If that little road was mine
I'd make the rule to drive it fine
so, smoke some weed and drink some wine
so you could drive so fine

If that little road was mine
I'd die like a king on shine
smoking best weeds in the world
and bests of the wine !!!

Smoking should not be banned in Finland

2011-07-30T20:29:00.001+03:00

Abstract

Forceful ban on smoking is biggest threat for personal freedom. The government is harassing smokers by enacting laws that make smoking more difficult (Pullinen, 2009). It is feared that this will diminish the freedom of individual and lead to a totalitarian state. It is said that smoking has both positive and negative effects. However, in this paper it is argued that it is everybody's own choice to smoke, and the government does not have the right to restrict its citizens' civil liberties.

1. Introduction

In this modern era of freedom the rulers of the nation are trying to impose some nonsense rules to limit the freedom of the citizens to smoke. Whilst smoking is recognized to be harmful for the health, this paper argues that people should not be forced to quit smoking. The Finnish government has recently made new laws concerning smoking which clearly aim at eventually banning smoking. In this paper it is argued that this tendency is dangerous for Finnish people in general and also for the wellbeing of the entire Finnish society. In the last section some smoking benefits are explained. For example, this section explains how smoking can be good for people with mental illnesses. Smoking is also a good way to meet new people. The last section also explains why alcohol is a more dangerous than cigarettes and why it would be more logical to ban alcohol. The main argument is that the government should not interfere with people’s own personal habits at all, because it would reduce people's own civil liberties.

2. Legislative issues

2.1. Current Law

Since September 2002, it has been mandatory to have one general caution, for example, “smoking is lethal” and one special caution, for example, “smokers die younger”, printed on the surface of the cigarette box. (Tupakkaverkko, 2008.)

Smoking is already forbidden in many places, for example in restaurants, indoor meetings where people can freely participate, public transport and indoor workplaces and schoolyards where students are younger than 18 years old (“Tupakka Suomessa ja maailmalla”, 2009). This long list represents only a portion of the pressure that is directed towards smokers. In June 2007, the change of the law concerning smoking in restaurants came into operation. Since then smoking has been possible in restaurants only in little smoking rooms where one cannot drink or eat. (YLE uutiset, 2009.)

The government wants to eventually ban smoking in Finland. Late last year the government proposed a law that aims at ending all smoking in Finland. New laws will make obtaining cigarettes more difficult and will restrict the places where it is possible to smoke. The goal of the government is to harass smokers to a point where all smoking is made impossible and no definite ban of sales is needed. This kind of initiative is most likely the first one in the world. (Pullinen, 2009.)

2.2. Illegal activities

Forbidding the use of cigarettes can encourage people to do illegal activities to get their much needed dose of nicotine. For example, people could start smuggling cigarettes from nearby countries. Also people could start to grow tobacco plants themselves.

Smuggling is huge problem in the tobacco industry. One third of the world’s tobacco exportation happens on the black market. Because of smuggling, countries lose billions in taxes.

Smuggling also encourages international organized crime, money laundering and takes a lot of investigators away from other crimes. (Tupakkaverkko, 2007.) The delegate of the European Anti-Fraud office OLAF estimated that in the year 1998 the EU lost almost 5 billion euros because of the smuggling of tobacco products (Tupakkaverkko, 2006). So far there has been very little international organized crime in Finland, but if the government would forbid smoking, then these side-effects could easily arrive in Finland also.

2.3. Taxes

In Finland taxes per GNP on cigarettes is 57 percent. In 2004, the government collected taxes from tobacco products a total amount of 600,5 million euros. The Ministry of Social Affairs and Health wants to raise the taxes concerning cigarettes. (Tupakkalaki ja tupakkavero, 2008.) In January 2010, the taxes were raised, which caused the price of cigarettes to go up by 4 percent. (“Eduskunta hyväksyi tupakkaveron korotuksen”, 2009)

Banning smoking totally will lead to a huge drop in tax income. Also, if smoking were banned smokers would most likely go abroad and buy their cigarettes there thus taking the money to other countries. Maybe the government wants to have the monopoly, so they could control the usage of cigarettes and also have high taxes.

2.4. Totalitarianism

As a whole, there is a general concern that all these attempts to improve the health of average citizen may diminish the freedom of the individual and in the end lead to a totalitarian state. If the government bans or criminalizes smoking, then who knows what will be their next step. It may be the first step on the road which leads to a situation where the government has total control over personal freedom. Maybe they want to ban Coca-Cola next?

3. Personal issues

3.1 Personal Freedom

Smoking is a legal activity and therefore, adults should have the freedom to smoke (Bliley PM, 1994). The government of Finland is planning to make the rules to ban smoking which is just an assault on personal liberties and is totally unacceptable. Everyone should respect each other’s freedom of choice and ban on smoking destroys the delicate balance of individual rights (Bliley PM, 1994) which may have negative consequences. “Health benefits are uncertain and the loss of liberty would be most definite if smoking were banned” (Noah Essenmacher, 2009).

3.2 Freedom of choice

Smoking is certainly unhealthy, but does that mean that the government should interfere with personal freedom of choice? There is no legitimate basis for laws restricting private smoking (Tom Head). If smokers choose to harm themselves then their choice must be respected by the government. Everyone has the right to choose their own idea of a healthy life, they should not be compelled or forced by the rules to follow others' health statement (Christine Scivicque, 2007). The Finnish government is right to some extent in stating that smoking is injurious to health and might lead to some harmful diseases like lung cancer. However everybody has their own plans of how they want to live life and the forceful nature of Finnish government to ban their citizens from smoking is something which might lead to the nanny state.

4. Moral issues

In Finland, smoking seems to be decreasing. In 2005, 18 % of women and 26 % of men of working age smoked daily. Nowadays men smoke less than in the 1980's whereas women use cigarettes the same amount than in 1980. (Patja, 2007.) On the other hand, the use of alcohol has increased. In 2005, overall alcohol consumption was 10.5 liters per inhabitant. The amount had risen plenty since the early 1960's. (Österberg, 2007b.)

4.1 Positive effects of smoking

As some writers say, there are some positive effects of smoking. For example, smoking can be good for people with mental illnesses. It is said that nicotine increases alertness and that would be useful for the treatment of schizophrenia. Additionally, it is said that nicotine helps to relax and to reduce negative feelings, like anxiety, anger and tension. Presumably, smoking can also help people with mental problems to improve social interactions. (Rethink, 2009.) A fairly new phenomenon called smirting – which is combination of words of ”smoking” and ”flirting” - has spread through the western world after public smoking bans. Nowadays, smokers visiting pubs and night clubs are forced to go outside to smoke, which automatically creates social groups. And these social groups have been so successful for flirting that many non-smokers have even started to smoke. According to the research, one quarter of Irish couples started their relationships during 2007 and 2008 after smirting outside. (”Smirting”, 2010)

4.2 Negative effects of smoking

It is generally agreed that smoking increases the probabilities of some diseases. For example lung cancer, heart attack and cardiovascular disease are more probable to occur to a smoker than to a non-smoker. (”Health effects of tobacco”, 2010.) Additionally, passive smoking can be harmful also for other people than the smokers themselves.

This second-hand smoke can cause diseases, disability and death. (”Passive smoking”, 2010.) Smoking is said to be definitely harmful for the young children. Smoking may be seen to cause health problems and could lead to the use of other drugs, like alcohol. (World Health Organization, 2010.)

4.3 Alternatives which protect personal freedom

The Finnish ministry of health says that it is trying to protect its citizens both from active and passive smoking (Paul Henley - BBC news, 2010). There can be different solutions to limit the harmful effects of smoke. Passive smoking can be eliminated by creating smoking halls in different places. The government could also help people by providing courses related to smoking and free rehabilitation camps for the ones who want to quit smoking. This way the government can improve its relation with the citizens, instead of forcefully banning smoking and being unpopular among their own citizens.

4.4 The effects of alcohol

Smoking in Finland is decreasing all the time, and is therefore not worth banning. However, It would be best if no drugs were banned, because that kind of movement will reduce people's own civil liberties.

It is widely accepted that alcohol causes some negative health effects. Typical effects are for example injuries, depression, phobias, nervous diseases, cancer of the mouth and hepatic cirrhosis. (Poikolainen, 2007.) Additionally, alcohol causes violence towards other people (Österberg, 2007a). In Finland alcohol is considered as a top killer. In 2005, alcohol killed more people than cardiovascular disease or cancer. (”Alcohol now Finland's top killer”, 2006.) Additionally, people in Finland want to become intoxicated with alcohol, and that is almost the biggest reason to drink it (Österberg, 2007b).

Because alcohol is consumed more than cigarettes, and because more people are killed by alcohol than by smoking, it be more logical to ban alcohol. Alcohol will cost more for health care than cigarettes, because alcohol causes more diseases and deaths.

4.5 People's own choice

To sum up, it should be people's own choice to smoke. Everybody should have the right to make their own decisions. The government should not be allowed to control the private lives of citizens. If smoking in Finland were denied totally someday, there would be surely people who continue to smoke regardless of the smoking laws. Without doubt it is not the good habit to smoke when there are small children around. Furthermore, it is not polite to blow smoke in somebody's face. But everybody has to have the right to smoke, if they choose.

5. Conclusion

Lately, the government in Finland has gradually made the living of smokers harder. Laws that raise the price of cigarettes and forbid smoking in certain places have been implemented. If Finland continues on this path and even bans smoking totally, then it is valid to fear that illegal activities and the drastic decline in collected taxes will change Finnish wellbeing for good.

It is said that smoking has positive and negative effects. Smirting – for example - is one of these positive effects. Smoking can also be seen as a treatment for people with mental illnesses. The negative effect is that smoking causes diseases. In Finland, smoking is decreasing all the time, while alcohol consumption is increasing. For some reason, there are attempts to limit smoking, though alcohol causes more deaths and problems for people than tobacco. Therefore, if something must be banned, it would be better if it is alcohol. Finally, everybody has own rights to choose how to live, which government cannot interfere with.

To conclude, smoking in public area is bad and should be prohibited but the personal will to smoke should not be hurt or forced by laws. There can be different solutions for limiting the smoking like making public smoking rooms in certain areas, bars or restaurants, or making the rules of smoke free zone for minors and protecting infants from passive smoking. But lawfully banning the smoking in the entire country is devastating decision taken by Finnish government, which is totally unacceptable.

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My bottle of whiskey

2010-12-04T19:17:00.002+02:00

well its another monday night

as the weeks pass by it comes every week, alright

and then I need my bottle of whiskey

cause they say to start the week with good spirit

after my work i called my wife

said I am not coming home tonight

until she finds me my bottle of whiskey

cause I have to stay in good spirit

I just want to salute the one

who says drinking is all for fun

thats why I love my bottle of whiskey

which helps me to keep the good spirit

well the week is gone by keeping my spirit high

so high that its the weekend time

now, i desperately need my bottle of whiskey

for the next week I need to keep the good spirit

so I drank all night long

my wife asks if I'm going home

I said hon, just let me finish my bottle of whiskey

cause in the bed you want to have my good spirit

thats how my life is passing through

even though I dont have much to do

so i love the company of my bottle of whiskey

it really helps me to keep the good spirit

Freedom doesn't come for free

2010-12-03T22:38:00.005+02:00

Don't be afraid cowboy, my head's up above

staring at the sky so high, so blue and so quiet

this is the day that you have been waiting for

so, put your guts together and lets hit the pile

teach your sons and daughters, teach them how to fight

tomorrow you are dead brother, so, future lies in juvenile's hand

they have to rule the nation brother, or our nation will paralyze

cause the freedom doesn't come for free, you too have to pay the price

my father have fought for us, now its time for us to fight

so, hold your pen tight brother, its time to make the history aside

every drop of blood that our soldiers have sacrificed

wants us to prove its worth, so, we cannot hide our face inside

so, come out brothers, my sisters and neighbors tonight

hold each others hands fellas cause we have to fight

fight against the poverty of our nation in regime

delay will kill us, so, lets fight when we still have the strength inside

lets bring the bloodshed once again for our rights

we shall live with our passion and in our nation with pride

its time to remind them that our soldiers have died

and freedom doesn't come for free, so, hold your weapon and lets fight

तारेभीरमा राम राम

2010-03-29T20:55:00.001+03:00

भानु उफ्रिदै आयो, बाको छेउमा गएर भन्यो, मैले आज ५० हजार जितेँ, यसरी जित्दै गए भने म छिट्टै नै लखपति हुन्छु। १२ बर्से केटाको त्यस्तो कुरा सुनेर बाले चासो जनाएर सोधे, त्यो जित्न चाहि कसरी जित्ने रहेछ भन् त भानुभक्ते, जवाफमा आयो, कम्प्युटर चलाउन जान्नु पर्छ बा, त्यतिकै जितिदैन। भानुको बाले सोच्न थाले, साला यो कम्प्युटर नसिकि भएन, यो सानो छोरोले त लाखको कुरो गर्छ म त झन् जमानाको खप्पिस जुवाडे, मैले त्यो कम्प्युटर सिके भने म पो करोडपती बन्छुकि क्या हो। हाम्रो जमानामा यो कम्प्युटर भन्ने बस्तु थिएन त्यसैले तास खेलेरै चित्त बुझाउनु पर्थियो, हुन त तास पनि रमाइलो कुरा हो, गाठे अस्तिको तिहारमा सबै खर्च मैले तासमा जितेरै उठाएको। यो माहाबीर पुनले यहा कम्प्युटर हाले देखि चमक धमकनै कम्प्युटर भएको छ। हुन पनि कसरी नहोस, निरौला बाको छोरी सृजना कसैले बिहा गरेनन् भनेर हाट लाग्ने ठाउको रुखमा झुन्डिएर मरे देखि यो ठाउको नाम सृजनानगर भएको थियो, तर जब माहाबीर पुनले त्यो भिरको ठुलो रुखमा केही उपकरण जोडेर तारले बाधे, त्यस दिन देखि यो ठाउँको नामपनि तारेभीर मा बदलियो। त्यो मुला कसैले बिहा गरेनन् भनेर मरेकि केटीको सोखमा भन्दा देशमै पोहिलो चोटि आएको यस्तो उपकरणको नाममा ठाउँको नाम भयो भने सुन्दानि खुशी लाग्छ। आहा कस्तो राम्रो नाम, तारेभिर, निरौला बालाइ मर्नु भयो होला, तर के गर्नु अब गाउँमा कम्प्युटर आइ सक्यो तिन्को हकीम कस्ले सुन्ने यहा।

पोखरा पढेर फर्केर निरौला बाका छोराले कम्प्युटरमा खै के खोलेका छन रे, गाइभैसी डट कम, यसमा उन्ले गाइ, भैसि, खसि, बाख्रा र कुखुरा समेत किनबेच गर्ने खाले बनाएका छन भन्ने हल्ला छ, आफूलाई त चलाउन आउदैन नभए पोटिला भैंसीहरु त्याहा हेरेर किन्ने थिए होला नि त्यो कम्प्युटरमा जितेको पैसाले। कम्प्युटर चलाउन सिक्नु भन्दा अघाडी गाउँमा माहाबीर पुनका मान्छेले गाउँलेलाई सजिलो होस भनि प्रौढ शिक्षा दिने गर्थे, आफु त्यो कक्षामा कहिले गैएन, फेरि कम्प्युटर अङ्रेजिमा हुन्छ अरे, आफुलाई अङ्रेजिमा तासको एक्का देखि बास्सा भन्दा बेसि आउदैन। कम्प्युटर कसरी सिक्ने भनेर दोधारमा परेको बेला भानुको बुवाले फेरि सोच्छ, आ, त्यो मुला कम्प्युटर मैले किन सिक्ने नि? गाउँमा सबैले कम्प्युटर सिक्छन अनि फेरि त्यो मुला १० वटा कम्प्युटर चलाउन सबैको तछाड मछाड्, त्यो भन्दा त नसिक्नुनै जाति। त्यहि पनि पैसा कसरी जितिदो रहेछ भनि भानुलाइ सोध्न जादा भानुले मोबाईल फोनमा साथी सँग कुरा गरि रहेको हुन्छ, “मेरो फेसबूकमा त ३ वटा कमेन्ट आयो, तेरो मा दुइटा मात्रै”, फोनको अर्कोतर्फबाट केही आवाज आइ सकेपछि भानुले फेरि भन्छ, उफ्फ् दोन्ट लाई मि, आइ विल चेक योर प्रोफाइल वान्स अगेन, तैले मेरो प्रोफाइलमा कमेन्ट गरिस त्यसैले मैले तेरो पनि प्रोफाइलमा कमेन्ट गरेको, तर अघि सम्म हेर्दा मेरोमा तिनवटा कमेन्ट तेरोमा दुइटा मात्रै थियो। छोराको कुरा सुनेर भानुको बा छक्क पर्दै थियो, ७ बर्ष भयो स्कुल हालेको कहिले अङ्रेजि बोलेको सुनेको थीइन, यो माहाबीर पुनले गाउँमा कम्प्युटर ल्याएको ८ महिना भएको छैन मेरो छोरा त अङ्रेजि प्याररर बोल्दो रहेछ।

छोराले फोनमा कुरा गरिसके पछी बाले भानुलाई भन्छन्, हैन यो मोबीलबाट फोन नगर पैसा तिर्नुपर्छ भनेको होइन, फेरि त्यहि रबि सितत गफ गरेको होलानि हैन? दिनभरि संगै भएपछीपनि फेरि मोबिलबाट कुरा गरि राख्नु पर्छ। मोबील हैन बा मोबाईल हो, यो उपकरण मन्छेको सुबिधाको लागि बनाएको हो त्याहा त्यस्को घरगै रहनु भन्दा यहि बसेर कुरा गर्न कस्तो सजिलो। भानुका बा जँगिए, हो हो पैसा तैले तिर्नु परेको भए थाहा हुन्थियो। नकराउन बा तिमिलाइनि फेसबूक अकाउन्ट खोलिदिउला भनेर भानुले भन्छ। नेपाल बैंक लिमिटेडले तल बेसि सहरमा कार्य संचालन गरेदेखि त्यो बैंकमा पैसा जम्मागर्न बैंक अकाउन्ट खोलेको थिए भानुका बाले, पछी बैंकले न्यिम्नोतम धितो ५०० बाट २००० बनाएपछी पैसा जम्मा नगरेकोले त्यो अकाउन्ट बन्ध गर्नु पर्यो, तर त्यो अकाउन्ट खोल्न त नागरिक्ता सागरिक्ता सबै चाहिएको थियो, यो मुलाले कसरी फेरि अकाउन्ट खोल्यो भनेर छक्क पर्दै भानुको बाले प्रश्न गरे। बाको के हो त्यो फेसबूक भन्ने प्रश्नको जवाफमा भानुले त्यो भनेको सन्सारका सबै मान्छे हरुको जमघट हुने ठाउँ हो क्या, त्यहा फोटो, भिडिओ, सबै थोक राख्न अनि हेर्न पाइन्छ अनि त्यहि पोकर खेलेर पैसा पनि जित्न सकिन्छ। तेरो त्यो कम्प्युटरबाट जितेको पैसाले मोबील फोनको पैसा तिर्न मिल्छ त? भानुले जवाफ दिन्छ, मिल्छ होला नि तर सोध्नु पर्छ मलाइ राम्ररी थाहा छैन। लु हिडत त्यसो भए कम्प्युटर चलाउन भनेर भानुका बाले भन्छन्, भानुले जवाफ दिन्छ, जति बेला मन लाग्यो त्यति बेला चलाउन पाउछ र? आजको मेरो पालो सकियो अब भोलि जानु पर्छ। त्यो मुला कम्प्युटर चलाउनपनि पालो पर्खिनु पर्ने कस्तो वाइहात, म कसरी चलाउदो रहेछन् भनि हेर्न लाग्छु भनेर भानुको बा कम्प्युटरहरु राखिएको स्कुल तर्फ लाग्दै हुन्छन बाटोमा कसैले उस्लाइ पछाडिबाट सोध्छ, कम्प्युटर तिर हिडेउकी क्याहो भानु को बाउ? भानुको बा झनक्क रिसाएर पछाडि फर्किदापनि नफर्कि कन जवाफ दिन्छ, हो त नि। उस्को रिसको कारण उस्ले आफै भत् भताउछ, सानो छदा रघुरामको छोरा भनेर सबैले बोलाउथे ऐले मेरै नामले बोलाउनु पर्ने मेरो छोराको नामले बोलाउछ साले हरु, मेरा बाले यस्तो राम्रो नाम राखी दिएका छन किन फेरि भानुका बा भनेर बोलाउनु पर्ने, त्यो भानुलाइ मेरो छोरो भनेर बोलाउन सक्दैनन् र? यो सबै कम्प्युटरकै खेल हो।

कम्प्युटर चलाउने ठाउमा गएर एक्छिन् रमिता हेरेपछि भानुका बा घर फर्किए, भोलि पल्ट छोरा संगै फेरि कम्प्युटर चलाउन स्कुल पुगेका भानुका बाले छोराले फेसबूक चलाएको हेरे, भानुले हेर्नुस् बा हिजो रबिले गफ् दिदै थियो हेर्नु त त्यस्को स्त्याटसमा २ वटा कमेन्ट मत्रै, मेरो मा त ३ वटा छ, अझ एउटा लाइक्स पनि छ, भानुका बाले त्यो अङ्रेजि के बुझ्नु र बोरु तासमा भएको ३ चाँही चिने अनि ए हो रहेछ भनेर किच्च हासे। फेसबूकमा एक् दुई जनाको फोटो देखाएपछी भानुले पोकर सुरु गर्यो, अनि भन्यो यहि हो बा मैले हिजो ५०००० जितेको। कम्प्युटर चलाउदा चलाउदै एउटा पेज खुल्यो, पार्टी पोकर भन्ने, यो के हो भनेर भानुको बाले सोध्दा भानुको जवाफ थियो यो पनि त्यहि मैले खेलेको पोकर जस्तै होला, पर्खिनु म हरिदाईलाई सोध्छु। हरिदाईले भनेको त्यो खतरा पैसाको जुवा खेल्ने साईट हो रे, त्यो नचलाउनु भनेको छ, भानुका बा तम्सिए, तेरिमा म जस्तो खप्पिस् जुवाडेलाई जुवा नखेल्नु भन्छ, लु त बस् या अब मैले जानेको छ पैसा कसरी जित्ने भनेर। भानु कम्प्युटर चलाउन बस्छ अनि बाले छेउमा बसेर सिकाउदै हुन्छ, पार्टी पोकरमा रेजिस्टर गरेर पोकर खेल्न लाग्दा वेबसाइटले पैसा जम्मागर्न माग्छ। अब पैसा कसरी हाल्ने त त्यो वेबसाइटमा, भानुका बाको दिमागमा झट निरौला बाको नाम आउछ। निरौला बाका छोराले वेबसाइत खोले देखि घरकै नाम निरौला निवासबाट परिवर्तन गरेर गाई भैंसी डट कम भनेर राखेका थिए, गाउँले हरु नझुकिउन् भनि घरको अघाडी ठुलो अक्ष्यरमा नेपाली र अङ्रेजि दुबैमा लेखेका पनि थिए। भानुका बाले भानुलाइ गाई भैंसी डट कममा गएर निरौला बाको छोरालाई कम्प्युटर बाट उस्को पार्टी पोकरको नाममा पैसा हालिदिनु भन्छ, उस्को सोच थियो जिति सकेपछि त्यो सबै पैसा तिरिदिन्छु भनेर। तर गाई भैंसी डट कममा तरिका अलिकति फरक थियो, त्यो वेबसाइतले गाउँमा भएका गाई भैंसी किनबेच गर्ने गर्थियो। यो कुरा थाहा पाएर भानुका बाले आफ्नो भैंसी बिक्रिमा रखिदेनत अहिलेको लागि पछी पैसा जितेर अर्को एउटा भैंसी नि थप्छु भनेर छोरालाइ भन्छन्।

चाहिने सबै थोक, भैंसीको उमेर, रंग, कति चोटि बिहाएको, दूध कति दिने, आदि खाल्का प्रश्न सोधेपछी गाई भैंसी डट कमले भानुको बाको भैसिको दाम १६००० निकाल्यो। ७ दिन अघाडी तल्लो घरे काइलाले २२००० दिन्छु भनेको भैसिको मुल्य १६००० मात्र निस्किद भानुका बा अलिक रिसाए, त्यहि पनि भैसिलाइ दाउमा राखेर जुवा खेलेर अर्को भैंसी थप्छु भन्ने सोच बनाएको भानुका बा केही बोलेनन्। भैंसीलाई बेच्ने कुरा लेखि सके पछी त्यो वेबसाइतले बेच्ने ब्यक्तिको बारेमा सोध्यो, भानुका बा भन्दै गए अनि भानु लेख्दै गयो। अन्तिममा वेबसाइतले पैसा पठाउनको लागि बैंक अकाउन्ट नम्बर माग्यो, अब पोहिलानै बन्द गरिसकेको बैंकको अकाउन्ट काम लाग्दैन फेरि नेपाल बैंक लिमिटेड मा कम्प्युटर कस्ले चलाउने र, त्यहि पुरानो खाता हेर्ने तरिका, भानुका बालाइ अब के गर्ने के नगर्ने भन्ने भयो। उता भैंसी बेच्छु भनेर भनि सकेको छ, यता पोकर खेल्न कम्प्युटरमा पैसा आएको छैन, कम्प्युटरमा पैसा मगाउनको लागि बैंक अकाउन्ट चाहिने रहेछ, भानुका बाको छटपटीमा अर्को समस्या थप्न हरिदाइ आउछ र भन्छ, तिम्रो आजको समय सकियो भानु। आज त भएन भोलि चाँही केही गर्नु पर्ला भनेर सोच्दै भानुका बाले हरिदाईलाई सोध्छ, यो कम्प्युटर मा पोकर चाँही कसरी खेल्ने हँ। हरिदाईले जवाफ दिन्छ, त्यस्को लागित भिसा कार्ड अथवा मास्टर कार्डको नम्बर चाहिन्छ, त्योपनि नेपालको बैंकले दिदैन, नेपालको बैंकले भिसा कार्डत दिन्छ तर त्यो नेपाल र ईन्डियामा मात्रै चल्छ यो पोकर अमेरिकन वेब्साइतहो, यसमा नेपलको बैंकको भिसा कार्ड काम गर्दैन, बिदेशकै बैंक अकाउन्ट चहिन्छ। अब तारेभीरबाट ति तल बेसि सहरमा भएको नेपाल बैंकको अकाउन्ट खोल्न जान त टाढा भएको महसुस् गर्ने भानुका बाले कताबाट बिदेश गएर अकाउन्ट खोल्ने, आ यो कम्प्युटर भन्ने कुरा पनि हाउडे रहेछ, वाइहातमा समय खेर गयो भनेर बर्बरौदै भानु र भानुका बा घर तिर ओरालो लाग्छन्। घरमा पुग्दा खेरि त निरौला बाले पालेका दुइटा भुस्तिग्रेहरु बसि रहेका रहेछन्, आउन साथ सोधे भैंसीको कोड कति? कम्प्युटरमा भैंसी बिक्रि गर्ने निर्णय भए पछी गाई भैंसी डट कमले एउटा कोड दिएको थियो, भानुलाइ कोड कन्ठ भएकोले प्याच्च मुख् खोल्यो “तारेभीरमा राम राम”, त्यो सुनेर एउटा भुस्तिग्रेले १६००० पैसा निकालेर दियो र गोठमा बाधेको भैंसी फुकाएर लग्यो। केही बोल्यो भने भुस्तिग्रेले कुट्ला भन्ने डर, भानुको बालाइ अत्यन्तै पीडित भएको महसुस् भयो, २२००० मुल्य भएको भैंसी १६००० मा आफ्नै आँखा अघाडी फुकाएर लग्दा बोल्न पनि सकिएन, कम्प्युटरले गर्नु गर्यो, अब मलाइ न्याय चाहिन्छ भनेर भानुका बा त्यो ठाउँका माओवादी कमान्डरलाई भेट्न भनि लागे।

माओवादीका खुंखार नेता श्यामकुमार थापाका आफ्नै मामाको ज्वाई भएका कारण प्रकाश घर्ती त्यस ठाउँका माओवादीका कमान्डर थिए। भानुका बाको कुरा सुनि सकेपछि प्रकाशले निरौला बाको छोरा सँग छलफल गर्ने निधो गरे। निरौला बाको घरमा तिनिहरुको ठुलो लामो छलफल पछी कुनै उपलभ्दि मूलक निस्कर्स निस्किएन, निरौला बाको छोराले भैंसी फिर्ता लाने भए २६००० पैसा मागे, भानुका बाले अघि भर्खर १६००० मा त्यहि भैंसी बेचेका थिए, अनि माओवादीहरुले भानुका बालाई २२००० सम्म दिनु भनेर सम्झाउन पटी लागे। निरौला बाको छोराको तर्क थियो, सन्सारको किनबेच गर्ने नियम पालना गर्दा खरीद गर्ने ब्यक्तिले सामान किनि सके पछी मन परेन भनेर फिर्ता गर्न पाउछ, तर समान बेच्नेले समान बेचि सकेपछी त्यो बेचेको समान किन्नेलाइ फिर्ता गर भन्न मिल्दैन। मैले यो वब्साइत ब्यापारको लागि खोलेको, भैंसी किन्ने भए मेरो कम्प्युटरले निकालेको मुल्य २६००० हो, र त्यसमा बार्गैनिङ हुदैन। मओबादि हरुलाइ आफ्नो पार्टीको दबाब दिएर गरीबलाई सहयोग गर्न त्यो भैंसी २२००० मा फिर्ता दिलाउनको लागि निकै कस्रत गर्दै थिए। भानुका बा जँगिए, यो साला सबै दोश माहाबीर पुनको हो, न त तिनिले हाम्रो ठाउँमा कम्प्युटर ल्याउथे, न त यो ठाउँको नाम श्रीजनानगर बाट तारेभीर हुन्थियो, नत आज मैले मेरो भैंसी बेच्नु पर्थियो, यो माहाबीर पुनले गर्दा हाम्रो गाउँनै बिग्रियो, सबै जानाको ध्यान् कम्प्युटरमै मात्रै छ, गाउँ घरमा खाने लाउने समस्या छ, धान खेतमा काम गर्न छाडेर मान्छे कम्प्युटर चलाउन जान्छन्, के त्यो कम्प्युटरले खेतमा धान फलाउछ? के त्यस्ले मन्छेलाइ कपडा दिन्छ? शिक्षा लिन त स्कुल मा पढ्नु पर्छ के कम्प्युटर चलाएर मान्छे सिक्षित् बन्छ? यो सब गाउँमाभै रहेको नाटक हो। मेरो छोरा कम्प्युटरमा जुवा खेलेर यति जिते भनेर सुनाउदै आउछ, अब कम्प्युटरले मान्छेलाई कति सम्म बनाउदा रहेछ, मेरा बाले रखिदिएको नाम भन्दा मलाइ आजकाल सबैले भनुका बा भनेर बोलाउछन्, मैले भनेको मान्नु हुन्छ भने हाम्रो गाउँमा कम्प्युटर चाहिदैन, निकालेर फ्याकी दिनुस त्यो तारेभीरमा भएको तारले बाधेर राखेको वाइहात उपकरण। यसरी बर्बरौदै भानुका बा त्यहा बाट हिड्छन्, माओवादी कमान्डर प्राकशलाई भानुका बाको कुरा निकै घत्लाग्दो लाग्छ, एक्छिन् सोच्छ हाम्रो पार्टीको लागि भोट ल्याउन भएपनि गरीबको कुरा सुन्नु पर्छ, अनि आफ्ना माओवादी साथिहरु लिएर त्यो उपकरण जोडिएको तारे भिरको ठुलो रूखनै काटी दिन्छ।

Jasse James and his assassination.

2010-03-27T09:56:00.000+02:00

The most popular American folk hero Jasse James was shot to death in 3rd April 1882, at the age of 34 by Robert Ford. After his death several bandits raged in different time periods but no one could replace the popularity of Jasse James. The main point of focus is “would he still be such an icon if he wasn’t assassinated?” the reply is different to judge. Jasse was popular figure in Books, Magazines, newspapers, and comics even when he was alive, people used to read his deeds and robbery stories and share it with their folks. Out of the most the story tellers in bars and pubs made him more popular and it didn’t take much for him to be highly rated popular story character of that era.

During his final days of life he killed everybody whom he suspected to be the rats of police, but the mounting pressure on him about the future and his illness made him weak from inside. The folk story tells that the Ford Brothers Charlie and Robert to be trustworthy of Jasse so, he took them to his house to live with his children, later the brothers killed him in his own home. But the main reason why Jasse James took the Ford brothers to his house is quite different. Jasse knew he cannot run anymore from the police, and the amount of money that police had kept on him could make anyone target him anymore plus he was suffering from the disease. So, instead of dying the death of coward he thought of dying as he was then, the most popular figure. The man he choosed to kill him was Robert Ford, Jasse knew that the Ford brothers were trying to kill him so, in his last stage he opened his gun belt and placed it in the sofa. Jasse felt Robert couldn’t shoot him if he is turned towards him so he got up in the chair and faced the wall to clean the poster. That was the only moment when Jesse didn’t have his gun with him and the Robert Ford shot him dead.

The reason why Jasse have chosen Robert to kill him is Robert was the biggest fan of Jasse, he knew from the birth till date about Jasse and he have read almost every published article about Jasse. The other common factor was they both were 5 ft. and 8 inches tall, they both had green eye, they both were last son of the family, and their fathers were Baptists, etc. Jasse thought there’s something special with Robert and he could see his future as the most popular man in the history of America if Robert would kill him, so he opted to be killed in his own home. If Robert Ford wouldn’t have killed him then he would not have been such popular yet, we can take an example of John Dillinger who was re-known bandit assassinated by the police, but not pronounced as folk hero. Jasse knew if he will be assassinated then he’d be much more popular than he was at that era. The only man who was in such height of popularization without being assassinated was Robin Hood, the man who was much more popular before being assassinated was Alexander the Great.

Whatever it might be, Jasse commercialized the assassination thing that most of the popular people at one era wanted to be assassinated to remain popular as they are forever. We can see the people like John Lennon, Jimi Hendrix, Abraham Lincoln, John F Kennedy, etc. who were assassinated on their height of popularity and still remain in millions heart. The most funny assassination statement was made by Osho and his followers, they claimed American Government injected him slow poison and he died after struggling for several weeks. Well, I don’t know the actual cause of his death cause some people said he died of heart failure, but the main thing was he wanted to be assassinated to be much more popular like Jasse James so, people would remember him for ages. That’s why he made the statement in his death letter saying US government have poisoned him, that makes him being assassinated, but his main point of focus was to be well known like the American wild west folk hero Jasse James.

मेरा बाको सपना

2009-12-28T16:09:00.000+02:00

पढाई लेखाइ सकेर राम्रो जागीर खाने इच्छ्या सबैको भए जस्तै मेरो पनि छ, तर समय र परिस्थितिले सधैं साथ नदिदो रहेछ। पढने र पढाउने कुरामा बाबाले सधैं साथ दिनुभयो, तर पढाई सकेर जागिर खाने कुरामा मैले आफै जोड दिनु पर्ने हुन्थियो। बाबा मास्टर भएकोले पढ्नमा निकै जोड दिनु हुन्थियो तर आफ्नो मन सधैं पढाईमा कसरी लागोस र राजेश हमालको फिलीम महिनामा दुई चोटि त रिलिज हुन्थियो, अनि मेरो बेस्ट हिरोको फिलीम हेर्न नारायणघाट जानै पर्थियो। माडीमा पनि एउटा सानो भिडियो फिलीम देखाउने खोलेको छ तर त्यहा हिन्दि फिलीम लगाउछन्, शायद हिन्दि फिलीम र गीत मनपराउने मानिस हरुको जनसंख्या धेरै भएर होला, तर आफुलाइ आफ्नै नेपाली भाषा र फिलीम मन पर्ने भएको कारण हिन्दि मन पर्दैन। अझ राजेश हमालको फिलीम आइ रहने भएकोले नेपाली बाहेक अरु फिलीम हेर्नु पनि पर्दैन।

जिन्दगी सधैं फिलीम हेरेर बित्ने भए कति रमाइलो हुन्थियो होला, तर जति बुढो हुँदै गयो त्यति टेन्सन बध्दै जान्छ भने जस्तै, स्कुल पढ्दा होमवर्कको मात्रै टेन्सन हुन्थियो अहिले पढाई सकेपछी जागीर खोज्ने टेन्सन छ। अर्किड बाट +२ सकेका मेरा अरु साथिहरु एमबिबिएस र ईन्जिनियरिङ पढ्न इन्ट्रान्स प्रिपरेसन ट्रैनिङको लागि काठमाडौं तिर लागे। डाक्टर बन्ने इच्छ्या मलाई नि छ तर के गर्नु आफ्नो सर्टिफिकेतमा डाक्टर बन्ने लक्ष्यन छैन, झन् त्यस माथि गाह्रो इन्ट्रान्स एग्जाम, त्यो झन्झट गर्नु भन्दा त रामपुरमा कृषि पढ्नु राम्रो भन्ने मेरो सोच छ। यस्तै के गर्ने के गर्ने भनेर दोधारमा भएको बेला मेरो मिल्ने साथि हिमालले काठमाडौं बाट फोन गर्यो र के बिचार छ दीपक काठमाडौं तिर आउने हैन भनेर भन्यो। काठमाडौं जाने इच्छ्या साबैलाई हुदो हो तर त्यहा गएरनी के गर्नु, आफन्तकोमा बसो भने खाने पानी र नुहाउने पानिको समस्या, डेरा लिएर बस्यो भने महगो घरभाडा त्यस माथि कमाई धमाइ छैन। तर यहाँ चित्वनमै बस्यो भने पनि गर्ने त केही होइन अनि जिन्दगी यसरी बित्दैन।

हिमालको निमन्त्रनालाई स्विकार गरेर म काठमाडौं जाने निर्णय गरे, त्यसैले बस्ने खानेको र के गर्ने भनेर सल्लाह लिन मैले हिमाललाइ फोन गरेर सोधे। हिमालले एक्लै बस्दै गरेको र एक्लै बस्न महगो भएकोले हामी दुईजना संगै मिलेर बसौं भन्ने कुरा गर्यो। हिमाल मेरो सानो देखिको साथि भएकोले उस्को प्राय सबै बानि मलाइ थाहा थियो, उ साह्रै रमाइलो केटा हो र साथि-भाइ हरु सबै सँग मिलन्सार छ, त्यसो भएकोहुँदा मलाइ हिमालसँग बस्न कुनै संकोच भएन। मैले काठमाडौं जाने कुरा घरमा राखे, नानाथरि संकोच पछी अन्तिममा मलाइ काठमाडौं जाने आग्या प्राप्त भयो। म काठमाडौं जाने निस्चित भएपछि हिमालले काठमाडौं को कलन्किमा लिन आउने बाचा गर्यो। म काठमाडौं जानको लागि घर बाट हिडे, तर काठमाडौं जानु भन्दा अघाडी नारायणघाटको पोखरा बस्पार्कमा भएको हीमालको घरमा गएर उस्ले काठमाडौंबाट मगाएको पैसा लिन जानु थियो। त्यसैले नारायणघाटैबाट काठमाडौं जाने माईक्रो नभए बस चढ्छु भनेर म माडीबाट नारायणघाटको लागि बस चढ्न बस स्टप पुगे। नारायणघाटको लागि एउटा बस रहेछ तर सार्है भिड थियो। प्राय आइमाइमान्छे हरु भएको त्यो बसमा भित्र टेक्ने ठाउँ थिएन त्यसैले प्राय लोग्ने मान्छेहरु गाडीको छतमा बसेका थिए। खलासीले मलाइनि छतमा चढ्ने सल्लाह दियो, पढेलेखेको मान्छेको हीसाबले मैले गाडीको छतमा चढ्नु उपयुक्त कुरा होइन, तर नचढौ भने बसभित्र छिर्ने ठाउ छैन र फेरि मलाइ काठमाडौं सम्म पुग्नु थियो, केही बेरको अन्कोच् पछि म बसको छतमा चढे र बस त्यहा बाट नारायणघाट तिर लम्कियो।

छेउ छाउमा चिनेको मान्छे थियेनन् र कहिले नचिनेको मान्छे सँग बोल्न मलाई खासै मन पर्दैन, त्यस माथि बसको छतमा ब्याग भिरेर दुइटा हातले छतको फलाम च्याप्प समातेर बसेको थिए। गाडी अघाडी बढ्ने क्रममा मलाई हिमालले भनेको कुरा याद आयो, उ अरु साथिहरु जस्तो एमबिबिएसको इन्ट्रान्स प्रीपरेसन होइन आइएल्ट्स र स्याट गर्दै छ रे। त्यो पढाई भनेको बिदेश पढाईगर्न जानको लागि गरिन्छ रे। अर्को एउटा टोफल भन्ने नि हुन्छ रे, त्यो टोफल चाँही अमेरिका जान र आइएल्ट्स चाँही यूरोप र अष्ट्रेलिया जान काम लाग्छ भन्दै थियो, अमेरिकाको पनि धेरै युनिभर्सिटी हरुले आइएल्ट्सलाई मान्यता दिने भएकोले सबै तिर काम लाग्ने गरि उस्ले आइएल्ट्स लिएको कुरा मलाई भनेको थियो। उस्ले मलाई तिमी पनि बिदेश जाने होलानि भन्दा मेरो मन खुशी भएको थियो तर कता कता लाजपनि लागि रहेको थियो, कतै हिमालले मलाई जिस्क्याएको त होइन भनेर। बिदेश गएर पढ्ने इच्छ्या मलाई पनि त छ, तर अहिले काठमाडौं गएरै थाहा हुन्छ म के गर्छु भनेर। यसो सोच्दा नेपालमै बस्यो भने बाउ आमाको एक्लो छोरो बूढेशकालमा काम आउछु, तर सधैं बाउ आमाकै नजिकै बस्यो भने जिन्दगिमा प्रगति गर्न सकिएला र? त्यहि माडिका कुरा काट्ने छिमेकिहरु र वोरिपरि भएका गान्जा र चारेश खाने केटाहरु कसरी जिन्दगी यतै बिताउनु र। फेरि बिदेशमा धेरै पैसा कमाएर आए पछी बाउ आमालाई पनि सुख सँग राख्न सकिन्छ। बिदेशमा जिन्दगी कस्तो होला त? यस्तै सजिलो त अवस्य हुदैन होला, काम गराएर निकै पेलाउछन होला हामिलाइ, तर के गर्नु पैसाको लागि गर्नै पर्यो। अंग्रेजीमा धेरै नम्बर ल्याए पनि के गर्नु लेख्न त म खप्पिस छु नि तर बोल्न पो आउदैन, यहाँ खै कसै सँग कहिलै बोल्नु परेन, र बिदेशमा बिहान उठे देखि बेलुका सूतुन्जेल अंग्रेजी बोल्नु पर्दा मर्नु सरी हुन्छ होला मलाई। फेरि त्यहा गाइको मासु खान्छन अरे, झुकिएर कसैले मलाई खुवाइदियो भने म बाहूनको छोरोको धर्म नस्ट हुन्छ।

बिदेशमा भन्दा जिन्दगी यतै पनि रमाइलो छ, अलिकति अंग्रेजी बोल्न जाने भने त्यो चितवन निकुन्जमा गाइडको काम पनि पाउछ, आफुलाई त त्यो निकुन्जको चप्पा चप्पा थाहा छ, गाईड त म सजिलै बन्न सक्छु, फेरि पैसा पनि राम्रो हुन्छ अनि कसैले मन पराएर केही डल्लर दिए भने पनि नेपालिमा साट्दा धेरै रुपैया बन्छ। गाडी गुडी रहेको थियो र फेरि मेरो ध्यान् अर्कै तिर मोडियो। अरुको काम गर्नु भन्दा आफ्नै बिज्नेस खोल्नु सजिलो हुन्छ होला, नारायणघाटमा भएको जस्तै मैलेनि यहाँ एउटा पोउल्ट्री फारम खोल्न सके भने आफ्नो बिज्नेस पनि हुने अनि कमाई पनि राम्रो हुने, बोरु त्यतै तिर लागुकि कसो, फेरि बाहूनको छोरोले कुखुरा पाल्ने अलिकति सुहाउदैन, तर काम भनेको काम हो केही फरक पर्दैन। यत्तिकैमा आवाज आयो, टाउको बचाउ है टाउको बचाउ, यसो हेर्दा बाटोको छेउको रुखको हांगाले बसको छतमा बसेका मान्छे हरूलाई लाग्ने रहेछ, त्यो देखेर मैले आफ्नो टाउको निहुराए। त्यो रुख कट्यो र मैले टाउको फेरि सिधा पारे। त्यो रुख देखि सार्है रिस उठ्यो मलाई र त्यसलाई कसैले काटे हुने भनेर मन मनै भने तर त्यो रुख काटेर के गर्नु, त्यो त झन हाम्रो वातावरनको लागि चुनौति हुनेछ, फेरि गल्ति हाम्रै त हो नि बसको छतमा बसेर यात्रा गर्ने।

आफ्नो झोला कसैले चलायोकि भनेर एक् पल्ट समातेर हेरे त्यसपछी हिमालको घरमा गएर पैसा लिएपछि यसै ब्यागमा राख्नु पर्छ त्यसैले यो झोला अझ सुरख्छित् सँग राख्नु पर्छ भनेर मेरो मनमा कुरा खेल्दै थियो, एक्कासी मैले हिमालको बहिनि सबितालाई सम्झे। म सधैं हिमालको घर जादा दाजु नमस्कार भन्थि अनि त्यस पछि सर्बत पानी ल्याएर दिन्थि, उस्ले लजाएर सर्बत दिदा मेरो मन कस्तो कस्तो हुन्थियो, मलाईनी लाज लागेर आउथियो। सबुले त्यसरि सबैलाइ सर्बत दिन्थि भनेर सोच्न मेरो मन मान्दैन, शायद म प्रति उस्को केही झूकाब भएकोले होला मलाई मात्रै यसरी सर्बत दिन्छे भन्ने मेरो मान छ। तर मेरो सोचाइ कहाँसम्म सत्य हो, म त उस्को दाईको साथि मात्रै हो अनि हिमालको धेरै साथिहरु छन्, शायद सबुले सबैलाइ गर्ने व्यबहार एउटै होला, मेरो पापि बुद्धि आफ्नो मिल्ने साथिको बहिनिलाई त्यस्तो सोच्नु। तर नसोचुपनि कसरी उस्को त्यो मुस्कान् अनि मैले सर्बत खाएकी खाइन भनेर हेर्ने बानि अनि सकिने बित्तिकै थपिदिउ भनेर सोध्न आउने बानि, यस्ले सरासर् जनाउछ म प्रति उस्को केही झूकाब छ भनेर। अहीले स्कुल छुट्टी भएको बेला सबु घरमै होलिन, म उसलाई नहेरित काठमाडौं जादै जान्न भन्ने मैले अडान लिए। खै के गर्ने के गर्ने भनेर मेरो सोच यहि अड्की रहेको बेला ढ्यामम गरेको एउटा ठुलो आवाज आयो। बसको छतमा बसेको म हावामा उड्न थाले, हावामा उड्नु भन्दा अघाडी बसको छतको फलामले मेरो पेटमा निकै सारो छेड्ने गरि हानेको थियो। निकै बेर हावामा उडेपछी म भुईमा गएर बजारिए, मेरो आँखा खुल्लै छ, हामि चढेको बस जलि रहेको छ र धुवाको मुस्लो ठुलो छ। मान्छेहरु हल्ला गरेर यता उति भाग्ने र हिड्ने कोशिश् गर्दै छन्, मैले मेरो हात चलाउन खोजे चल्दैन, आँखा घुमाएर खुट्टामा हेरे एउटा खुट्टा आधि चुडिएको रहेछ, तर मलाई केही दुखेको थिएन। आफ्नो खुट्टा पनि आफ्नो जस्तो थिएन अनि फेरि मेरो पेटमा हेरे पेट फुटेर आन्द्राहरु छेउको भुईमा छरपस्ट छ, म अब मर्दैछु भन्ने मलाई लाग्यो। मृत्युलाई यति नजिकै बाट हेर्दा मलाई डर लागेको थिएन तर मनमा चिन्ता थियो, सानो देखि पालन पोशण गरेर हुर्काएको छोराले जवान भएपछि बुढेश्कालको साहारा बन्छ भन्ने सपना बोकेका मेरा बाको सपना कहिले पुरा हुने भएन। यत्तिकैमा मैले कता कता बाट आवाज सुने जस्तो लाग्यो त्यो मओबादिले राखेको अंबुशमा हाम्रो बस पर्यो भनेर।

Virgin Mary and her son

2009-12-28T16:04:00.003+02:00

The total number of human population in today's world is 6 billion approximately, 99.9999% of those humans are born through the natural process i.e. sex. Biology today proves that plants too have sex for reproduction and not going deeper into the context of molecular process and fertilization of eggs and so on. Science have made easier the human birth through test tube and lots of other fertilization process that in today's world any women can have baby without losing her virginity until her oval is fertile.

The most disgusting thing presented as fact is the birth of Jesus Christ through the virgin mother. No one ever clarified why Christians wants the mother of Jesus to be virgin? to make him unique than others? or to tell the tale of greatness of god? May be lots of people believe that, but I don't really trust the biological untrue thing as an evidence of divine power. Jesus himself called father to someone whose name is not disclosed, some Christians says him Jehovah and some calls the Jehovah witness as the false prophet. I don't give a fuck whatever it might be, but the main fact is Jesus had father whose name is still unclear, which makes him Illegal son, the term we popularly use for that is Bastard. Jesus is Bastard whose father is still unrevealed.

Whatever it might be, the good part of the fake story of Jesus' birth was it made the curious scientists how the virgin birth is possible. Hence, they did research to produce test tube babies and some other processes through which any women could give birth without really having sex. If Jesus was born in this era through the virgin mother then it'd be appreciable and well trusted from everyone but the tale of child being born through virgin mother around two thousand years ago is just fake.

अंयोल

2009-12-16T10:53:00.002+02:00

झै झगडा कार्यक्रममा म सधै अघाडी थिए, कसैले केही बोल्योकि त्यसको सेखि झार्न मलाई निमण्त्रना को आवस्यक्ता थिएन। पार्वतीनगर देखि मंगलपुर सम्म सधै मेरै चर्चा चल्थियो, केवल मेरो मात्र भन्दापनि हामी दुई साथीको चर्चा हुन्थियो। सबैले मेरो प्रसंग निकालेको सुन्दा कहिले कहि म त चित्वनै पुरा मेरो हो जस्तो लाग्थियो। प्राय सबैको मुखमा रामे र राकेश झुन्डिएको थियो। हामीलाई माया गरेर गाउँलेहरू रारा भनेर बोलाउथे। हाम्रो नामले गर्दै होला रारा चाउचाउ पनि किराना पसलबाट खुब बिक्रि हुन्थियो। साना बच्चा-बुची हरुले हामी जस्तै परिचीत हुन कहिले आफ्नो नाम वाइ-वाइ पनि राखी हिडे, तर यो ठाउँमा राराको टक्कर कसैले गर्न सक्दैन थियो। साइलेन्सरको पाइप निकालेको मेरो आर-एक्स मोटरसाईकलको भ्याटटट बाटोमा सुन्दा बच्चा-बुची हरु डरले घर भित्र पसि झ्यालबाट चिहाउथे। कोइ कोइ चाँही आज राराले कसलाई कुट्नेहो भनि रमिता हेर्न पछी पछी दगुर्थे। हामी दुई जानाको यो मेल देखेर गाउँलेको मुखमा प्राय प्रश्न उठ्ने गर्थियो, राकेश बलियो कि रामे, सहि जवाफ कसैको मुखमा थिएन। राकेश र म सानो देखिको गुच्चा खेल्ने साथी थियौ, संगै हुर्कियौ। गाउँको दादा भगतेलाई दुई जना मिलेर काटेपछि हामी यो गाउँका दादा भनियौ। खेर, त्यो भगते जस्तो हामी गाउँले सँग पैसा वसुल्ने गर्दैन थियौ। पढ्नपनि एस.एल.सी सम्म पढेकै छौ, त्यहि भएर गाउँले हरुले आफ्नो छोरा छोरीलाई रामे र राकेश जस्तै ठुलो मान्छे बन्न एस.एल.सी पास गर्नु पर्छ भनेर सम्झाउने गर्थे। रामे र राकेशको दोस्ति टुट्यो भने यो गाउँको दादा को होला भनेर कसैको मनमा प्रश्नपनि उठ्ने गर्थियो।

ति मुला गाउँले हरुलाई तर्साउने ईच्छ्या झन बढ्दै गयो मेरो, त्यसको लागि मैले आर्मीमा भर्तिहुने बिचार गरे। आर्मीमा भएपछि बंदुक चलाउन सिकाउछ अनि कस्रत हरु पनि राम्रो गराउछ, म झन बेसि तागतिलो हुन्छु अनि फिल्ममा जस्तै बंदुक देखाएर म सबैलाई तर्साउछु भन्ने कुरा मेरो मनमा आयो। मैले यो प्रस्ताब् मेरो जिग्री राकेश सँग राखे, उस्को सहमतिमा हामी आर्मीमा भर्ति खुलेको मौका पारी नाम लेखाउन गयौ। भर्ना हुने झन्झट निकै रहेछ, धेरै कस्रत गरेपछि मेरो नाम निस्कियो तर मेरो साथी राकेशको नाम निस्केन। आर्मीको ट्रेनिङ नौ महिनाको हुदो रहेछ र त्यो अवधिभर कसैले क्याम्प बाहिर जाने नियम रहेनछ। राकेशलाई अब गाउँको जिम्मा तेरो भनेर सुम्पिएर साथै नौ महिनापछि आर्मीबाट लुकाएर तलाईपनि एउटा बंदुक ल्याइदिन्छु भन्ने सर्तमा गाउँ फर्काएर म त्यहि क्याम्पमा बसे।

दिन गन्दा गन्दै नौ महिना बल्ल बित्यो, र यो नौ महिनाको कडा परिस्रम देखि घर जाने पालो आयो। म झोला बोकेर घरतिर लागे, मेरो दिमागमा अरु कोहि भन्दापनि मेरो प्यारो साथी राकेश थियो, अहिले त त्यस्ले धेरै मान्छे कुटीसक्यो होला भन्ने मेरो अनुमान थियो। ट्रेनिङ सकेर घर फर्किदा त्यसलाई बंदुक चोरेर लगि दिन्छु भन्ने मेरो सोचपनि सोचै मात्रै रहयो, त्यस्तो सुरक्ष्या कडा भएको आर्मी क्याम्पमा कसरी चोर्नु, साह्रै गाह्रो थियो। त्यसको सट्टा मित्रराष्ट्र भारतमा त्यस्तो बंदुक सजिलै पाइन्छन त्यतैबाट किनिदिउला भन्ने कुरा सोच्दै सोच्दै म गाउँतिर लागेको थिए। गाउँले हरुलाई म आर्मी भए भनेर देखाउन पल्टनकै लुगा लगएर गाउँ पसेको देखेर त्यो एरियाका माओवादीका कमान्डरले देखेर मलाई मार्न भनि मान्छे पठायेछ। म गाउँ छाडेर जादा त्यहा माओवादीको केही सुनिन्दैनथियो, त्यसैले मेरो गाउँमा के माओवादी आउछ होला र भन्ने कुरा मनमा लिएर म आफु जन्मेको ठाउँम पल्टने लुगा लगाएर छाती फुलाउदै हिडदै थिए। अचानक एउटा फुच्चे म भातिर कुददै आयो र भन्यो, “रामे दाई रामे दाइ, तपाईंलाई मार्न माओवादीले मान्छे पठाएँको छ रे”, यो कुरा सुनेर मेरो सातो गयो। अबत घर जाऊभने घरमै आएर मलाई मार्ने होलान भनेर म त्यहि नजिकैको एउटा मान्छेको घरमा छिरे। निकैबेर सम्म म त्यहिनै बसि रहे, अनि झ्यालबाट हेरि रहे, साचैनै हो रहेछ, गाउँमा माओवादीको चहल पहल बढेको रहेछ। आर्मीमा हुँदा माओवादीहरु हाम्रा र देशका सत्रु हुन तिनि हरुलाई खोजि खोजि मार्नु पर्छ भनेर सिकएका थिए। आर्मीबाट घर फर्किदा बंदुक लिएर फर्किन पाएकोभए त्यस्ता माओवादी कत्ति मार्नेथिए होला भन्ने कुरा सोच्दै थिए, अचानक एउटा मान्छे त्यो घरभित्र छिरेको जस्तो लाग्यो। घरमुलिले हजुर यहाँ कोहि आएको छैन भनेर त्यो मान्छेलाई बिन्ती गर्दैथियो। म छेउको अर्को कोठामा बसेर त्यस माओवादीको जुत्ताको आवाज सुन्दै थिए, त्यो आवाज म बसेको कोठा तिर लम्कियो, अबत माओवादी आएको रहेछ भने मर्नु भन्दा अघाडी त्यसलाई पनि मारेरै मर्छु भनेर झोलाबाट खुकुरी झिकेर त्यस माओवादीलाई काट्न तयार भएर बसे। अचानक त्यस्ले ढ्याङ गरेर ढोका खोल्यो, म तयार भएर बसेकोले खुकुरी उज्याये र त्यस्ले म तिर उस्को बंदुक तेर्स्यायो। हामी दुईले एक अर्काको अनुहारमा हेर्यौ, त्यो त मेरो साथी राकेशपो रहेछ। आर्मीमा भर्ति नभएपछि सजिलै बंदुक चलाउनको लागि राकेश माओवादी तिर लागेको हो कि भनेर मैले अनुमान लगाए। हामी बिच केही शब्दको आदन प्रादान भएन, आर्मीमा माओवादी हाम्रा सत्रुहुन भने जस्तै तिनि हरुलाईपनि आर्मी हाम्रा सत्रुहुन भनि सिकाएको थियो कि, तर मेरो सानो देखिको मिल्ने साथी, म त्यसलाई कसरी मारु र? नमारु भने मलाईपो उल्टै मार्ने होकि भन्ने मेरो दिमागमा कुरा खेल्दै थियो, अझ के म हुँ भन्ने थाहा पाएरै राकेश मलाई मार्न आएको होलार भन्ने कुरापनि सोचे। उस्को शब्दपनि फुटेन, साथीलाई यतिको समयपछि भेट्दा हर्स न बिलास भने जस्तै भएको थियो मलाई र उस्को आँखामा पनि त्यस्तै अंयोल मैले पढे।

Mao Bacteria

2009-11-20T01:24:00.001+02:00

There are several kinds of bacteria, but Mao bacteria might be the first word among us. The doctor defines most of the bacteria to be harmless and some are even useful for our body. The main danger arise when the bacteria are placed in wrong part of the body, as described by the doctor. Thus there are some bacteria which may cause diseases and are harmful for us and afterward, it affects our surroundings cause of its transmitting nature. Bacteria, the word itself sounds scary and I can't imagine when bacteria will harm the whole surroundings. The term bacteria attached with the communist theory started by Mao Zedong under his name, who have 70 million peoples head under his belts, is called Mao-Bacteria in my terms. Mao is sometimes compared with the Adolf Hitler, who have 11 million heads under his belts personally and 50 million heads over his world war attempt, both being the dictator and patriot of their respective nation. Hitler didn't kill any Germans but it was his own countrymen that Mao killed during his rise and regime. I would have really loved to see the new revolutionary party in Nepal with the name of Hitler, may be they can name it Hitlerbadi or Hitlerist but unfortunately my fellow countrymen have chosen the Mao's theory of economic development in country, which they started with the rebel revolution as Zedong did and later ruled the government demo-critically. Zedong was core communist leader so his dictatorship showed patriotism but the Maoist group in Nepal couldn't follow their theory maker's rules cause people were democratically aware, they have tasted the colors of democracy in several occasions starting from 1950 till now, even for democracy people brought down the wall of royals and ended royal dictatorship. When Maobadi was started, I was sad to hear that such patriotic rebels choosing the path made by Mao Zedong who killed only his citizens, thus as a result we could see the Nepali Maoist killed only Nepali citizens and the heads inside their belt of their belly reached 14000.

After the rebel group held peace talks with the government then every citizens had mixed feelings about the rebel group, some said if they lose the election they might return to their rebel activities again, but some of them were right, despite having majority of the votes they didn't really stopped the rebel activities. Somehow they were habituated to assault, kill, vandalize and issue demand letters which didn't really stopped even after the peace talks and forming their own government. There were two famous murders after they announced the end of rebels declaring the peace talks, those murders are of TV journalist Mr. Birendra Shah and Mr. Ram Hari Shrestha who was their own member and also the businessman. Please do not forget the topic of this article is Mao Bacteria, here I have tried to compare the Maoist of Nepal to the unicellular microorganism called bacteria. They have some similar features like multiplying the numbers and easily transmitting to the weaker cells. Bacteria are very important thing to human body, so does the Maoist the important thing for our country at present context. When placed in wrong place bacteria might be harmful than virus, so when Maoists were placed in wrong place they were harmful for our country.

The development of Nepal is every Nepali's dream; every citizen of their country wants the development of their own country. It will be too proud moment for a citizen to hold his head high and say that I am from the developed and rich country. I dream it, may be people from developed country don’t think about these things but till we don't have that thing with us we crave for it, so do I. The development of Nepal is not possible through only my effort, I need a team, and that team cannot exclude Maoist. It might be possible to hold a development tasks excluding Maoists but I suggest that they are citizen of my country; they should take active part in development of our country. Thus most of bacteria helps in nutrient cycles so does the Maoists can help mobilizing their cadres or followers on several development tasks. So, I want to place that Mao Bacteria in right place of our country and help them to develop Nepal in positive way. Their manpower and knowledge might be well procured and utilized till the best, if we can do it positively and in a well mannered we surely are heading towards the right direction.

Nepal Circle

2009-11-18T17:12:00.000+02:00

To define the term circle I remember one of my friend during my school days said Earth is a circle. Circle has lots of definitions and it depends on the definers, how they define things. Obviously circle doesn’t mean earth but the earth's shape is somewhat circle as I've heard, the main thing he wanted to present is that circle can be also defined as the object and physical existence. The geometric definition might say something different but practically we all use circles in our life, either cultural circle, life cycle circle, food chain circle or evolution circle, lots of elements are tied in circle and we happen to be a part of it. Trying to exit ourselves from that circle isolates us. We are also capable to form our own new circle but it takes time and efficient effort to start and run that circle for long period of time, which always has possibility to collapse in between. Again not going with the geometric definition of circle, the earth rotates around the sun as well as Milky Way, forming a circle, so we have some chain of circle among us which have tied us tightly. Realization of being in the circle is hard thing to find out, though we may not know but we are involved in several circles first being the human circle followed by national circle, cultural circle, family and friends circle, etc. The division of each circle means we are rotating in one circle and as a result with unknown factor we are also involved in other circles, though not actively. Like moon rotates around earth and earth rotates around sun, we too follow the same protocol of circle.

As I said earlier we can make our own circle but the protocol never changes, we still have to follow the set of rules made for the circle. In Nepal there are several circles around, most effectively political circle, then the equilibrium circle, etc. The first thing about political circle is people being aware politically all over Nepal and each people have desire and determination to form their own circle there are several sub-circles of political circle. The famous sub-circle among political circle being is Maoist circle, followed by the caste circle who demands equilibrium, distribution of same rights and facilities to all caste. The word citizen is missing from their demand statement; the equal rights are most needed thing to citizen or caste? The perfect answer is yet to be found. They issue a demand letter stating their caste needs equal rights, why don't people demand equal rights for every citizen of the country? Well, because the caste circle is somewhat different than citizen circle. They later may define, although their demand sound more tilted towards their own caste, the rights was demanded to be utilized for all the citizens of Nepal. If there are some vacant government position and the government issues a certain quota system for some caste then what shall a normal citizen do if he doesn't belong to that caste? That's not the rights for entire citizen, it’s the rights for their own caste, and if there is division in their own caste then again the quarrel and dispute to fill that post arises. Thus, I compare this situation with the small circles, what if earth had 12 moons? The dark period of solar eclipse shall occur very often and we may not enjoy the day light as we are doing now. Thus these small circles have made the life very hard for all Nepali. If some people are not satisfied with one circle he starts his own new circle and it may collide with other circles nearby, as because the main circle is political circle in Nepal. All those small circles rotate around politics.

The Nepal circle is most affected by political circle as its one of the biggest circle of any country, the political circle of Nepal is crushed by Maoist circle the most. Maoist started a new circle with a name of revolution circle some 12 years ago, and their circle is cautioning the country since last 10 years. The revolution is such a beautiful word misused by them to politicize the uneducated and illiterate rural Nepali citizens. They fired those innocent people's asses with the hot chilly of equilibrium and asked them to join their circle to fight against the bigger circles. The Maoist circle has been the biggest threat for Nepali political circle since last 10 years. Every policy maker and follower have to be precautionary about that Maoist circle who destroyed bridges, towers, ambushed and vandalized vehicles and killed other innocent peoples for the revolution. The term revolution defines as the positive change to be brought by fighting against the evils, but what shall I say if the evil fights against the good to deploy evilness all over the country? Destruction. Maoist were fighting for destruction and still fighting for destruction which they name it revolution by themselves. Revolution doesn't mean destroying the country's property, its complete disaster and they are the destroyers.

Their destruction period started with killing the innocent polices around the country and had a huge fight against the Nepal army. They are responsible for Nepali citizen lacking the social security these days, single citizen of the country feels unsafe and insecure inside their own country, who are to be blamed, obviously the Maoist. They are also responsible to harass the civics of Nepal, by bombing in the public places and as a result army set up the road blockage and employed curfews, who were suffered from this move? The civics of Nepal. If they were fighting for the revolution and fighting for the people's right then they wouldn't have snatched that small freedom we had inside our own country. I name the Maoist as the destruction circle and till now they haven't proven their worth that they are not the synonym to destruction of country.

Their demand with government started with the peace talk, since then they followed the peace talk circle with the government for almost a decade. Whenever they wanted they held the peace talk and it was never going to be success as they increased their demands as per the time and our poor government was not able to fulfill their demands. After peace talk they again started killing the innocent civics and after a few period of time that peace talk was again renovated. This peace talk circle existed for 10 years with the Maoists nursing it around, but finally it collapsed since the Maoists were recruited to run the government. Thus I said it is not so easy to run our own circle for long period of time. The new circle created by Maoists are demand circle, since they were kicked out from the government they born this circle and are operating in different things. Their demand list doesn't seem to be shortening but still they call for the strikes to pressurize the government to fulfill their demands. Call for strikes have been easy weapon for everyone to pressurize the government to fulfill their demands and the Maoists seems to be the active and experienced butcher to use that weapon very often and effectively, and yet the result it is not revolution my friends it is destruction.

Some weird facts about Nepali

2009-11-13T15:13:00.003+02:00

The intercultural education says, while learning others' culture you end up learning your culture first. This might be true to some extent cause while sharing cultural information people will realize their own culture and try to find the similarities between to different cultures. Lets not talk about culture here, I have realized more about Nepali culture while learning Finnish culture and here are some weird fact files about Nepali habits that we all know: -

If you are in great hurry to reach office in time and you come out of your house, the other person near to your gate calls you and asks, "Are you going to the office in such a hurry?", even he knows that you go to office everyday at same time.

After a bit conversation if your friend in a phone keeps on asking "howz other things going on?" that means he doesn't have any more thing to say and still keep hanging on phone for you to speak.

If you are in a movie theater with a family and happen to meet a person whom you know, he'll come to you and ask "are you here to watch the movie?"

Do not argue about politics with any Nepali, they are all ahead of you. Don't even open your mouth in front of government college students, they will teach you how to develop the country, but they all start with cursing the politicians.

Students from government colleges are well aware about country's situation and well aware in politics, they even have their own idea for country's development that's why they keep on possessing strikes to fire tire in the road and hit the stones to the vehicles and police.

If the army is disposing a bomb, people surround the bomb and keep staring at it, when the army says the bomb might explode and kill them all, then they step only 2 steps back. The person at back tries to pull others to see the disposal of bomb from front.

In case of domestic violence, when the husband comes home late then wife curses, "The brain of our politicians are too worse, why have I expected your one to be good", even though there is no link between him and the politicians.

If someone sees you pissing in the roadside, they will call others to show and say "Look at him, look at him, he is pissing in the road, what a shameless fellow he is", he acts like as if he have seen anyone pissing in the road for the first time in his life. But if he happens to know you, he will come to you and piss alongside you and say, you started in the road?

If a group of people talk about development in Nepal, they first curse the politician and later talk about building roads and bridges, trains and airports in Nepal. Does the development means only the development of Infrastructures? no one in the group knows.

If you talk about poverty alleviation, then they will say that's just the wrong thing published by the media, you can see big buildings and expensive cars running in the roads of Kathmandu. They will blame the international media for providing the wrong information about Nepal, they even challenge those medias to come to Nepal and see how we are instead of accepting the fact.

Father hesitates to invest if son comes up with some business proposal, but if the son wants to go abroad they do not hesitate to provide any amount of money.

नेपाल प्यारो छ

2009-11-11T17:40:00.000+02:00

बन्ध र हड्तालले मान्छे हिंड्न गाह्रो छ

ग्यास र तेल नपाएर भोक् भोकै बस्न वाध्य छ

जति खोला बगेपनि लोडशेडिङले छुट्टी पाउन सारो छ

जुनै नेता आएपनि राम्रो निति ल्याउन अफ्ट्यारो छ

बैदेशिक् सहयोग बिना बजेट बन्न नसक्दो छ

जताततै घरै छन् रुख् देख्न गाह्रो छ

सबैजना बिदेश् छन् खेति अझै बान्झो छ

केही राम्रो हुन खोज्दा कोशिमा बाढी आउछ

राहत बाड्दापनि कति पर्सेन्ट नेताले खान्छ

अझै पनि हामी त्य्ही गोर्खलिलाई सम्झि भन्छ

तिनिहरुको नाम् लियि छाती तानी गफ् हन्छ

के न पो गरेर ति मुला वीर गोर्खालीले, देश को नाम बेचि खाए

देशलाई सहयोग गर्ने ठाउँमा, बिदेसीका लागि लडे

अझैपनि भन्छन् क्यारे देश् हाम्रो प्यारो छ

लामो जस्तो देश हाम्रो कहिलेपनि बन्न गाह्रो छ

तर अझै हाम्रो थेगो गएनकि भन्छौ नेपाल प्यारो छ

नेपाल प्यारो छ

Help and God

2009-10-30T04:50:00.000+02:00

Devotee says - Please god help me
Fool says - oh God, please help me
Drunkard says - Oh you god, do you need any help?
Egoistic says - If you need any help then contact me
Agent says - He can help you in any matters
Politician says - Help is the best policy
Teacher says - help each other in needs
Rajib Says - Help Human

People around the world are in need, need for their daily existence, food for their survival, clothes to cover their bodies and a roof where they can shelter themselves. They all need help, and the only creature which is able to help them is, we human. They are human who are living their life under such pitiful circumstances and they need help and who can help is another human. Look at the above sayings by Teacher "Help each other in needs", those human are in needs and we can help them. Since the existence of this artificial creature called god, it is easy for everyone to call the name god and ask them to help. Please be sure that there is no any such thing which exists in this world is called god. That's just a artificial fake name created by human to make a protocol to follow, they said that god is everywhere he will hear if you talk bad, but its result went vast from speaking bad that people started to call the god whenever they want from any place, but have anyone read about the existence of god and have it come to help them? No, so please do as the teacher says help each other. Being a human another human is in need and you are the only one who could help them, there ain't no god to appear to help them. So, join your hands together to help those peoples and be like god to them.

Financial aid in Finland ---- What a joke !!!

2009-10-17T02:32:00.000+03:00

"Non-citizens of Finland can get financial aid for studies in Finland if they live in Finland on a permanent basis for a purpose other than studying. This requires that they are registered as a permanent resident in the Finnish population register system. The purpose of residence in Finland is determined by reference to such matters as the residence permit, registration or acceptance to an educational institution. For further information, please see the website of the Social Insurance Institution (Kansaneläkelaitos, KELA): http://www.kela.fi"

I guess you all have noticed these words at above paragraph in most of the Finnish university's website under the financial aid section. The best thing about Finland is free education, which has lead to Finland being the first choice academic center for lots of the people, especially from 3rd world country. Personally I am planning to move away from Finland to some other country in search of better education. Finland's education system might be one of the world's top in terms of technology and innovation but it lacks the commitment and teaching methodology from the professors. The great professors never takes any classes and are always busy with the researches, well that's good for the country but is it good for the students? obviously not. Professors who are full time employee at the university are really busy in their researches for the companies; they don't even take a single class in a year and are still employed by the universities. If I ask what are they for then some replied they are Thesis supervisors and they may help student by giving chance to one of their research. I think those professors are just employed for the advertisement of university saying such big guns teach here. Personally, I don't need that kind of professors who cannot deliver his/her knowledge to their students and who are also never seen inside the university premises.

The biggest joke Finland plays with the financial aid seekers starts with "Unfortunately", saying "unfortunately we are not able to provide financial assistance to international students, bla bla bla", at last they provide the link to KELA - Organization which provides social services. Now let me include the words from the websites where we seek for financial aid.

I guess you have read above about what the university says about financial aid to the students, here's what kela have to say:
If you are not a Finnish citizen, you may be entitled to financial aid with education in Finland if
* you are registered as a permanent resident of Finland in the population register system and
* your purpose for residence in Finland is something other than education (for example, work, family ties or return migration).

This above statement clearly mentions that if you are not a permanent resident of Finland then you are not eligible for financial aid, but here is what the Police have to say about getting permanent resident:
A permanent residence permit is issued to an applicant who has resided in Finland for a continuous period of four years under a continuous fixed-term residence permit (working status). An application for a permanent residence permit is filed with the local police. The other possibility of issuing permanent resident is to be married or have legal relationship with Finnish nationals for least of four years.

This whole thing clearly means there is no any possibility of getting student financial aid in Finland, by the way, some of the websites may suggest you to visit CIMO's website to have possibility of financial aid, but here's what CIMO says:
CIMO scholarships are mainly targeted for postgraduate students who have completed their Master-level studies. CIMO's undergraduate scholarships promote advanced studies of the Finnish language.

Now, isn't it a clear joke that Finland plays with the financial aid seeker? first it says to have permanent residence to be eligible for financial aid, and to be permanent residence you have to work full time at least for four years or marry a Finnish citizen for four years, and the duration of your studies are normally two years. So, what shall I say now? shall you be enrolled in the university at first and halt your studies for four years and after that get permanent residence permit and again start your studies to get financial aid, wow, it’s better to say directly that NO FINANCIAL AID FOR INTERNATIONAL STUDENTS, but they never say no but keep giving you the link to other websites to check the possibility, but that will be just wasting your time, so please find some other way to fund your studies rather than to search for financial aid and be a joke.

Oh My !!! Strikes

2009-10-12T02:58:00.000+03:00

It is fun to be the strikes for some people, I heard guys saying "I am waiting when will be the next strike, in last strike we had great time playing cricket on the street, it was really fun". I was glad to hear at least some people enjoy the strikes too. I might be wrong, not only some people, many people might enjoy the strike. Some enjoy to lit the tire on fire, some enjoy hitting stones at the vehicles, some enjoy to kick the person who drives the motorbike. The reported number of strikes in Nepal was 254 days in the year 2008. After reading such statement from Nepal Police I checked the calendar to be sure again that there are 365 days in a year.

Usually I prefer to go to the street to see the crowd and their deeds in strikes, once I asked a boy of the age around 13 who was trying to hit the ambulance with the stone. Generally Tourist Buses, UN vehicles, Ambulance and fire brigades are excused during strikes, but that kid was hitting stone on the ambulance and I asked him why you are doing this. He said those ambulance drivers are being clever these days, they run the ambulance very often to carry the passengers during strikes to earn good money. I still don't know the fact but that kid said me he have seen some ambulances carrying passengers instead of patients and taking money from them. I felt in this modern era people doesn't even trust ambulances, or still the question arises are the ambulance drivers faithful to be trusted? In the same strike I went to ask a person who was sitting on the street with something written in a piece of cloth. I asked him what this strike is for. He replied me "this strike is to gain the rights of our casts". I asked him, what are the rights that you are searching for? he replied "Our tribes should be preserved, we should get facility and benefits like the proper citizen of this country, we should be given opportunity to explore our talents, we should get opportunity for employment, there must be some quota system for our tribes in everything". I questioned him again, "what benefits and facilities do you think that other citizens of Nepal enjoy and you don't?", he looked at me with angry eyes and asked "are you Journalist?", well I was not a journalist but was working in one Radio Station so, I showed him my identity card of the radio station, he might have thought me as journalist and said "ok, you journalists just know how to ask question, if you were here in my place then you would have known about the trouble that I am facing". To tell the fact, I didn't see any journalists around there.

I again asked him, may be you want to say something about this strike, what is the main motto behind this strike, he replied me "as I said earlier, to aware the government that we are also capable of doing something, we want our rights, we have list of our demands to be fulfilled, if the government will not fulfill our demand then I guess they (the government) have already seen what we are capable of doing, so we will continue our strike till our demands will not be fulfilled by the government". I didn't felt to ask any further questions to him again. As an old saying "Don't argue with fool, people might not know the difference", I may be wrong to walk away from there but I didn't find any fruitfulness in his words. He was just a stupid chap, who was used by some politically aware people. They wanted to pressurize the government to be well-known personality among the civics. I might have dealt with the wrong person, but he was still unaware what he was fighting for, was it for fame? for money? for rights? or for equality? his replies didn't satisfy me. Instead of arguing with him I went my way back home, cause I knew every civil of Nepal enjoys the same services and facilities. Ministers and high level officials might get some extra facility but they get those facilities in accordance to their post and the serve for the nation. They are responsible to drive the nation so at least some extra facilities should be enjoyed by them. I didn't see any difference between the facilities that he and I enjoy, we are normal citizen of Nepal and we enjoy the equal facilities, and there are millions of people who has the same amount of facilities served by the nation. Well another issue was to preserve his tribe, now how shall the government preserve the tribe? keeping them in safe place or asking them to produce more children? I don't have any answer. The only sentence I felt right about what he said was, "we shall be given opportunity to explore our talents", I guess the government have not given the opportunity to explore any citizens’ talents but if they are talented enough they have explored their talents in one or another way. Take an example of Sunil Pokharel, though not given opportunity by anyone, he made his name in the field of art and acting. So, talents shall not be blocked by any means, if you are talented, but I wonder what his talent was, was it to hit the stone on the vehicles, if so then also government has given him opportunity to vandalize the vehicles during strikes. Finally the issues of quota was raised by him, if the government started giving quota to all the casts and tribes of Nepal then I wonder if any talented and skillful people will be in the right position.

Strike means to halt the work, if there is no any flow of work or effort in any services then I don't see any possibility of development. Take an example of economy of any organization, the value of the organization's share increases by the rapid flow of money in it, if the flow halts or is slow then the value of share automatically decreases (there are other external factors too, but I am just concentrated on the flow inside an organization). So, if strikes hit the country very often then we are heading towards wrong direction. People demand something and they call for strike to put the pressure on government for fulfillment of their demands, now we have reached a lowest point where the government is paralyzed and is not in state to fulfill everyone's demand. To demand something from the government at this stage means to rape them politically instead of helping them to build the nation. Education doesn't play much part in civilization, which was proved by our doctors in several occasions. Some years ago, Doctors were in strike to protest against the students who have completed the MBBS degrees from China, lately those doctors were again in strike in Teaching hospital. So, the educated human like doctors, whose halt in services could be death of hundreds of people could go on strike then what can I aspect from the uneducated civil Nepali.

Buddhism ----- does it mean peace???

2009-10-10T16:22:00.004+03:00

"One thing I teach: suffering and the end of suffering.
It is just ill and the ceasing of ill that I proclaim."

-- The Buddha

Those were the words spoken by the Lord Buddha himself. I am inspired from the above quotation by Buddha, he said I teach the suffering and the end of suffering, well not to go to the vast meaning of suffering; I am inspired in the practical aspect of it. I believe in finding the problems before finding the solution, so as Buddha said, I teach suffering i.e. without knowing the suffering how will we know how to cure it, same in my case I prefer to find the problem before finding the solution.

Since the beginning of Buddhism about 2500 years ago, Buddha the founder of Buddhism have faced several troubles, hinders and obstacles from the kings and rulers from that era. After winning their faith he was finally rewarded the opportunity to travel across the globe to teach his founding. The first high profile follower of Buddha's teachings was King Asoka; the cruel king lost his interest in the world of hate and lust, so he joined Buddha to find eternal peace. Apart from that, other followers of Buddha were also in search of peace that Buddha has found within himself. He taught his followers the way to find peace within them. The data of how many people were able to find peace from the lessons from Buddha is still mysterious. Some people say, all the followers of Buddha were able to find the eternal peace and those who didn't find peace in this life were reborn again to reach to their destination. The Buddhism describes about reincarnation of the soul, and the human's destination will be fulfilled anyhow either in this birth or next births. It is exactly the same case as of Dalai Lama - The Tibetan Leader, he reincarnates again and again and ruled the nation until when he was kicked out of Tibet by China. Still he have place in every Tibetan's heart as the holy King.

There has been lots of speculations about the rise of Buddhism, how Buddhism was popular is still mysterious, I have read few articles related to Buddhism and the followers. Everything in this world has good and bad side, it depends on the personal thoughts how people will take it, either positively or negatively. The popularity of Buddhism was not as easy as we have imagined, and the followers of Buddha didn't increase by just hearing his teaching. I don't blame Buddha for the clever intentions to inspire the kings and rulers, as he also had his own kingdom before being Buddha he did not discriminate any of his followers but the path his followers followed to popularize Buddha was somewhat interesting to read. Buddha said to his followers "I am God, but you don't have to worship me, God is not to be worshiped, if you want to worship someone then worship yourselves cause you all are destined to be God someday, every human born in this planet is destined to be God and I will show you the path to be god". The words from Buddha were used as marketing terms to popularize Buddhism. Buddha's followers inspired big Empires and Rulers to follow Buddha, as those greedy kings wanted to be God to rule the world they followed Buddhism. They didn't know the process of being god, all they wanted is to be god to rule the world and they heard that Buddhism teaches us to be god someday, so they started following the Buddha's teachings.

Since the rulers started to follow the Buddha's teaching, they forced the people of their kingdom to follow the same. History still reveals that lots of people who denied following the Buddhism were burned alive, nailed till death and hung by the tree. Not in a positive way but the followers of Buddhism was increased by thousands within short period of time. Though the starting step may sound weird but still the followers or Buddhism are in millions these days. Those emperors started building Temples and monuments of Buddha, and Buddha was not happy about it as his teaching clearly says don't worship him, follow his teaching to find the path to be god. The main credit to make Buddha popular goes to his followers; they made their teacher popular by hook or by crook. Thus the lesson from Buddha was not followed by his close followers, they we just destined to make Buddha popular. His actual teaching was peace and peace lessons but his close followers breached those peaces in order to make their teacher popular.

Since the starting of Buddhism people were not able to follow the proper teaching of Buddha, till now I guess there might only be few followers who practice the actual teaching of Buddha. Buddha taught the world to find peace within ourselves and the proper followers of Buddha's teachings should at least have some inspirational peace thoughts within themselves. We can take an example of Dalai Lama, who wants to fight back to take his kingdom, the recent fights and protest in Thailand by the Buddhist monks, etc. these incident shows how much the Buddhists lacks the peace in themselves. They were supposed to teach the Buddha's teachings and distribute knowledge of peace to the world but the situation is different here. Some followers of Buddhism want to be in Member of Parliament like in Nepal, some follower want to get his kingdom back to rule his people, some followers wants to kill other people to take revenge on killings of their monk friend. Buddhism these days sounds mysterious to understand, and I still doubt do they follow the actual teaching or just want to have some faith in something for the namesake.

London Dreams

2009-10-09T00:33:00.002+03:00

I saw a movie in my childhood which was about a man's dream to see the London Tower with his own eyes before his death. Actually it was not his dream; it was his father's dream to watch London tower but his father couldn't fulfill that dream and transferred that dream to him. His father worked all life to collect money to visit London to watch the tower, but his savings were not enough for the fare, so he transferred his dream to the son and the son also the tailor as his father works his ass of throughout his life and have saved some money to go to London. When he feels he have collected enough money for the trip, someone steals that money. Well that was his dream, not the actual but determined. He tried to do every possible thing to collect money to visit London, that was his target and it was inspirational.

Just like that person's dream from that movie, London might be the dream place for lots of people around the globe, someone achieves it and some fails, which depends on luck and also the dedication towards goal achieving methodology. London is one of the historical places with lots of historical values and cultural root. Several English cultures were started from there, and still English culture and civilization is one of the world's best renown. The place of thousand dreams, London, has been serving as cosmopolitan city since several decades. Different people have different dreams about visit to London, some visit to see natural and cultural beauty, some visit to see the Kingdom who once almost ruled all the world, Someone wants to try their luck in musical or movie industry, someone visits to earn some money for the betterment of them and their family back home, etc, etc.

I also have a dream to visit London, at least once in my lifetime. I want to see the people very closely who inspired and ruled huge area of the globe, once it was said that the sun never sets down in British Kingdom and London happen to be the Capital of that British Kingdom. Although Manchester was the ancient capital of UK, London serves the most cultural values and English traditions. My dream about visiting London is to see the culture and tradition and the convincing nature of the English peoples. It was English people who inspired the world to speak their language, play football, have education policy, play cricket, listen Rock n' Roll, etc. I have been learning the English language since the age of 3, but have never been to the place where people speak only English. So, it’s my dream to be around with the people who speaks only English, the announcements in train, bus or plane would be only in English, someone may ask me or I may ask someone and the first language of our communication would be English, someone wouldn't say "I don't speak English" when I ask for something, that's my dream to be in the place where I could understand what other people say and they could understand what I say. I want to practice the language that I have been learning since so long with the founders of the language.

The another reason why I want to visit London is to see the monument made in honor of Gorkhali, I have seen it in the pictures that a Gurkha Holding Rifle in front of ministry of defense, I want to visit there and read carefully what Brits have written about my ancestors who served their nation for almost 200 years. I heard that it was a great honorary word for Gurkha, and I want to read it by myself and take a picture of me in front of that monument with my chest wide open with pride and my head sky high. Every people have dreams so do I, and this is one of my dream, my London Dream.

Helsinki Times ---- Red in the face ceremony

2009-10-05T02:50:00.001+03:00

The sun was bright, sky was clear and the time was enjoyable. We headed towards the house of Mr. Devi Dutta Sharma around 11 in the morning, where Dashain (The biggest Nepali Festival) was being celebrated. It was the tenth day of the Dashain Festival, the day of putting Tika and exchanging well wishes and love. The spirit was high all over the house, his family had well prepared for this holy ceremony and the huge population of Nepali at his house proved that the Dashain celebration in Finland was not less than in Nepal. Though people might be missing their close relatives, Nepali Environment, Dashain Holidays, Congested travel in Bus to visit the relatives in nearby towns, Excitement of buying new clothes (with bargaining), Goat's meat (fried Intestine, Grilled ear, Deep fried Blood, heart and lungs), Playing Cards (Marriage) etc. But the thrill and excitement of Dashain was really high and everyone's face was smiling and bright.

Before the Tika ceremony our interview with Mr. Sharma started, he described his initials about his journey from Nepal to Finland and also explained his days of struggle. He had been a successful entrepreneur since last 2 decades and it was great to hear his success stories. He wished all the people of Nepal a very Happy Dashain and wished for safe and peaceful environment of Nepal. After a small interview with Mr. Sharma and few snaps, the time had come to the ceremony of putting Tika. The Tika started and all the members from the family shared the Tika, well wishes, love and of course money (Dakshina) with each other. We have captured that moment via our camera and also some cool snaps from the ceremony. After wonderful lunch at his home we headed towards the party hall where the Dashain function was going to be held.

The party finally began at 5 pm with our National Anthem. I was not happy with my Nepali friends to clap their hands by sitting in the chair while our national anthem was played. I don't know if they were unknown about the thing that if anybody plays national anthem in any official occasion then everybody should stand up, this shows their respect for the country. Doesn't matter if its Nepali or non-Nepali but to pay the respect to the country one should stand up while the national anthem is on air. Not being sad about their behavior I consoled myself they might have not known this fact, well and things happen and we should be able to move on. The party began with speech by Mr. Sharma current president of SNY followed by dance numbers, modern Ramayan in different intervals, cultural dances, modern dances, comedy shows, etc. The programs were full of soul and worth watching except some irritating treble sounds from the Nabin Bhattarai (please don't be confused he was not Navin K. Bhattarai) songs, someone's irritating lecture before pronouncing his poem. That was not the bad factor cause I found some people who were enjoying his songs.

The food in the party was really delicious, the Panche Baja (tradition folk music, combination of 5 musical instruments) was hit of the moment which made everybody dance, and the dance numbers by Sushma and the Gangs were awesome. They were talented to dance in almost every kind of songs from Nepali folk to modern hip-hop. Comedy show was also presented beautifully with the parodied News. Lots of foreigners were present and the paparazzi photographer has captured their faces while enjoying the Nepali show in Finland. Overall the Dashain party in Helsinki Finland was great and everyone enjoyed it. After all, all the Nepali residing outside their country got a chance to enjoy the biggest Nepali festival in a Nepali environment which was the great thing to be considered.

First Impression :: Tampere Vs Helsinki

2009-10-05T02:35:00.001+03:00

After living in Tampere for almost a year I went to visit Helsinki, the capital city of Finland. It was not the first time that I have been to Helsinki, I have been there on several occasions but never had any chance to talk with other people around except my friends. May be I shared small conversation and greetings with bus drivers or train ticket examiners but not in different level of conversation. So, in my previous visits I was anonymous about the peoples residing in Helsinki and maybe I was busy too so I didn't care to take a deep look at people's activities. In my latest visit I observed many things about Helsinki and the peoples living there, and it was completely different than that in Tampere.

The first time when I came to Tampere I was dropped by the bus at Bus Station which was under construction. After getting down from the bus the first thing I saw was the stadium nearby, it had red seats which was eye catching so my eyes noticed it as my first sight of Tampere. Being an unplanned traveler throughout my life I didn't care to carry the city map. I have come Finland as a student so I didn't know any people in Tampere at that time. I had a tutor who said me to give him a call when I'll reach Tampere so he'd pick me up, since I was not provided the apartment by the student housing I thought not to give any trouble to my tutor, so, I have made the lists of Hotels in Tampere with their addresses before coming to Finland. According to that list Hostel Sofia was the cheapest hotel in Tampere and to save some money I planned to go to Hostel Sofia. In my list I had the address and also the information that it was near the Cathedral, but I didn't know where the Cathedral was. As the bus Station was under construction there were no any places to ask for the information, so, I looked around the street and saw a Church nearby. I was also unknown about what the cathedral means, after seeing that church I felt cathedral might mean some kind of church so I thought of going near that church and ask someone. I headed towards the church nearby the bus station but at a certain point I had to cross the street. The traffic was not so high and I waited at one end of the road to cross and it was red signal to cross the road. Being a civilized person I waited there for long, it was almost 10 minutes the red light didn't change to green, I was bit frustrated cause I had never waited for more than two minutes at any signals. After a while a lady came near me and pressed some button in the pole where the signal lights were fixed, soon the red light changed to green so I got chance to cross the road. There might have been written something in that box but I didn't know Finnish language so it was impossible for me to read. In Nepal we do not need to press any buttons in the signal lights so I thought it might be same in elsewhere, but I was wrong. I had to wait for long in one corner of street to cross the road because I was not aware about the system here.

After crossing the road I thought of asking that lady about the address in my list, since I had huge luggage with me and I was pulling it I couldn't talk while crossing the road that lady walked so fast that I couldn't catch her to ask. I went to the church nearby but it was not the same address as written in my list, there were not a single people around to ask, so I looked far away and saw lots of people on different road. I again pulled my bag to catch that crowd and when I reached there I felt it was huge market place. I caught a man on the street and asked him "excuse me, Do you know where's the cathedral?" he replied "yes, go straight that way and turn left and go straight then again turn right and walk a bit you'll reach the main gate of the Cathedral". I thanked him and headed towards my destination, on the middle I turned left as he said and again turned right but didn't reach the cathedral. I could see lots of houses around but couldn't see the shape of church. I looked here and there and saw the board written "Stockmann", I've heard about Stockmann from our old tale in country that our late King Birendra used to go for shopping at Stockmann in London. It brought smile in my face to see the Stockmann board cause I have never seen it before and it certainly felt good to see the store that I've been hearing about since my childhood. Suddenly a Lady with a camera in her neck walked through my path, I stopped her to ask, Hi, do you know where is cathedral? She replied, ammm, do u have the address? I opened the paper where I've written the address of Hostel Sofia. She said "ok, I am going towards this way so we can go together", I felt much relief when she said that, and we headed towards the destination. We had a small conversation in between and she was asking me rapid questions about my visit, where I am from, how long will I stay here and so on, as a good boy I answered her queries and in between she was checking the street names and house numbers, I felt maybe it was also her first visit to that area, or maybe she was being sure that we are walking the right path. I finally saw the cathedral but now I had more tasks to find the Hostel, she pointed to one white house and said that was Hostel Sofia. I was more than happy to find the place I was searching for but my suitcase broke-down on the way. I was having hard time to pull it, and that lady asked if I need any help to pull it, I said its ok I can manage it. My suitcase was really heavy and after reaching the Hostel I was not able to find the door to enter, she searched it by herself and showed me the way. She came till the door of that hostel and said so... I think I will leave now. Being a bit relieved from the tension of finding the place I was bit hungry and also tired, I didn't have words to reply her, but with smile in my face I said ok... thank you very much, see you. I didn't even ask her name, number or address I just said see you, and she smiled back and replied ok see you, have a great time, bye. I waived her goodbye and after putting my things in the room I thought about that lady and felt shy about my behavior. She offered every kind of help that was possible and I didn't even offer her a cup of tea or coffee, just said see you, that was against my culture and background where I was from. I thought of searching her again and offer a tea but I also was in doubt about where shall I find her again. I went outside of the Hostel and roamed here and there thinking she might be photographer taking some pics in the street and I may find her again. But I was wrong, I was unable to find her, but the help she offered me was not expected by me in this strange land. I'm searching her since then but still not able to see her around Tampere, if I'll find her any day I'll say sorry about my behavior and offer her a cup of tea. Her willingness to offer any help was my first and great impression that I had about people in Tampere.

In my recent visit to Helsinki I had some special things to do, so, I've carried the city map this time. The excellent transportation and information about transportation in Helsinki is something that we demand to have in Tampere too. ytv.fi provides information about every destination around the capital area, so by printing the travel information from ytv.fi page I headed towards my destination. I carefully watched every station so that I wouldn't miss the station that I had to get off. According to my journey plan I had to get off in one station and walk some distance and catch another bus to reach my destination, and maybe I was amateur to read the information I got off the bus in one station prior to that stated station. I looked around and the street's name is not as same as in my printed map. I thought of asking to the person in the bus stop, I headed towards one person but he moved from there, because his bus might have been coming shortly. Suddenly a bus stopped and few people got down from that bus, some headed towards other direction and a lady walked through nearby me, she looked in too hurry, even though me too was in hurry I thought of asking her and said excuse me, she replied in english "sorry I don't speak english" and went away. I thought maybe she learned those few words of english to reply the foreigner like me because there are many foreigners in Helsinki. As in that bus station everybody looked in hurry I thought not to disturb them so I thought of going to somewhere nearby and ask other person on the street. On the street I found a lady walking and looking at me, I opened the printed map and went near to ask her, before I could speak any word she turned towards another direction and walked away, there was a gentleman behind her, so I stopped him to ask, sorry, do you know this street, he replied me I don't know the perfect way but it is somewhat in that direction. I knew Finns doesn't give wrong information, if they don’t have any idea then they prefer to say they don't know rather than giving wrong information. I headed towards the direction that he said me cause he was Finn but after walking some distance I thought of asking another person if I am on the right way. The place was a bit isolated and finally I saw a old woman walking to the place where I was, so again I opened my printed document to ask her, she felt like maybe I am trying to ask her something and she turned her head towards another way and kept moving. She was heading towards my direction and I was waiting for her to ask, but when suddenly she felt that I might ask her something she turned her head and walked away.

Finally I had to catch a taxi to reach my destination, cause I was also in hurry but the behavior of people in Helsinki was amazing to watch. That day after finishing my task I roamed around the city to observe the people from capital region of Finland, I found most of them in hurry. They didn't look happy, not a single smile in their face even while talking to their friends. They just seemed to be specific with the subject matter and living life with some protocol, I couldn't find happiness and enjoyment of life in their face, all of them were in hurry, I don't know of what but their whole expression was not to be late in anything. May be because of that stress in their face, I didn't find any beautiful faces in Helsinki, peoples in Tampere are much more good looking than that of Helsinki, it may be because of high relaxation level in Tampere, and people in Tampere doesn't look in too hurry like that of Helsinki.

Finland Jeopardy

2009-09-21T22:15:00.001+03:00

Criticize is the easiest thing that any people does, but it helps sometimes to the people who is being criticized, thus, I hope my criticism shall have a positive feedback. I am just eager to learn new things, new rules and new aspects about the development, so, Finland's model of development comes first in my mind, the obedient people, the strict rules and the personal and social security are the things that I love the most. Sometimes some rules and regulations that Finns follows sounds a bit monopoly and communism to me, no panic, people are still living.

Take the example of approaching tax high, the government have decided to hike the tax rate that an employer pays and reduce the living costs like, traveling cost, foods and groceries, clothing, etc. My concern is that, does it help? I read an statement from Barack Obama, the current US president, he said he is willing his people to use their own money for themselves, that means US is reducing the income taxes for the workers and give them liberty to utilize their money on their own needs. At this stage of changing economy and new revolution this move of hiking the income tax of the employers sounds communism. I don't know how it is possible to reduce the amount of the daily usable commodities but the first step was started with the reduction in price of public transport. The reduction in prices of goods sounds interesting and may also help the unemployed, but what about the employed workers, are they willing to pay more taxes then they are paying currently.

The government sounds interested to help the unemployed and increase their living standard, but doesn't it cruises the employed and hard workers? There are 300 thousands registered unemployed residents in Finland and among them 50% have never worked throughout their lives, so does government needs to help and support those lazy bones instead of hard working residents? That might sound frustrating. The another move by Finnish government is, they want to train the registered unemployed workers so they will earn for their living by themselves, it is really good initiative, but the main decision that government lacks is about foreigners. There are thousands of foreigners working in Finland paying the high taxes, but the government is just concerned to train and provide skills to the unemployed Finns, what about foreigners residing in Finland? If some foreigners are paying tax then the other foreigners should also get training for skills development. If it is not possible then Finnish government should learn the lesson from Austrian government who doesn't charge any tax for the foreigners for at least 4 years. If foreigners shall be taxed free then only the government shall not have to provide the skill development training for the foreigners residing in Finland.

I heard the news some times ago that several Finns are lost and their data is still missing, then I read the news about a Finnish colony in Canada and France, that made me think were they seriously lost or they migrated in search of Warm place or place where they have to pay less taxes. Yet to know the reason why, but there is a vast reason for them to elope from their motherland.

why are we so awkward towards change ???

2009-09-21T01:33:00.001+03:00

Time is changing so do we, physically and mentally. Our surroundings are changing, new houses are built, old ones are demolished, new spaces have been created, open spaces are consumed. This is change, the most natural truth a human can face, every moment is in verge of change, if you can see and feel it, then you are extra ordinary, but generally we human can't feel these things. If we could, we will be named the next Buddha, but the fact is change, it’s happening, the time is passing and the moment when the time elapse we will realize there was something change. Some change has good effects, some has bad, but it is change and we have to accept it. If we start to talk with some friends, then the moment is past, and we have exchanged few words within each other, and remember there is change even in the exchange of words. Let’s consider the topics, how many times do you change the topics in a conversation with a friend, at least for 5 minutes, so we need to observe that change is everywhere, which cannot be halted, and if we try then we will fool out ourselves.

In this ongoing process of change, why do we are still unwilling to accept some change, personal perceptions I may say, but does that personal perception will bring back that change? No, it cannot and never, the biggest fool was English government who brought back the Royal Dynasty in 1660. After the assassination of The King Charles I in 1649, the country enjoyed the democracy without royals for 10 years. This process of change might be in Gyanendra's thought too, he is still waiting for his uplift. Thus, after throwing royals from our country, we are still changing, but some people are still sarcasm about the royals' exit, it happens if you do not adapt to change.

Adaptation to change is another issue, still there is vast difference between adaptation and unwillingness, the words like ego, selfishness and self centric thoughts still exists in the world dictionary, so how can we get rid of it. These words are made for practical use, so is being used by our politicians, but why not use it, at least you need something to argue or bargain for the power, cause every politicians are not Ma.Ku.Ne who doesn't have own thoughts. I still wonder where he collects the ideas or speeches from. Our self centric societies are bushed for fire by the nonsense media and news channels. Press and journalists are subject to be independent and liberty, but do they utilize their perfect liberty? Misuse has been made, not from the public, but those journalists who bargains for bribes to publish the bad asses' names. If something's hot in the town they jump and fight like dogs for the bone, take an example of Health Minister who was in Germany tour during the Jajarkot incident, the journalists were making fun of the minister instead of approaching health office to send the doctors to the infected areas, and to make another joke, the doctor was held by the police for the offenses inside the chopper.

Currently the biggest issue around Nepal is about the proposal of Maoist to change the National flag, what's wrong in it? I don't see any. The Maoists are not in government so they need to ask something and try to bargain with the current government, if they don't do something then their popularity will decrease and the journalists and newsreaders will not spell or print their name in Tvs and newspapers, so anyhow they need to do something to be in limelight. It takes time to understand these politics, but all they want it change, but most of the other party followers are against it. Since the overthrow of kingdom in Nepal, we all want change, but we are still awkward to adapt the change. We have changed our national anthem, name of country from Nepal to Naya Nepal, someday we will also have democratic liberal states, so what's wrong in changing the flag? I don't think any. The argument of Dr. Baburam Bhattarai was somewhat appreciable, that current triangular flag of our country shows symbol of Hinduism and Offensive behavior. I have noticed in several Hindu Temples that the same triangular shaped flags, and our current flag contains sun and moon. Since, the country is not Hinduism we need to care about other cultures and religions' peoples living in the country. Please remember, we are no more Hindu country.

Someone argues that the triangular shape of flag is somewhat unique, not it up to us to decide, what kind of shape we need to form, we can have another full-triangle, spiral, quadrilateral, hexagonal, any shape of flag, I don't really care, but I don't have any problem in changing the national flag. After all, that old flag is meaningless somewhat, our country will remain till sun and moon are on the sky, that's a ridiculous thought. If we do care about our country then think about change, don't be awkward towards change. And the sky color strip at the end of the triangle denotes that our passion and aggression are bounded by the love and affection, well that shows how much less love we share and how much aggression we have inside, and the sun and moon adds flavor to the aggression not the soft part. I would like the flag of Nepal to be changed, totally blue or white, which may denote that we love peace and we care for it. It doesn't matter the shape, I would love to have Mt. Everest and Lumbini in my flag, both denotes peace and tourism in country. So, there are lots of positive to be taken from the change of national flag, so why not we support this move?

Ok, I am mad, so??? what the fuck is your problem???

2009-09-12T14:17:00.001+03:00

It's been a long I am trying to explain my views, my concepts and my ideas, if you don't listen it hurts. Sometimes I think do I care? why the fuck should I, no I don't really care any fucking words what you think, cause till I am right no one can prove me wrong. I am strong enough to fight, fight for the right, fight for the right things, and till I am standing tall and strong in my belief no one can move me on. Oh fuck! don't talk about god to me, who's god? a fucking creature like me? well I don't give a damn what he is or what have he done, I am me and what I do is right. This is human nature, how human thinks, and I am part of it, so, I am human and I have freedom to think. So, what's wrong if I have thoughts for developing my country, well I cannot do it alone and I am not trying to prove that I am the only one who thinks about my country. I don't need your company to think about my country, its mine not yours, so fuck off.

Someone said life is just a major and the minor key, so, why don't we live in peace and harmony. I need to teach him the lesson that life is not just the keys, there are atom and neutron bombs too, so be afraid you bastard. There are lots of problems in this world, raging from Afghanistan to Iraq, now North Korea and Iran are on the way, bloody America interferes in every country's internal politics. Just like smelly rotten Indian politicians, those bloody Indians run the agency too promote tourism in Nepal and takes the tourists to Kashmir and shows them the Himalayan Range, they bloody tourists should at least carry a map, they see the terror fighting Kashmir and Himalayas and speak their ass about visit to Mt. Everest and Maoist terrorists. No words for those previous terrorists, they are just a dog in a search of big bone thrown at them on a time interval from their owners. Taking a theme from a great poet, "we all live under the same sky, we all will live we all will die, there is no wrong, there is no right". If there was nothing wrong then why Saddam Hussein was hanged till death? why Prachanda was not? what was the relation between Bush and Bin Laden? why USSR was torn into 15 pieces, all bloody America, Oops! Girija too.

We live under the same sky, we all will live we all will die, may be that poet used to follow the Islam religion, which says if you attack the Christians as a suicide attacker then you'll go directly to heaven and get to fuck 72 virgins, woo, well there might be female production factory in heaven according to Islam. Bloody Muslims, they don't know the importance of life, killing and dieing to fuck the virgins, ha ha, who knows what will happen after they die. Some Christians may say that they will follow the way to Jesus, uff, enough of this drama, if you want to do something then do when you are alive, please don't fake me about life after death. If that was the thing then Albert Einstein and Thomas Alba Edison would have prayed until their death to go to heaven. Do something productive was their philosophy so is mine, though this article doesn't look so productive cause it's not related with anything then my frustration.

My quest always comes last, so, what are the things that I want in Life, A big house with long Garden? Vehicles to ride? Own Business? that's an ordinary people's dream, I had those thing since my birth so its not a big issue for me. Some people rather prefer to spend their whole life to achieve it, but tell you my friends that doesn't give satisfaction, all you need in within your soul. We try to gain higher education and learn different things in this outer world but at first you should be able to read yourself. Learn what you are, what is the perfect meaning of you then try to read other world, if you think I am mad then ok, I am mad, so??? what the fuck is your problem??? Till you are not able to know yourself why the heck you are trying to know me??? I am peculiar, I know that, you don't have to say, but I am crazy too. I do what I want, I live how I want, I have full control of me, cause I know me, and that makes me different than you.

I have a question…… reply me please !!!

2009-08-24T11:14:00.000+03:00

After a long time, most of Nepali people residing in Tampere were gathered in the premise of to-be-opened soon Nepali Restaurant. The occasion was Teej, one of the biggest festivals for Nepalese females. Although the numbers of female were relatively small, the day was great and they were looking great on the Red Sari. Well, someone had pink sari too, but I am not concerned about it now, anyways we had a great time singing, dancing and eating. There were few interesting people missing from the party too, somebody said they had a party with other foreigner friends, somebody had an exam on Monday. The person who went to party with foreigner friends didn’t happen to feel worth of gathering of Nepali people in foreign land, and the person who had excuse of exam on Monday have been preparing for that exam since last 14 days, I couldn’t understand his intention too. They should have learned the lesson from another friend who drove 2 hours from different city to take part in that party. I have mentioned before in my blogs if few Nepali people gather together then the hit topic of the moment would be gossips. There are also several persons who would like other to hear their words and that person who tries to expose his feelings about some subject matter looks happier. I remember someone speaking top up his lungs about NRN-Finland, I remember some days ago that same guy saying “I have to pay spend money to give vote, in Nepal candidates pay us to get vote, why should I vote them by spending Euros from my pocket”, that was the modified translation of his words, and in that gathering he was the only person who was shouting loud about NRN-Finland. Well what can I say, people change according to time and now he might have changed, cause the election is over and he doesn’t have to pay membership fees anymore.

My blog again sounds like criticizing others, sorry folks, this is the only way I pour my frustration most of the time, but what I said is the fact and I really cannot stand aside. Now let’s focus to the subject matter, yesterday I asked this question to almost everyone, here’s the question once again. “In 2011, Nepal is celebrating tourism year, the government have named it ‘Visit Nepal 2011’, and to help our country for promotion in tourism what kind of help shall I expect from you for the advertisement for Visit Nepal 2011”??? There were not so vast differences between the replies that every individual had. I am happy with their feelings towards our motherland, and all of them are ready to help in one or other way. Most of them said they will talk with their respective university’s authorized person to stick the Visit Nepal 2011 pamphlet in the information board. Someone even said they will distribute the DVDs about Nepal to the people they know or they meet. The distribution of booklet was also another reply I got from my friends, and some of them also promised to distribute the links about visit Nepal to their respective university’s mailing list. I am really happy to hear such good suggestions and effort to help from my friends.

There were few unusual replies too, one of my friend said he is taking 6 tourists with him to Nepal. That was the biggest effort I have heard, sounds interesting even though those 6 tourists are his relatives; I hope they’ll enjoy their stay in Nepal. The most irritating reply was from another friend who said me to give the assurance to him about the political stability of Nepal during the tourism year. He might be right at some extent but I am not the responsible person for that, I cannot influence political situation in Nepal. That questioned smelled some selfishness to me, that was the biggest excuse that person was searching to get rid from my question, well I haven’t forced him to help me, I was just asking suggestion and he said me to give assurance about the political situation in Nepal. As I have said earlier I probably can write 12 books on problems of Nepal or problems in Nepal, but that doesn’t solve anything. It is easy to talk about the problems but hard to find the solutions, people looks at the huge problem at front and instead of trying to solve they try to run away from it. We sometimes feel proud that Gautam Buddha was born in Nepal, well to take the account of his life he tried to solve the most difficult problems, so why shall we not learn from his deeds and try to solve the equation instead of stating the problem? Someone might say, this looks good only in books and reality is different, but my friend books were written based on those realities. I am not here to argue on that reality and book issue, but what my friend asked me for assurance was a stupid statement.

I remember some time ago, when I asked one of my friend to tell me his views about the sustainable development of Nepal, cause I wanted to do (I am still doing) something for the poverty elimination in Nepal. Instead of suggesting new ideas he said me to change the mentality of Nepalese people before doing something. Wow, what a suggestion, to change the mentality of Nepalese people. After living 2 and half years with my ex-girlfriend I could never influence in her way of thinking, she used to check my mobile if I have received any message or calls from any other girl. Well, I was trustful to her but she never trusted me so we had to break up, she was insecure from inside. My point is, after living together for so long I could never influence her to change her way of thinking about my character, then how can I change the mentality of such a huge mass??? I guess I have to wait for the chemists to invent new medicine for changing people’s mentality. So, I have to say sorry to both of them, sorry my friends I cannot change the mentality of Nepalese people neither can I give assurance about the political situation of Nepal. I just can try to help my country in any mean that I feel is worthy, I’ll do my task till the best I can and it’d be great if anyone of you could join my hand. If you have any suggestions then please reply the following question: -

In 2011, Nepal is celebrating tourism year, the government have named it ‘Visit Nepal 2011’, and to help our country for promotion in tourism what kind of help shall I expect from you for the advertisement for Visit Nepal 2011???

Beautiful Girl

2009-08-22T02:19:00.001+03:00

I entered the bus in hurry as it was the time for it to leave from the station. Before catching the bus I ran almost half kilometer because I had to get into that bus to reach my destination and if I’d have missed this bus, I have to wait for half an hour for another one. Since I was huffing after entering the bus, I didn’t care to look at the seats at back, I sat in the vacant seat near the door. The seats positioning was designed for group or family, 4 seats two facing the front view and two facing the rare view. I sat in the seat facing the rare view and didn’t care who was sitting opposite to me, I placed my heavy laptop bag in one seat and sat in another one. After adjusting my huff I thought of looking landscapes outside of the window so I sat in the seat next to the window and changed the position of my bag to the another seat. While changing the position I nearly kicked the person sitting at opposite direction of me, after adjusting my seat I looked at that person carefully, oh it was girl, and asked for apology saying “sorry”, she didn’t replied me, no any words popped from her mouth. I realized that she had earphone in her ear and I thought she might be listening music so she didn’t hear what I said. The common characteristics of Finnish girl is that they don’t look eagerly at foreigners, it was not an unusual scene for me that her head was turned towards the window and she didn’t even see my moving lips when I said sorry.

At first I thought of cursing her saying what type of bitch was she, because she didn’t reply when I spoke but when I realized that she was looking outside and wearing earphone I consoled myself about her reaction towards me. As her face was turned completely towards the window, I could see her ear and the earphone in her ear and also her earring. She had tied her hair so I could clearly see her face and her ear. She was wearing a beautiful earring, probably diamond. I was staring at her earring; it was quite big and viewable even through her earphone. There was a small round ball and a tail like structure, that ball looked like diamond and the tail was probably made of some valuable metal. I keep on staring at her earring and thought she might be from good family, because she is wearing a diamond earring, I guessed her parents must have given her. My guessing changed again, I think her mom might have gifted her, may be in her birthday or some special occasion, cause Finnish guys doesn’t need any reason to drink alcohol so her father might not have saved that much money to afford that expensive earring, so it might be her mother who have bought that earring for her. My flow of thoughts went in another direction, by the way Finnish females are not less than man, they are also drunkard like man, so was it really her mother who have bought that to her? I don’t think so, that earring looks expensive and if her mother would have bought that then she would wear it herself instead of giving it to her daughter. So, I thought that girl might have bought that herself, she might have worked hard to buy it.

That girl was really beautiful and I was nearly falling for her, suddenly it came in my mind, she might have boyfriend who have gifted it to her. Beautiful girl like her normally has boyfriend, that might be the reason she was not looking at me, most of Finnish girls who has boyfriend doesn’t care to look at other males unless they are drunk, so I was trying to look at her finger if she is wearing the ring or not. She was holding the seat next to her with her left hand and her hand was covered by her bag, so I couldn’t see her finger to find out if she has boyfriend or not. I was guessing she might have boyfriend but my eternal feeling was to see her fingers without the ring. I was really praying for her not to have the ring in her finger next to small finger of her left hand. At that moment I cared to look at her face and as she turned her head, our face faced directly with each other, on a sudden she moved her face from me as if she was feeling shy. That’s the moment I love the most when I look at other girls, I felt she might have been thinking the same way like I am thinking about her. I thought she may also care to know if I have girlfriend or not. I guessed she might have been wanting to look at my fingers for ring so, I moved my both hands near the window so she could easily look at my finger and have confident that I don’t have girlfriend at this moment.

As it was summer days the sun was bright, she was wearing sunglasses and I couldn’t see her eyes through those glasses. The sunglass was big and matching with her face, she looked prettier with that glass on. I was thinking that she looks great in that sunglass; does she look the same without that glass on? I guessed, she might look more beautiful, again I thought not necessarily, some girls look pretty only with the glasses but they are really ugly without those glasses. I explained myself that might not be the case with her, as she was sitting next to me I was more confident in her looks without the glasses on. Again I guessed, she has those big sunglasses on and I couldn’t see her eyes, she might be looking at me by tilting her eyes. I guessed she might be acting as if she is looking outside, but in reality she might be looking at me, I know these Finnish girls are really clever, she could act as if she is not caring about my movement but she is observing on me, very closely.

Now she changed her position of sitting and her face faced towards me once again, I also acted like I am not caring about her movements, but now I could see her finger and the ring in her finger, which nearly killed me. Damn, she has a boyfriend, what I have thought before was all wrong; she was not really bothered by me and my movement. But again I thought, is it true? Didn’t she really care to look at me? Well a handsome guy is in front of her, doesn’t she really care to look at him, I felt girls might be like boys, even boys who has the girlfriend don’t mind looking at other girls, so it might also be the case with the girls, even though she had boyfriend she may care to look at other boys. Again I thought, does she really have boyfriend? No was the answer from my heart, I felt she might be wearing that ring to keep herself safe from other guys’ bothering, or to show her friends that she has a boyfriend even though she didn’t have one. I feel girls usually feel uncomfortable in front of her friends if they don’t have boyfriend so she might have wore that ring to show her friends that she not single. Now my confident grew up to ask her if she has boyfriend or not. Again I thought, what her reaction might be if I directly ask her about her status, at first I need to start the conversation by saying hi or something else, but again I thought it has been more than 5 minutes that I sat next to her and saying hi after so long doesn’t really fit the shoe, so, I need some huge excuse to break the ice.

I asked myself, is she thinking in the same way as I am thinking?, is she also searching for the excuse to speak with me? If so then it’d be great if she’ll speak first, I could reply her and our conversation would continue. I felt it’d be really great to talk with her, I was imagining how her voice might be. I felt like she had a sweet voice, beautiful girl like her usually have sweet voice, but there are some exceptions. I wished her mobile phone to ring, if someone will call her then I can hear her voice, I was really longing to hear her voice. I was just imagining things about her and suddenly she pressed the button to stop the bus in next stop. I was feeling bit sorrow that she is leaving now, I wished her to stay in the bus but her destination was approaching and she had to leave. I felt to get down with her in the same stop and talk to her, at least hear her voice. I again thought of keeping my feet across so she could say “excuse me” to ask the way and my wish of hearing her voice would be fulfilled. But again I thought it’d be a manner less act from me, I would sound uncivilized creature, till now I know Finnish hates foreigners and with my that behavior the hate percent might grow more, so keeping those thing in mind I couldn’t do that. She stood up from the seat, held her bag and went towards the door, the bus stopped and she got off the bus, in all these process my eyes were only at her, staring at her and feeling lonely on her departure. As I was facing towards the rare view of the bus I kept on looking at her as the bus started to move, I kept on looking at her till far and far and she was invisible. I was feeling really sad cause she left from the seat at front of me.

With sorrow in my heart, I was still staring outside the window, I wanted to feel her presence in front of me so I turned my head towards the seat in front of me, there was another beautiful girl who got from that station and was sitting in front of me.

Please do not vote for me

2009-08-11T17:33:00.001+03:00

Although I am an active member I haven’t given my candidacy for the upcoming election, so please do not vote for me. I urge everyone (I don’t mean all the people who read my blogs, I mean the members of NRN-Finland) to utilize their votes to the fullest and vote for the right candidate. Somebody may ask who is the right candidate, I did not mean to say to vote to the candidate who would be sitting right of you in the election day, it depends on individual person, if you feel any person is liable for the post of executive member then please vote for him/her. As we all say before the election, “please do not care for relation and brotherhood and vote for the right candidate”, but somehow it exists, simple logic, how can I say my brother or close relative or good friend is a wrong person? So, my first priority would be these persons related to me and then comes others. Although most of the candidates have mentioned about the good close relations among all the Nepalese in Finland, but still the distance exists, everybody knows that.

There are total 24 registered candidates for the post of 20 executive members, so my cordial request to the 4 members who will lose the election, please do not blame yourself of not having too many friends or relatives around. We all are your friends even if you lose the election, so I hope for trouble free environment after election and peaceful GA meeting too. Let us make this election successful in a peace and friendly environment, so, our healthy relations shall remain after the election too.

Most of the members have submitted their views, goals and future tasks if they are elected as the executive member of NRN-Finland. Most of them have promised to play active part in the development of this organization and as well as try to help our motherland in one or another way. Somebody might have thought if all the candidates have the same feelings then why is this election being held? But that doesn’t solve the equations it’d be just spoof. I am always known as a heavy criticizer, and my relation with NRN also started with criticizing different activities held by NRN-Finland. Well, one of my friend have mentioned in some social networking site that “The easiest thing to do is to criticize others”, I am impressed with his words and I felt like somewhat he meant me, so, here I am not repeating that easiest task I have been doing. All the candidates have presented themselves in one or another manner, yet some missing; I hope to read their emails too. I have a personal opinion about the candidates whom I am going to vote, I prefer young, energetic and active candidates along with experienced hands, but my main concern is about the amount of time the candidate will be able to give to the organization. Yet to receive the emails about the candidacy arguably shows the lack of commitment from some candidates. The motto of only attending the meetings would send the wrong message for forth comers. I don’t think having the name in the executive member’s sheet would help the organization, so I request all the candidates to give a bit of your valuable time and love this organization.

My main motto behind this long email was not to gain your concentration on the nonsense I write but I was planning something different about helping Nepal. As, we all know the year 2011 is the tourism year of Nepal “Visit Nepal 2011”, so I would love to organize some kind of advertisement at different places of Finland. I was planning to talk to NTB (Nepal Tourism Board) to provide us the pamphlets, posters and other materials for the advertisement, but instead of approaching individually if a reputed organization like NRN-Finland could approach them then NTB would be willing to help broadly. So, I seek help from NRN-Finland in this matter, I hope the newly elected executive members would like to give a thought about it. If we could send at least 1000 Finns to visit our beautiful country, then the income of our country may raise by a bit, apart from that the relationships between both the countries gets closer. I hope Finns would be a bit open to Nepalese after visiting Nepal and often suggest Nepali people in Finland to make momo.

NRN-Finland treacherous or jeopardy???

2009-08-09T09:51:00.000+03:00

When a group of twelve Nepali people gather together in Finland, the first gossip would be of sex, and then the subject matter changes to making fun of each other and so on. NRN is the hatred word which no one wants to hear about in that group, and if someone talks about it then it’d be the most irritating thing for them, even though they can’t say it loud they have the feelings to shout out to the speaker using abusive language “chup lag vittu”. Some people couldn’t understand the basics of NRN, and the one who tries to make them understand seems out of words cause of an old saying “There’s no medicine for the fools”. But to take it in deep context, what the hell is being and going on, I feel the dirty politics in every manner.

In Nepal, when twelve people gather together the first subject of talk would be the government and the politics, each and every subject of discussions will end with the political situation, like fuel crisis, road structure, drainage system, medical facility, drinking water, social security and even child molestation. Though group of guys get time to talk about hot chicks on the town but most of their chat will end up with politics, sometimes they even say, what if the government makes compulsion for girls to be in bikini in swimming pool. This how we can say, how much we are dependent on government and politics, what else to do, those Nepali girls doesn’t have any anxiety to swim with their pants on, and it’s really frustrating to see girls swimming in their pants.

Our background is totally based on politics and even in Finland we would sometimes like to chat about the situation back in Nepal, but when the topic about the situation arise, the first concern would be about crisis and disparity compared to Finland. According to the constitution of NRN, when a person lives outside of SAARC countries for more than 183 days, then he’d be called NRN (Non Resident Nepali), I have never read that constitution and maybe there are few good words in that too. Who made that constitution??? Why should we obey it??? What is the dictum behind it??? May be the constitution replies these questions for some extent but doesn’t satisfy the questioner. Some people argued saying I am not NRN, may be I’ll live outside Nepal for 10 years but at last I will return back to my own country, so, how will I be NRN??? Well, his topic of argument was to eulogize, the definition of Non Resident doesn’t justify it and one Nepali from heart doesn’t want to say he/she is a non resident. This is the fools’ argument to say the people living outside Nepal for 6 months as NRN, and I feel it’s the biggest jeopardy for the identity of my countrymen. I challenge NRN to change its constitution because I don’t agree with it, and there are lots more who don’t agree with it too. We were not here when they developed the constitution and now it’s time for positive change, so why not change the constitution??? We have example of changing the constitution of our whole country, so I don’t think it’s impossible to change NRN’s constitution.

I’ve met many Nepali people with different prospect here in Finland. Someone are studying and planning to complete their studies and either looks for a biggest opportunity in Finland or else go to some other developed countries like UK, USA or Germany. The another group of people with different thoughts are students who wants to complete their study and go back to Nepal and try to do something new or work for their living, they sound frustrated with this vittun Finnish weather. The majority of student group who comes to Finland is to earn money, well not bad idea, but they end up in leaving the school and joining some cleaning job, ship work and jobs in restaurants. I never had any concern till they used to work part time and continue their studies, but most of those who get full time job quits the school and work full time to apply for the permanent residence of Finland. The other group of people is Asylum seeker, they come here in visiting, tourist, business visa and apply for asylum and try not to go back to the home country. Most of them end up in marrying a Finnish girl for permit to stay here and after 4 years when they get PR they file for divorce. The girl who helped him to stay here for long duration and after successfully getting PR she’ll be kicked, well the life is not the same for her after 4 years of married life, but why would he think that, he has his PR what he needed the most, and after few years he’ll go back to Nepal and marry new young bride and bring his new spouse to Finland. Some people lies in different group, they pay some huge amount of money to the agents, or are relatives of the business holders in Finland, and with the recommendation of those business holders they are called here for job, they work here for full time and the same story of PR and calling their spouses and children.

Since there’s vast difference between the category of Nepali people living in Finland, NRN-Finland is trying to unite them under the same roof, damn, how’s it possible??? I don’t see any possibility. The dirty game of politics implies here too, I guarantee for it. There was an open fight between groups of people inside the NRN sharing damned emails, and most of the email warriors were post holders in NRN or new candidates of election for executive members. I read an email forwarded by some person, he said to announce the name of executive members of the group “Nepalilainen- Suomlais Yhydistys Ry”, well there were lots of common people in the executive member’s list of that group and NRN. I doubt their motto behind it; it smells some politics for me, what is happening in Nepal is also followed here. The main motive behind it might be their love for holding the position of executive membership, either in NRN or in Nepalilainen- Suomlais Yhydistys Ry. So I feel the post of executive member is making NRN treacherous, cause there are more than 500 Nepali residing all over Finland, it is harsh to see only few people’s name and the most irritating is to see the same people’s name for executive membership of both the groups. It shows the biggest severe between Nepali, some sounds more active to be executive member of both the group and some doesn’t even want to participate in election. Well, why should they participate in election too, they have just read their name several times in forwarded mail, they don’t even know the election candidates’ profile, vision, etc. So, the candidate who is known by huge mass of people will win the election by default and the person with positive motto would remain last if he’s not known by great number of people. This will jeopardize NRN-Finland, because what I see among few candidates is they want the post rather than the task and responsibility.

There have been issue raised by the people living outside Helsinki; there might be majority of Nepali living in Helsinki, but the Nepali residing outside Helsinki should also be included in major decisions. I was happy to see there were few candidates from other cities too, this might spank somebody who said only people from Helsinki are active. Sometimes it might be irritating for the candidate outside Helsinki that the majority of candidates in Helsinki makes some major decision by themselves and let others know via email. Well, my concern is if that’s the situation why the election is needed, make your own decision and chose the candidates that you want, like last time there was some plan of consensus without informing the candidate residing out of Helsinki and he spoke about his rights to know what was going on. This is all politics, I must say, politics is good thing to learn and practice but the conceited politics like of Nepal shall not be tolerated or else it will make us deprived like Nepal.

I am God !!!.... what the fuck is your problem???

2009-08-02T15:06:00.000+03:00

The human nature is always human, they could never think like I do, uff bluffed humans sometimes are bluffed by fake gods or so called god's sons. Damn, that fucking Sai says himself a god and people wants to keep him in my position, stupid people they don't know that they are dealing with a fake god. Well, I have been single throughout my life, and I don't really know how I have children. That's a biggest mystery, people said I made Mary pregnant so Jesus was born and he is my son, but trust me you all, I never had sex with Mary so how the fuck that fucking Jesus is my son? That fucking Mohammad also has the same issue, I never fucked his mother and he kept saying all of the world that he is my son, and all you fucking fools believe that.. damn, fuck you.

The most annoying thing among all those are changing my name, damn christians say me Jehovah, fucking muslims says me allah, oh no, I really feel pissed off by changing my name again and again, it makes me confused about whom they are calling either me or their friend. Well humans please do call me Rajib, and that's my name, your god's name. I guess you are quite clear about my complaints, now lets get to the main point.

I have lots of things to say even, I have lots of problems in handling my own things you fucking people call me even after, so because of you freaking people I miss lots of my things to be done. To my good, the invention of new technology, I receive all of your wishes and complaints and compliments through the electronic device called computer to my email. And thanks to microsoft that they have this folder and filter option, to tell you the fact that all your wishes goes to my spam folder and it'll be deleted after few hours, that's my personal setting. I feel funny for all of you that even I don't read your wishes and don't care for what all you say, you keep on having wishes, damn, I feel freaked what to listen, have been listening since freaking long years. One says to do bad of another and another has the same wish, so I am pissed of all you human's characters, that's why I am here in earth to experience what you all do in real life.

But the scenario here in this earth is quite different, some says that they are god and all I can do is to laugh at them, and the most is to the humans who follow him. Damn, some says they could communicate with me or my dear friend demon, but sometimes in our gatherings we laugh a lot about humans that they say either me or my good friend demon has affect on them. To tell you the fact, demon also has the same type of filter as I do in his email. So, he too never reads your wishes dears. I am enjoying life as a human in this earth to experience the human nature, and even I am in front of them I feel funny that people still calls me in some other place. But they don't know the fact that I am like them enjoying my life and I really cannot do anything for them, all they have to do is to do their things by themselves...

आमा, हात्ती बलियो कि हात्ती छाप चप्पल बलियो???

2009-07-28T19:45:00.000+03:00

यदी तपाईंहरुले रेडियोमा यो बिज्ञापन सुन्नु भएको भये यस्को जवाफ अवस्य थाहाछ होला। राजुले आमालाई आमा, हात्ती बलियो कि हात्ती छाप चप्पल बलियो भनेर सोध्दा, आमाको मुख बाट जवाफ आउछ, “उस्तै उस्तै हो नानी”। आमाको बचन् सुनेर राजु निकै खुशीले गद्-गद हुन्छ किनकी उस्को बुवाले उसलाई भर्खरै मात्र नयाँ हात्ती छाप चप्पल किनेर ल्याइदिनु भएको थियो। आफ्नो नयाँ हात्ती छाप चप्पल साह्रै राम्रो छ, कति राम्रो आहा, हरियो बन जस्तो छ। हात्ती बनमा बस्ने भएकोले हात्ती छाप चप्पल पनि हरियो भएको होला भन्ने उस्को मनमा कुरा पस्छ। तर हात्तीको रंग त हरियो हुँदैन, खरानी रंग जस्तो जस्तो हुन्छ, तर जे भये पनि जंगलमा बस्ने हात्ती परबाट हेर्दा हरियो जस्तै देखिन्छ भनेर उस्ले आफ्नो चित्त आफै बुझायो।

नयाँ चप्पल लगएर राजु सधैं खेल्ने चौरमा जान्छ, र त्यहा एउटा कुनामा बस्छ अनि आफ्नो चप्पल र चौरको घांस हेर्छ, अच्य्या यो घांस भन्दा त मेरो चप्पलनै हरियो रहेछ, फेरी उस्को मनमा कुरा खेल्छ त्यो जंगल तिरको घांस यहाँको भन्दा हरियो हुन्छ होला, त्यसैले यो चप्पल बनाउने कम्पनीले जंगलको घांसको रंगसँग मिल्ने खाल्को रंगको चप्पल बनाएका रहेछन। त्यो जंगलको घांस त्यस्तो हरियो हुदो रहेछ यहाँको त कस्तो खाल्को, म त अलिकती पहेलो पो देख्छु। जे भये पनि जंगलको घांसनै राम्रो र हरियो, त्यसैले हामीले किताबमा पढ्नु पर्छ हरियो बन नेपालको धन भनेर। आखेरी बनको घांस पनि मेरो चप्पल जस्तो हरियो भएन भने त्यो हाम्रो धन कसरी हुन्छ? धन भन्दा पनि बाबैले धेरै किच किच पछी मलाई यो चप्पल किनिदिनु भएको, नभये अस्ती खेल्न आउँदा एउटा चप्पल हराये देखी मलाई चप्पल कहिले नकिन्दिने भन्नु भएको थियो, अहिले त किन्दिनु भयो। तर त्यो पोहिलाको चप्पल हराएको पनि राम्रै भयो, हेर्दा पनि राम्रो थिएन, जे भये पनि यो अहिलेको मेरो हात्ती छाप चप्पल धेरै राम्रो छ। अब फूटबल खेल्दा बेला बेला यता तिर आँखा लगाइ राख्नु पर्यो, कसैले चोरेर पो लाने हो कि, तर आज यो चप्पल हाम्रो गोल पोस्ट बनाउन राख्नु पर्यो, त्यसो भए पछी खेल सकिउन्जेल सम्म कसैले लादैन, हो मेरो चप्पलको आज गोल पोस्ट बनाउछु। राजुको सोच अझ बध्दै छ, आमाले मेरो चप्पल हात्ती जस्तो बलियो भन्नु भएको छ, आम् मा मा मा, कति बलियो होला है। उस्ले चप्पललाई एक एक वटा गर्दै पर फ्याल्दै गर्छ र आँफैलाई भन्छ, माहाभारतमा भिमले १० वटा हात्तीलाई फ्याल्छ रे, आमाले भन्नु भएको, यो मेरो दुईटा चप्पल एउटा हात्ती जत्रो होला कि, दुईटा चप्पल दुईटा हात्ती जत्रो, भरे आमालाई सोध्नु पर्ला, तर अघी मैले भिमले हात्तीलाई फ्याले जस्तै मेरो चप्पललाई एक एक गर्दै फ्याले, म पनि भिम भन्दा के कम् र? म सँग पनि भिमको जस्तै बल छ होला। यत्रो हात्ती जत्रो बलियो चप्पलत उठाएर पर सम्म फ्याल्न सके, म पनि धेरै बलियो रहेछु।

राजुको चप्पलको बारेमा जिज्ञासा अझ बढ्दै जान्छ, शायद यो चप्पल हात्ती जस्तो बलियो भन्नाले हात्ती जस्तो मोटो र ठुलो हैन होला, आमाले भन्नु भएको मैले अर्कै बुझे होला, हात्तीले त्यत्रो ठुलो मुढा उचाल्न सक्छ, जे काम पनि गर्न सक्छ, र मेरो यो चप्पल लगाएर मैले पनि जे काम पनि गर्न सक्छु होला भनेर हात्ती जस्तो बलियो भन्नु भएको होला आमाले। म अब यो चप्पल लगाएर जता पनि हिंड्न सक्छु, हिलोमा, नालामा, बनमा, चौरमा शायद म यो चप्पल लगाएर फूटबल खेले भने खाली खुट्टाले खेलेको भन्दा बेसी शूट जान्छ होला। मैले त्यस्तो राम्रो शूट हाने भने प्रकाश दाइले मलाई ठुलो टिममा खेलाउनु हुन्छ होला, आखेरी यो बच्चा हरुसँग खेल्न मलाई खासै मन पर्दैन, खाली छल्याउनु पर्ने, आखेरी मैले बल भेटेपछी कसैले खोस्न सक्दैन। कति गोल हान्नु, वाक्क भैसके, तर कहिले काही त्यो अंबरे कीपर बसेकोबेला बलले सेकाउन चाँही मज्जा आउछ। हा हा हा, साले अंबरे, अस्ती होमवर्क सार्न दे भन्दा नदिएको। आज आओस न फूटबल खेल्न त्यस्लाई मेरो हात्ती छाप चप्पल लगाएर शूट हानेर सेक्काएर मार्नेछु। चप्पल लगाएर फूटबल खेले पछी हराउने पनि डर हुँदैन, अझ शूट पनि दरो जान्छ, वा म त आज देखी राजा भए, हात्ती चढ्ने वा वा वा।

केहीबेरपछी राजुको साथी सुदिप आइ पुग्छ, उस्ले पनि नयाँ चप्पल लगाएर आएको हुन्छ, राजुले उस्को चप्पल तर्फ ध्याननै नदियिकिन आफ्नो चप्पल देखाउदै भन्छ, हेर सुदिपे मेरो नयाँ हात्ती छाप चप्पल, आज भर्खर बुवाले किनेर ल्याइदिनु भएको।
सुदिपले पनि आफ्नो खुट्टा अघाडी सारेर चप्पल देखाउदै भन्यो, मेरो नि नयाँ चप्पल हेर, मेरो बुवालेनी आजै किनेर ल्याइदिनु भएको।
राजुले कुरा अघाडी बढाउछ, तर मेरो त हात्ती छाप चप्पल हो भाई, तेरो जस्तो होइन, कम् बलियो हुन्छ यो चप्पल, हात्ती जस्तो बलियो हुन्छ।
सुदिपले राजुको कुरा सकिन नदियिकिन भन्छ, मेरो पनि हात्ती छाप चप्पल हो भाई, धेरै नखोक आफ्नो मात्र राम्रो भनेर।
राजुलाई यो कुरा पच्दैन, लु त नखोक हात्ती छाप चप्पल भनेको मेरो जस्तो हुन्छ हरियो रंग को, जंगलमा फल्ने घांस जस्तै हरियो रंगको हुन्छ। तेरो बाउले तलाई डुप्लिकेट चप्पल ल्याएर हात्ती छाप चप्पल भनेर गफ दिएछन, कम् लोवी छन् तेरा बाउ, आफ्नै छोरालाई पनि ठगेछन। च् च्, बिचरा।
सुदिपलाई यो कुरा साह्रै मन परेन, खुब तेरै बाउ दानी, साले गफ हान्छस् बोरु थाहा छैन भन न, हात्ती छाप चप्पल जुन रंग मा पनि पाउछ, रातो, हरियो, निलो, पहेलो। जुन रंगको लिन्छु भन्दा पनि पाउछ, तलाई थाहा छैन भन न, बिचरालाई थाहै रहेनछ आरुलाई भन्छ है। अनी यो तेरो हात्ती छाप चप्पल तैले भने जस्तो हात्ती जस्तो बलियो हुँदैन, कुन चाँहीले गफ हनेछ, साथी त बोउलाये छ हा हा हा।
राजुलाई सुदिपको कुराले चित्त बुझेन, त गफ नदे, मेरो आमाले भनेको हात्ती जस्तै बलियो हुन्छ यो चप्पल भनेर उस्ले सुदिपलाई भन्छ।
सुदिपले कुरा राख्छ, लु तेरो चप्पल म एक चोटि तान्दा चुट्यौदिन्छू, हुन्छ? तेरो चप्पल हात्ती जस्तो बलियो रहेछ भने चुटिदैन, बलियो रहेनछ भने चुटिन्छ।
राजुले सुदिपको प्रस्ताब् स्विकार गर्यो, अनि सुदिपले राजुको चप्पल बेस्सरी तान्यो, त्यसो गर्दा चप्पल्को एउटा फित्ता चुटियो। राजुलाई त्यो कुरा देखेर सहन नसक्ने भएछ अनि चुटिएको चप्पल हातमा बोकेर घर गयो अनि आमा अघाडी गएर चुटिएको चप्पल देखाउदै भन्यो, आमा यो चप्पल त डुप्लिकेट परेछ। भात पकाइरहेकि राजुकी आमा डाडु लिएर राजुलाई छोप्न अघाडी बढ्दै कराउदै थियि, तलाई बज्या आज भर्खर किनिदिएको चप्पल ऐले चुट्याएर आयिस।

damn dark brown eyes

2009-07-21T13:21:00.001+03:00

Let me start with one corner
The other corner is wide
In between there’s whole world
The truth, the lies and the skies

The mountains high and blue sky
I can see it all through the reflection of light
The beauties of it describes
What’s the world with a smile that’s so bright

Oh! Your damn dark brown eyes
Tells the story of your innocence with no surprise
The whole world is beautiful if I look through those eyes
You have lovely damn dark brown eyes

The darkest small round thing in between your eyes
Rotates around as you don’t keep watching tight
Then those dark brown things which covers your eyes
Feels like a ocean with a deep divine

Whenever I stare at your damn dark brown eyes
I feel to get more and more inside
The ocean looks so deep and waves so strong
And all those pixels describes that you have something inside

Oh! Your damn dark brown eyes
Makes me feel to swim inside
Yes, I am floating in my imagination
How would be the ocean inside your eyes

When you smile, I can feel it from your eyes
It tells everything that I desire to find
It makes you lovely as lovely as you are always with a smile
Cause you’ve got that damn dark brown eyes.

आउ हामी मिलेर पानी नियोजन गरौ

2009-07-12T01:46:00.000+03:00

मित्रहरु यो हास्य ब्यंग्य लेख चाँही होइन, तर निबन्ध पढेर बिच बिच मा हास्नु हुन्छ भने म बन्धेज चाँही लगाउदिन। मेरो दिमागमा यस्तो वाइयात कुरा हरुले घरि घरि बास गर्ने गर्छ, तर कहिले काही यही वाइयात जस्तो लाग्ने कुरा यथार्थपनि हुनसक्छ। जेहोस् पढ्नु छ भने मज्जाले पढूम यस्तो वाइयात भनेर हेप्ने कार्य नगर्नु होला है त। अब हाम्रो संसारमा परिवार नियोजन हुन सक्छ भने पानी नियोजन चाँही किन नहुने र? हुनैपर्छ नि। अब नेपाल सि. आर. अस. कम्पनीले कोन्डोम र गर्भ निरोधन गराउने बिभिन्न सामाग्रीहरु उपलब्द गराउछभने पानी नियोजनको सामाग्री कस्ले उपलब्द गराउला भनेर फेरी अर्को प्रश्न तपाईंको दिमागमा उब्जिन सक्छ।।। खेर केही छैन, मैले अहिले सम्म पानी नियोजनको लागि उपयुक्त साधन बनाउने फ्याक्टरी चाँही खोलेको छैन, र यो त्यस्को बिज्ञापन पनि होइन।

पानी नियोजन भन्ने शब्द परिवार नियोजन बाटै आएको हो, यो चाँही मैले बनाएको है, कसैले शब्द चोरे म चोरको आरोप लगाउदिन, कृपया खुलेर प्रयोग गर्नु होला। हामीले जे जसरी परिवार नियोजनको बारेमा बुझेका छौ, पानी नियोजन पनि त्यस्तै हो तर परिवार र पानी मा केही कुरा मिल्दो रहेछन, जस्तै अन्तिममा आउने नियोजन शब्द। दुइटै शब्दको मुख्य उदेश्य भनेको हिसाब लेखा जोखा मिलाउनु हो, बेवस्थित बनाउनु भन्छ क्यारे नेपालीमा। परिवार नियोजनमा थोरै परिवार जन्माउनु र धेरै सुख पाउनु भन्ने उदेस्य हुन्छ भने पानी नियोजनमा थोरै पानी खर्च गर्नु र सुख पाउनु भनेको हो।

आ, कत्ति परिवार नियोजनको कुरा गरेको भन्ला मलाई, अब त त्यो शब्द मरेनी निकाल्दिन यो निबन्धमा, अर्कोमा चाँही हुन सक्छ है होसियार। हाम्रो देशमा पानी बेवस्थापनको प्रणालि अलिकती रमाइलो रहेनछ, हामीलाई दैनिक रुपमा उपभोग गर्न पानीत चाहिन्छ तर के हामी त्यो पानीलाई बेवस्थित तरिकाले प्रयोग गर्छौ त? कसैले गर्न सक्छ, सबैजना म जस्तो नहोला, तर प्रतिशतको हिसाब गर्नेहो भने पानी बेवस्थित रुपले चलाउने मान्छे निकै कम् छन। अब कसै कसैको जीवनमा सुत्ने खाटत बेवस्थित तरिकाले मिलएर राखेको हुदैन पानी बेवस्थापन् गर्नु त अचम्मको कुरो हुन्छ होला। हामीलाई टि.भीमा बिज्ञापन हेरेर ल भन बाबु तिमी दिनमा कती चोटि दाँत माझ्छौ, भनेर सोध्न सजिलो हुन्छ, तर त्यही दाँत माझ्नको लागि चाहिने पानीको बारेमा ध्यान आकर्शन हुन गाह्रो पर्छ। आ त्यो मुला पानीत होनि, जता हेर्यो उतै पानी नेपालमा, के को चिन्ता त्यस बारेमा। हुन पनि त हो, सानै देखी सत्य होस् वा नहोस् हामीले नेपाल जलस्रोतमा बिस्वको दोस्रो धनी मुलुकमा पर्छ भनेर पढेका थियौ, क्यानेडियन हरुले जलस्रोतमा बिस्वको दोस्रो धनी क्यानाडा पर्छ भनेर पढ्डो रहेछ, शायद अरु पनि त्यस्तो कुनै मुलुक छ कि, खेर त्यो मेरो चासोको बिषय परेन। तर त्यत्रो जलको स्रोत भएको नेपालमा हामीलाई जलको के कमी भनेर सानै देखी हाम्रो बानी पनि त बिग्रिएको छ।

पानी नियोजन भनेको पानीलाई बेवस्थित गर्नु होइन, पानीको सदुपयोग गर्नु भन्ने मेरो भनाइ छ, मेरो पार्टीको पनि त्यही भनाइ छ, नेपाली जनताकोपनि त्यही भनाइ छ, यदी तपाईंको भनाइ मेरो भनाइ सँग मेल खाएन भने हामी बिचको सुमधुर मैत्रिक सम्बन्ध टुक्रिएर जाने छ, खरानिमा मिल्ने छ, हामीले हाम्रो पार्टी सँग सल्लाह् गरेर त्यस्को बिरोधमा प्रतिगामी कदम चाल्ने छौ, र अन्तिममा हाम्रो पार्टी र जनताको भनाइ एउटै भएकोले जनताको बिजय हुनेछ। यदी हाम्रो यस् विचारमा तपाईं सहभागि हुनु भएन भने तपाईंलाई जनताको कठगरामा उभ्याइने छ र जनताको पक्षबाट जे निर्णय हुन्छ हामीले तपाईंलाई त्यही सजाय दिने छौ। आम् मा मा, त्यती लेख्दा त मेरो हात बाट पसिना आयो, हन ति हाम्रा नेता सधैं यसरी बोल्दा के के आउदो होला त, अझ चर्को घाममा, तिनिलाई जंगलनै ठीक थियो। बिचारा, कहिले काही त घाति को हड्डी पनि खिएको भन्ने सुनेको थिए।

राजनीतिक पात्रको कुरा गर्दा त सबैलाई रमाइलो लाग्दो रहेछ भन्ने अनुमान लगए, त्यो चाँही मह जोडीले सँदेश मुलक कार्यक्रममा बिच बिचमा हसाये जस्तै गर्न खोजेको मैले नि, आखिरी राजनीतिक ब्यङ सबैलाई मनपर्ने बिषय हो। अंह, साची म पानी नियोजनको बारेमा भन्दै थिए। काठमाडौंमा खानेपानी थाप्न मेरा डेराका मालिक राती २ बजे उठ्ने गर्थे, त्यो पानी पनि कस्तो बैमानि हफ्तामा २ दिन मात्रै आउने गर्थियो, बिचरा बुडा मान्छे, अझै सम्झेर दु:ख लाग्छ। त्यत्रो गरेर थापेको पानी, हामी अब के के मा कसरी खर्च गर्थियौ भन्ने कुरा हामीलाई मात्रै थाहा छ, आखिरी पैसा तिरेपछी जे पनि गर्न पाइयो हाम्रो देशमा। तर त्यत्रो पैसा तिर्छु भन्दापनि त्यो खानेपनी संस्थाले पानी राम्ररी नियोजन गरेर सबैलाई किन बड्न नसकेको होला भनेर मेरो मनमा प्रश्ण उठ्दैन, किन कि थाहै छ, मेलम्चिको पानी काठमाडौंमा भित्रिन्छ भन्ने कथा मात्रैहो भनेर, त्यस माथि बल बहादुर राइ जस्ता मान्छे जलस्रोत मन्त्री भए, खानेपानीलाई रवानेपानी भनेर पढ्थियो। धन्न म काठमाडौंको परिन, हेत त्यस्तो ठाउँमा को बसोस, फोहोर र अनिकाल, छ्या छ्या छ्या। निजगढमा अन्तराश्ट्रिय बिमानस्थल बन्ये त त्यो कुएको काठमाडौं जिन्दगी टेक्दिन थे, तर त्यो ऐर्पोर्टकोनि कथै भयो।

अब ठाउँको बारेमा झगडा गरेर बस्नु भन्दा मुख्य बिषय तर्फ लागौ साथी हो, तर साँच्ची यो लेखमा मुल कुरा त केहीनै छैन। छैन भन्दापनि छ, एक लाइन जत्तीको छ, पानी जोगाउ जीवन बचाउ, "सेब वाटर सेब लाईफ", मैले त्यो स्लोगन नि आँफै बनाएको हो, कसै सँग मेल खाए खै के हुनेछ भनेर टि.भीमा लेखथ्यो, त्यही हुनेछ है। हामीले पानीलाई बेवस्थापन् गर्न नसकेपनि निस्चय रुपमा कम प्रयोग गर्यौ भने धेरै राम्रो हुनेथियो। जस्तै दाँत माझ्दा धारा बन्द गरेर माझ्ने, हात मुख धुदा चाहिने बेला मात्रै धारा खोल्ने, चर्पीमा सजिलो सँग बसेर गर्यो भने थोरै पानीले बगाउन सजिलो हुन्छ। अहिलेत ड्रै टोइलेट भनेर संसारका बिभिन्न देश हरुमा पारीक्ष्यन हुँदैछ, शायद हाम्रो लागि पनि यो निर्माण उपयोगी हुन सक्छ। हाम्रो देशमा पानीको कमीछ चाँही भन्छौ तर गर्मिमा काठमाडौंमा रोडमा जमेको पानीमा मोटरसाइकल चाँही कुदाउन छाडदैनौ, हन त्यो आकाश बाट पानीनै नपरोश भन्न खोजेको होइन मैले, त्यसो भन्ने हरुको पनि कमी चाँही छैन, तर त्यो मेरो भनाइ चाँही होइन। आकाशबाट पानी त मज्जाले दर्किन्छ, तर त्यस पानीलाई सदुपयोग गर्न हामी तातेका छैनौ। पानीमा तातने कुरै आउँदैन, तर मैले भन्न खोजेको चाँही, त्यो आकासे पानी हामीले सन्कलन गरेर त्यस्को ठुलो सदुपयोग गर्न सकिन्छ भन्ने कुरा हो। अब बाल्टिमा पानी थापेर सन्कलन गर्ने पनि भन्न खोजेको होइन, त्यस्को लागि प्राबिधिक उपकरन हरु छन, हामीले केवल सदुपयोग गरौ।

मह जोडीले जलपरीमा देखाउन खोजेको कुरा पनि त्यही थियो, तर हामीले त्यस्को तर्किब तिर नलागेर हास्न तर्फ लग्यौ। हास्नु रमाइलो हो तर त्यस सिरिअलबाट ज्ञानको कुरा लिनुपनि रमाइलो थियो। हामीले घर बनाउछौ त्यत्रो लगानी गरेर, अनी अलिकती पैसा बाकि रहयो भने तल्ला थाप्न तिर लग्छौ, घरको लागि चाहिने प्राबिधिक् उपकरन तिर नलागेर घरमा तल्ला थपेर भाडामा लगाउन हामीलाई हतार हुन्छ, प्राय सबैलाई त्यस्तै हो, तर एक पल्ट आफ्नो लागि पनि सोचौ है साथी हो, बिज्ञानले दिएको नयाँ कुराको सदुपयोग गर्नु राम्रो हुन्छ। अब देशमा इस्थिती राम्रो नभएको बेला हामीले कुनै कामबाट देशलाई सहयोग गर्न सक्यौ भने हाम्रो देश बिकासको बाटोमा लम्कन धेरै समय लाग्दैन, सुरुमा जनता आँफै सचेत हुनु पर्यो। हामीले आकासे पानी सन्कलन गर्ने प्रबिधी हाम्रो घरमा रख्यौ भने हामीलाई पानीको त्यती खाचो रहदैन साथै पानी नियोजन कार्यालय (नेपाल खानेपानी संस्थान) ले कहिले पानी पठाउछ भनेर बाटो पनि हेर्नु पर्दैन, अझ मैले त भन्न बिर्सेंको, जस्को ठुलो मोटर त्यस्ले बेसी पानी तान्छ भनेर ठुलो मोटर पनि किन्नु पर्दैन। आफुलाई पुग्ने पानी आफ्नै घरमा फलेपछी (धान जस्तै फल्ने भनेको होइन, पम्प गरेर निकाल्नु पनि भनेको होइन, आकाश को पानी सन्कलन गर्ने भनेको हो) हामीले पानी सदुपयोग गर्न पनि सिक्छौ, त्यसैले २० लाखमा घर बनएर ३ लाखको तल्ला थप्नु भन्दा २ लाखमा आकासे पानी सन्कलन गर्ने मेसिन किने राम्रो हुन्छ होला, भन्ने मेरो मन्यता छ। मैले ई.अन.अफ.ओ को बिज्ञापन गरेको चाँही हैन है, तर तिनिहरुले यस्लाई बिज्ञापन सम्झेर मलाई पैसा दिन्छ भने नाइ चाँही भन्दिन, त्यो पैसाले मेरो घरमानि आकासे पानी सन्कलन यन्त्र हाली हल्थे। हामीले यसरी आफ्नो लागि आँफै काम गर्ने कदम चाल्ने हो भने हामीले कुनै कुराको लागि सरकारको मुख हेरेर बस्नु पर्दैन, त्यसैले आफ्नो देश आँफै बनाउने कार्यक्रम तिर लागौ साथी हरु, नत्र ति बिदेशी पनि छिरेर बनाएर निस्के जस्तो गर्छन्, आनी आफ्ना देशमा गएर उनिहरुका साथी हरुलाई गफ हन्छन, त्यो नेपालमा त गान्जा चाँही साह्रै सोलिड भनेर, अरु कुरा त त्यस्तै हो।

Its better to think about Rainwater harvesting from now, also to fight against the global warming

My Future !!!

2009-07-06T17:20:00.000+03:00

My future, your future, everyone's future is all in future, not today. The future term sounds very interesting and mostly used by all of us in a daily term either directly or indirectly. If I couldn't finish a task today, I may say I will do it tomorrow, that's in future. So, future is related to our today and present even though we say that we don't live in it. Some future are short term and some are long term, and we always have a small plan for short future and have accordingly longer plans for long future, but there still exists some people who never plans for their longer future period. But still future is future which is yet to come, and as the global fact time never stops the future will arrive and be present someday.

Most of us are interested to know what our future would be like. Some plan from beginning that I want to be this or that in my future so he works according to that to achieve the target set by them for their future, and some really don't get to the plans and live life whatever it comes. It is a human behavior about this planning things, but there are lots of pros and cons in both thing about planning the future and living life and facing whatever comes in front. Though you cannot say every plans for future would be successful and you cannot even say without having a proper plan we could live life as a free soul. My main focus on this subject is about the people's interest in knowing the future. everybody would like to know what is going to happen in their future, not only the short term but also the long term. I would definitely love to see what will I do the next day or what will I be at the end of some year. But sometimes it sounds crazy thing to know all of your future beforehand.

Do you like to know that you will die tomorrow? If you'll come to know that you'll die tomorrow then you would be like dead today itself worrying and hurrying, may be you'd like to meet all of your relatives before you die, may be you'd like to organize a small party for all, may be you'd like to remember all your past days, so to know that you are going to die tomorrow is an awful thing a person would know. Even will you still have a will to live if you can see your future by yourself? you know each and everything about tomorrow what is going to happen, so would life be interesting after that. If you know that your boss is going to shout at you tomorrow, you'd probably not go to office, and if your boss would know that you will not come to office he may come to the place where you are and scream his throat out. So, everybody knows everything and the interest in living life will pass away, people will live in agony and pain. But still we are curious what will happen in our future, but if we know what is going to happen in the future then the human nature collapses from this earth. Human are famous for their curiosity and trying the things out, if you know in advance that you have to do this and that to perform one task then there would be no mistake and no curiousness and theme of human will be changed from unsatisfied creature to the fully satisfied creature. So, its not good option to try to know what the future would be like, we can plan our future and try to work out according to it, but it sounds useless for me to go to the fortuneteller and ask about my future. I want to live my life fully thrilled and being curious about my future, but not by knowing what will I be in the future.

sweet sixteen blues

2009-07-05T11:04:00.000+03:00

she came out of home at 11 in her sweet sixteen
yes, she came out of home at 11 in her sweet sixteen
and she headed towards the vookakuu road if you know what it means

Well, I was in the bar drinking the wine and playing my blues guitar
yes, I was in the bar drinking the wine and playing my blues guitar
and the people were saying please can you play that song once more

She headed towards the bar which was not so far from her sweet sweet home
yes, she headed towards the bar which was not so far from her sweet sweet home
she came till the door and pointed towards me and said that I'm her man

The security man let her in and she came close to me and said hi baby
and she started the conversation saying what ur plans for night
yes, she started the conversation saying what my plans for tonight

I said I don't know girl, cause I am here drinking the wine and playing my blues around
I might be heading south if my fortune's good and playing there all night long
yes, I might be heading south if my fortune's so good and playing there all night long

she said me, do you wanna go with me and enjoy all night long
I will do all the stuffs that you were craving for and give you a good time
yes I will do all the stuffs that you were craving for and give you a good time

I said you are just a kid baby, go back home and have a good night sleep
but she showed me her middle finger raised and all others down at my face
yes, she showed me her middle finger raised and all others down at my face

she turned to another man and asked the same old thing if he wants to go
yes, she turned to another man and asked the same old thing if he wants to go
but he said girl, your are just an underage kid girl, you better send your mama here

I went to her and said, hey girl listen to me you better find a boyfriend of your age
he will give you all what you were looking for and love if that is what you need
you can play your part, I don't know how you'll start but it might really work

she turned towards me and said, I don't need a boy I need a man who is earning good
so I can live my life without working hard and enjoying all day good
yes, because I can live my life without working hard and enjoying all day good

History speaks the truth

2009-07-04T00:09:00.000+03:00

There are several history makers and record breakers in Nepal and everybody are famous for their deeds, even if they haven't done anything they have their name in the history and it’s always linked with the great deeds. The first king of Shah Dynasty was Draibya Shah; he first became the king of Gurkha in 1559. At that era the Magars used to choose the king every year by holding the open running competition, but with help of external forces he became king of Gurkha and when he was in throne, he ended the running policy for choosing the king. Since then Shahs were said to be clever people, and they ruled Nepal for 240 years. Gyanendra shah the last king of Nepal also made a history by again seizing the power like his father Mahendra did after the state was declared democracy. One the process of growth Nepal also faced different period, the Rana regime which was named the dark period of Nepal by the historians.

History speaks the truth, and we should all know that. With the help of some people or power Draibya Shah captured the kingdom from Magars and abducted them from their system and kingdom. Later who ever spoke against the king were executed and he made a rule that his ancestor will be his successor. This was the first time that shahs have taken democracy from people. The monarch had the optimum power and people were compelled to live under them. At some point there were not so good relations among the royal family, the Ranas took an advantage and took all the power to govern the country. They still did a mistake by giving the highest ranking to the shahs instead of kicking them out. The shahs didn’t have the proper power so their situations were well monitored and known by Nepali people, all the people used to feel pity for them.

Every time the limit of dictatorship was reached Nepali people united to be one and roared and drove the dictator out. When the resistance of Nepali people were broken they fought against the Ranas and their armies, at that time the king from shah dynasty went to India to hide, he was scared to die during the revolution period. After the Rana regime was thrown out, he came back to Nepal and cried in front of the people. All the people thought he is good man and his ancestors ruled our country so he should be the king again to rule the country. No one could guess it was the tear of the crocodile and later on his son Mahendra again kicked the democracy and established the monarchy. People fought and gave life to fight against the Ranas to have democracy in the country but the other member from the same shah dynasty tore the peoples heart, kicked their feelings, wasted their blood and fight for freedom. People believed that they are son of the nations but they came to be an opportunist.

It was unity among the Nepali people again to do the revelation and sought for revolution, after different attempts, people were successful to bring the democracy back to the country, which was missing for many years. Again people made a huge mistake by keeping the same member from shah dynasty as head of state that also had an optimum power of army. Even though after such a great revolution period people still had faith in the shahs and kept them as royals of the nation. I knew a long time back that it was going to be happen, as people easily trusted the royals which had army power with them; they again betrayed the Nepali people and tried to establish the monarchy. As I said earlier history speaks the truth, the last king of shah dynasty Gyanendra Shah didn’t look back at the history where people united to fight against all the odds to establish democracy in the country, and tried to restrain the power by him. After few years the same thing happened, the revolutionary people again took a step forward and kicked him out. This time in spite of some people’s argument the shah kingdom was fully ended. Now people are enjoying the best thing for which their ancestors died, fought, planned, etc. Now I hope Nepal will not suffer from any such dictatorship, cause if anyone tries to step towards the dictatorship then I suggest them to look back at the history, Nepali people are not going to sit back and watch whatever they do.

मैले धर्मभक्त आचार्यलाई मारेको होइन

2009-06-28T18:42:00.000+03:00

बिहानको नौ बजेको थियो, काले कामी घरको अघाडी बसेर मुर्ती बनाउदै थियो, दौरा सुराल र इस्टकोटमा सजिएका धरडिधर आचार्य लौरो टेक्दै कालेका घरको नजिकै पुगे अनी कराये "तेरिमा कामी, मलाई देखेर तल टाउको लगाउछस्, नमस्कार गर्नुत कता हो कता उल्टै नदेखे झैन गर्दो रहेछ"। कालेले माथि हेर्यो र हात जोडेर भन्यो "माफपाउ माहिला बा मैले याद गरिनछु, अनी आज कतिकामले यता पाल्नु भयो कुन्नी" धरडिधरले आफ्नो त्यहा सम्म आएको उदेस्य भने, तेरी माल्किनले सपनामा भगवान देखी अरे, भगवानले चाँदिको मुर्ती बनाएर पूजागरे घरमा लक्षिण आउछ भने अरे, त्यसैले तेरा अरु सबैकाम छाडेर आज देखी मेरा घरको आगनमा बसेर मुर्ती खोप्न थाल। चाँदी जस्तो कुरो तैले हिनामिना गर्छस भनेर उस्ले तेरा सबै सर्धम लिएर उतै डाकेकी हो, लौ तेरा सबै समान ठीकपार अनी लागि हालौ। कालेले धरदिधरको कुरा प्रती आपत्ति जनाउदै भन्यो, माफपाउ माहिला बा म अहिले काजी नरेन्द्र शम्शेरले सुम्पिएको काम गर्दै छु, काजिको बिशेष मान्छे हिजो आएर तीन दिन भित्र यो मुर्ती तयार पार्नु भनेर हैकम आएको छ, म आज भित्रमा योकाम सकेर भोली देखी बाको काम थालछु हुन्न र? त पनि दरबारको पुछरनै भयिछस, साना महाराज त्रैलोक्यले बिदेशमा पढेर फर्केको तलाई थाहा छैन? अब यो जङेको रजाइ धेरै छैन, त्रैलोक्य वीर बिक्रम शाहदेवले सबैलाई लखेट्ने छन, ति राणाहरुको चमक धमक धेरै दिन टिक्दैन। कालेले आफ्नो बक्तब्य राख्यो, हुन पनि होला, श्री ३ महाराज जङ्ग बहादुर राणा पनि बिदेशको भ्रमण गरेर फर्किये पछी देशमा क्रान्ति ल्याएका हुन त्यसैले बिदेश बाट फर्केका हरुले देशमा केही नौलो कुरा गर्लान। तर पनि माहिलाबा नेपालबाट राणा हटेपनि हाम्रो लम्जुङको राजा त श्री ३ नै हुनुन्छ नि, फेरी श्री ३ जङ्ग महाराजले श्री ५ सुरेन्द्र महाराजसँग खै कुन्नी कती बर्ष सम्मको लागि लम्जुङमा राज गर्ने शहमति भएकोछ अरे। त्यस्तो स्यस्तो केही हुँदैन भनेर धरडिधर जङ्गिये, लु त महिले भनेको सुन, आज मिती १९२९ साल भदौ १९ गते पँडित शिवहरी आचार्यका माहिला पुत्र म धरडिधर आचार्यले किटान दिएर भन्छु, आजको ५ बर्ष भित्र ति डाँका राणाहरुलाई फ्यालेर श्री ५ महाराजा धिराजले देशको सबै सत्ता हातमा पार्नु हुनेछ। काले कामीसँग त्यस्को कुनै जवाफ नभएकोले चुप लागेर बस्यो। धरडिधर फेरी कराए, लु त तेरा राणाका पुछर कहिले थन्को लगाउछस् त्यस दिन देखी मेरा घरमा आफ्नो सर्धम लिएर आइज मुर्ती कोर्नको लागि, त्यती भनेर धरडिधर त्यहा बाट हिंडे।

धरडिधर आचार्यलाई राणा साह्रै मनपर्दैन थियो, उन्का नाममा भएको ५०० बिघ्हा जमिन राणाहरुले खोसेर लिएका थिए, शायद त्यही भएर उनिलाई राणाको नाम सुन्ने बित्तिकै पारो तातेर आउथियो। उन्ले आफ्नो गाईगोठमा बेला बेला मान्छे भेला गर्ने गर्थे र ति राणाहरुलाई देशबाट कसरी हटाउने भनेर योजना बनाउने गर्थे। उन्को नाराको मुख्य उदेश्य भनेको सबै जात जातिका मान्छे हरुलाई एकै ठाउमा भेला गरेर राणाहरुको खिलाफ्मा आवाज उठाउनु थियो। उनी भन्ने गर्थे हामी सबै मान्छे हो, मान्छे ले मान्छे लाई भेदभाउ गर्नु हुँदैन, बाहुन, छेत्री, गुरुङ, मगर, राई, सबै मानिसहो, सबैको शरिरमा तातो र रातो रगत बग्छ, काट्दा सबैलाई दुख्छ, र सबैले एक्दिन मर्नु पर्छ। यसरी मानिस् भएर जन्मेपछी ति राणाहरु किन ठुला र हामी किन साना, सबैजना हामी एक हौ, मानिस ले मानिसलाई ज्यदति गर्नु हुन्न, हामी माथि अत्याचार भैरहेको छ र यो प्रकृया रोक्नको लागि हामी आवाज उठाउनु पर्छ, आवाजले मात्र पुगेन भने हतियार पनि उठाउनु पर्छ। उन्को त्यो संगठनमा प्राय अल्लारे ठिटाहरु थिए, गुरुङ, मगर र राई जातका मान्छे हरुको जनमत बेसी हुनाले अरूहरू त्यती बोल्दैनथिए, गोठबाट चर्को आवाज प्राय धरडिधरको मात्रै सुनिने गर्थियो।

भोलीपल्ट बिहानै काले कामी धरडिधरको आगनमा पुगेर करायो, माहिलाबा म आए, माहिली बजैले भित्रबाट करायिन, आगनमा होश गरेर बस है कामी, यस्पाली दशैंमा पूजा गर्न ल्याएको बोको छोलास् नि, बोको आगनमा खुल्लै छ नछोइकन बस्नु, कालेले बाहिरबाट करायो, छुन्न छुन्न मालिक्नी म बचेर बस्छु। भित्रबाट माहिली बजै हातभरी चाँदी लिएर आयिन, र भनिन "तैले मुर्ती बनाउने सबै समान त लिएर आयिस" कालेले सबै ल्याये हजुर भन्यो। माहिली बजैले चाँदी भुइमा राखिदियिन, ल यो चाँदिको मलाई कृष्ण भगवानको राम्रो मुर्ती बनाइदे, त आजकाल निकै छट्टु भएको छस अरे, त्यसैले म यहाँबाट तैले के गर्छस हेरी राख्छु। कालेले मन्जुरी जनायो हुन्छ भनेर, अनी आफ्नो सामान निकालेर मुर्ती बनाउन थाल्यो। यत्तिबिचमा धरडिधरका कान्छा छोरा धर्मभक्त आचार्य घरबाट आगनमा आयो, ७ पुगेर ८ भर्खर लागेको धर्मभक्तको भर्खरै उपनयन भएको थियो। दशैमा पूजागर्ने बोकोको घाटिमा डोरी बानेर उस्ले डोर्याउदै काले नजिकै ल्यायो, अनी आमालाई घुर्की देखाउन थाल्यो, "मलाई बिहान् बिहान उठेर गायत्रि मन्त्र पढ्न मन लाग्दैन, तिमीहरू मलाई बिहान ढिलो सम्म सुत्न दिन्छौकि म यो बोको कामिलाई छुवाइदिउ" मैले पनि यो कामिलाई छोएभने म ब्राम्हन् रहदिन त्यसैले मन्त्र पढ्नै पर्दैन, लौ भन अब देखी मलाई गायत्रि मन्त्र पढ्न लगाउछौकि म कामिलाई छोइदिउ। छोरो को घुर्की र कामी सँग टासिन खोजेको द्रिस्यले माहिली बजैलाई आपत परिसकेको थियो। हैन बाबु त्यसो नगर म बाबालाई भनी दिन्छु, त्यसो नगर भनेर उनी करौदै थियिन। त्यसो भन्दै उनी आफ्नो छोरोलाई तान्न भनी लम्कियिन, धर्मभक्तले आमाले आफुलाई तान्न आटेको देखेर छल्नकोलागि जिउ बँगाए, छोरोलाई तान्न लम्केको हातले उल्टै उनिले छोरोलाई धकेल्न पुगिछन। धर्मभक्त आमाको धकेलाइबाट कालेले तताइ रहेको चाँदिमा अनुहार डुबाउन पुगे। यो देखेर माहिली बजै बेस्सरी चिच्यायिन्, त्यो सुनेर सुतिरहेका धरडिधर ब्यिउझिए, काले कामिले अनुहारभरी तातो चाँदीपरेको धर्मभक्तलाई बोकेर बैध्यकोमा लान्छु भनी दगुरो। काले कामी त्यहाबाट कुद्दै गर्दाको अवस्थामा धरडिधर घरबाट बाहिर निस्के, उन्लाई त्यहा के भयो भन्ने मेलो पाउन एक्छिन लाग्यो। काले कामिले धर्मभक्तलाई बैध्यकोमा पुर्याउदसम्म धर्मभक्तले प्राण त्याग गरी सकेका थिए।

साँझमा चौतारीमा बैठक बस्यो, काले कामिलाई डोरिले रूखमा बाधियेको थियो, श्री ३ महाराजका बिशेष मान्छे, गाउँको मुखिया, मन्दिरका पूजारी, धरडिधरका परिवार, काले कामिका परिवार र गाउँका प्राय सबै ब्यक्ती उपस्थित थिए। धरडिधरले आफ्नो बक्तब्य राखे, यो कामिले मेरो घरमा आएर मेरो कान्छो छोरोको मुखमा चाँदी खन्याएर, बैध्यकोमा लान्छु भनेर बोकेर लाग्यो। मेरो छोरो धर्मभक्तलाई यस्ले मार्न त मार्यो तर मर्नु भन्दा अघाडी उस्लाई छोएर उस्को धर्मपनी नस्ट गरिदियो। मर्ने बेलामा दलितले छोएको मेरो छोरोले स्वर्गको बाटो लाग्नेहो कि होइन, यस् कामिले उस्लाई आफु सँगइ नर्क लिएर जाने योजना बनाएको रहेछ। यस्लाई यस्तो सजाय दिनु पर्छ आज देखी कुनै दलितले माथिलो जातका मान्छेलाई छुने आँट नगरोस। राणाकालमा बाहुनहरुले बिशेष मान्यता पाउने हुनाले धरडिधरको इच्छ्या पुरा भयो। काले कामिलाई रूखमा बाधेरा कुटेर मारिनुपर्ने निर्णय भयो। सबै गाउँले मिलेर आफ्नो औजार् लिएर काले कामिलाई कुट्दै थिए अनी उस्को मुख बाट आवाज आइरहेको थियो, अैया, मैले धर्मभक्त आचार्यलाई मारेको होइन, अैया, मैले धर्मभक्तलाई मारेको होइन। अैया !!!

चैते गुरुङ

2009-06-28T01:38:00.000+03:00

बिक्रम सम्बत् १८१३ चैत १३ गते, देउसो को २:३० बजे हावाको बेग बढ्दै गएको थियो, घरभित्र भएकी आइती गुरुङ मुर्छा पर्न लागिन, उनी कराउन थालिन अैया मरेनी, अैया भनी, त्यो आवज सुनेर पल्लो घरकी हेमा दुगुर्दै आइतीको घरमा छिरिन, हेमालाई थाहा थियो आइती सुत्केरी हुने वाला छे भनेर। आइती दुई जिउको भएकी नौ महिना भएकोले हेमा तिन्को बिशेष हेर-बिचार गर्ने गर्थिन र सधैं भात पकाएर खुवाउने गर्थिन। त्यो बेला आइती सुत्केरी हुन लागेकी रहिछिन र हेमाले आइतीको छेउमा बसेर हात समातेर टाउको सुम्सुम्याउन थालिन, त्यतिनै बेला के भएछ भनेर हेर्न हेमाको छोरी डल्ली पनि आइतीको घर भित्र पसी। छोरीलाई देखेर हेमाले तल्लो गाउँको सुडेनिलाई झट्ट डाकेर आइज भनिन, आमाको वचन सुन्ने बित्तीकै डल्ली तल्लो गाउँतिर कुदी। केही बेरपछी आइतीले छोरो जन्माइ र हेमाले उस्लाई त्यो अवस्थामा सक्दो सहयोग गरिन, हेमा र आइती दुवैको लोग्ने पल्तन्मा भएकोले तिनिहरु एक अर्काको ख्याल राख्ने गर्थे। गाउँ घरमा उनिहरुलाई त्यस्तो ठुलो समस्या त केही थिएन तर कहिले काही नुन किन्न चाँही गोर्खा बजार झर्नु पर्थ्यो। डल्लिको बा र आइतीको बुडा पल्टनबाट घर फर्किदा प्राय सामान हरु लिएर आउथे। दरबारिया सैनिक भएकोले बेला बेलामा घर आउन उनिहरुलाई सजिलो थियो, तर तीन महिना बितिसकेको थियो ति नारिहरुको लोग्ने घर नफर्केको, शायद पृथ्वी नारायण शाहले सैनिकको कमी भएर दरबारिया सैनिकनी युद्ध तिर लगेकी भन्ने उनिहरुलाई संखा थियो। ढाल नाल काटेर बच्चाको काचुली पन्छायेर हेमाले बच्चा आइतीलाई सुम्पियिन, छोरोको मुहार हेरेर आइतीले खुशी भएर लामो सास फेर्दै आइतीले भनी "हन यो त आफ्नो बाउ तिर पो गएछ, काटी कुटी बाउ जस्तो ल हेर" उन्को उत्साहमा कुनै कमी थिएन, यत्तिकैमा हुलाकी काम गर्ने सुडेनि घर भित्र पसी, कुराकानी गरेर बच्चा र आमा दुबैलाइ सुम्सुमायी अनी दुबै स्वस्थ भएको जानकारी पाये पछी, नियाउरो मुख लगाउदै झोला बाट धागो बानेको चिट्ठी निकालि। त्यो देखेर आइती मुर्छा पर्न सकिन, भर्खर भएको सुत्केरी त्यसमाथि लोग्ने मरेको चिट्ठी दरबारबाट आएको रहेछ। चिट्ठीमा लेखेको रहेछ, बडा महाराजको सैन्यबल काठमडौ उपत्येकाको घेराउ गर्न खटिएका थिए, मल्ल राजाहरुको तिब्बतसँग राम्रो मेल्जुल भएकोले ति मल्ल हरुलाई एक्लै बनाइ हमला गर्न महाराजले कुटी क्षेत्र गठन गर्नु भएकोछ, र त्यो योजना अनुसार काठमडौ उपत्यकाको वरि परि रहेको डाँडा काडा घेराउ गर्ने योजनामा खटिएका वीरबहादुर गुरुङ मारिएका छन। वीरबहादुरको आत्माले शान्ति पओस र उस्का परिवारजन्लाई ईश्वरले सहंसिल्ता प्रदान गरोस्। बुडा घर फर्किन्छ र छोराको नाम राख्छ भन्ने आस लिएकी आइती रुन थालि, एकै पल्ट दुईवटा बेथा सहन गाह्रो रहेछ भनेर पटुकिले आसु पुछ्न थाली। हेमा आइतीलाई सम्झाउदैथी इश्वरको लीलामा हामी त एउटा पुत्ला मात्र रहेछौ, हाम्रो केही लाग्दैन रहेछ, जीवन जसो आउछ त्यसो गरी बाच्नु पर्छ भनेर रुने आवाजमा भन्न लागि, उस्लाई पनि डर थियो कतै उस्को घरमा पनि धागो बानेको चिट्ठी आउछकी भनेर। तर सुडेनिले त्यस्को कुनै लक्ष्यण देखाइन, अनी दिनमा एक पल्ट बच्चा र आमा लाई तेल लाउने बाचाका साथ सुडेनि गाउँ तिर पसी। बच्चाको नाम सोच्न आइतीले धेरैबेर लगाइन, चैत महिनामा जन्मेकोले उस्को नाम चैते गुरुङ हुन गयो।

भनिन्छ सैनिकको सन्तान सधै सैनिकमै जान खोज्छ, बाको कथा आमाको मुखबाट सधै सुन्ने भएकोले चैतेलाई सैनिकमा भर्ती हुन साह्रै रहर लागेको थियो। त्यस्बेला १६ बर्षको लक्का जवान चैते सेनामा भर्ती हुन्छु भनी आमालाई भन्यो, जती दु:खले हुर्काएपनी आइतीलाई छोरा सेनामा जाने कुराले दु:ख लागेन, उल्टै खुशी भयिन यस्ले बाउको बिडो थाम्ने रहेछ भनेर। सेनामा भर्ती हुन भनी चैते गोर्खा दरबार पस्यो, बडा महाराज काठमाडौंको दरबारमा बसेकोले त्यस बेला गोर्खा किल्ला बहादुर शाहको जिम्मामा थियो। बडा महाराजको देशको भुभाग बढाउने प्रक्रिया मा सहायेता गरेका उन्का छोरा बहादुर शाह आफ्नै सैनिक लिएर लडाईंमा जाने गर्थे र उन्लाई धेरै सैनिकको खाचो भै राख्थियो, त्यसैले चैते गुरुङ ले सजिलै सानीकमा भर्ती पायो। केही महिनाको तालिम पछी बडा महाराजको आग्या अनुसार बहादुर शाह पुर्व तर्फ लागे, बक्सी अभिमान सिंह बस्न्यात र सर्दार रामकृष्ण कुँवर को नेत्रित्व मा दुई तर्फ बाट पुर्वमा हमला बोलियो। हमलाको योजना मिलाएपछी बहादुर शाह काठमडौ फर्किए, अनी चैते गुरुङ अभिमान सिंह बस्न्यातको समुह संगै विजयपुर तिर हानियो। विजयपुर माथिको विजय पछी अझ पुर्व लम्केको सेना सिक्किम तर्फ पुग्यो।

बी. सं.१८३० असारको महिना थियो, चर्को घाममा हिडेको सेना दार्जीलिङ काटेर सिक्किम हानियो, यो पल्ट तराइ तर्फ बाट हमला गरिएकोले चर्को घाम खप्न गाह्रो भैरहेको थियो, तर भर्खरै १७ बर्ष लागेको चैते लाई भने यो कुराले केही अशर गरेको थिएन, विजयपुरको लडाईंमा उस्ले आफ्नै हातले १३ जना काटेको थियो, र नांगो खुकुरी घुमाउन पाउदा उस्लाई निकै उत्साह लागेको थियो। दुश्मन भन्ने बित्तीकै काटी हाल्नु पर्छ भन्ने उस्को दिमागमा थियो, नहोस् पनि कसरी त्यती नभएको भये बडा महाराजले यत्रो देश कसरी निर्माड गर्ने थिए त, सबै सेनाको दिमागमा दुश्मन काट्नु पर्छ भन्ने भावना उब्जाइदिएका थिए सेनापती हरुले। सिक्किम सँगको लडाईं सजिलो थिएन, महाराज बुडो पनि भै सकेका थिए र उन्को योजना घरि घरि परिवर्तन पनि हुने गर्थियो, घरि सिक्किम पुरै हानेर आफ्नो कब्जामा लिने उन्को बिचार आउथियो भने घरि सिक्किम हमला गर्दा भारतमा भएका अँग्रेज सेनाले आक्रमण पो गर्छ कि भन्ने त्रास पनि थियो। जंगल मा लुक्दै हमला गर्ने षड्यन्त्र बनाएका अभिमान सिंह बस्न्यातले आफ्नो योजना सफल पारेर गोर्खा सैन्यबल तीस्ता खोला पुर्याये। खबरिले यो कुरा काठमडौ दरबार पुर्याउन साथ बडा महाराजले सिमाना क्षेत्र मिलाउन विश्वामित्र उपाद्याय र गंगानन्द आचार्यलाई तीस्ता तर्फ पठाए। खबरिको खबर अनुसार अभिमान सिंह बस्न्यातले सैन्य बल त्यताइ रोकेर विजयपुर तर्फ फर्किने बिचार गरे, र केही छीन आराम गर्न त्यतै बसे।

लडाईं बाट थाकेको चैतेलाई भने धेरै कुरा अचम्म लागेको थियो, उस्ले आकाश लाई पर सम्म हेर्न सक्थियो, धेरै पर पर सम्म हेर्न मिल्थियो, यसरी पर सम्म हेर्न मिल्ने हुँदा हुँदैपनि ति तराइबाशीले हामीलाई आउँदै गरेको कसो देखेन छन भनेर उस्को मनमा अचम्मको प्रस्न उठ्यो। तर हाम्रा सेनपती पनि निकै बाठा छन, हामीलाई जङलमा लुकाउदै ल्याये भनेर उस्ले आफ्नो प्रस्नको जवाफ आँफै मिलायो। तीस्ता खोला निकैनै ठुलो थियो, र उस्को मन्मा अर्को प्रस्न पनि उठ्दै थियो, हन यो पुर्व तिरका खोलाहरु के बिधी ठुलो भएका हुन? कोशी तरेर पुर्व लाग्दा झन्डै डुबेको घटना उस्को दिमागमा ताजै थियो। एउटा ढुङ्गाको किनारमा एसो पल्टिएर एक्छिन आराम गरौ भन्ने उस्को मन्मा लाग्यो, सेनापति पनि त रुखको छहरिमा बसेर आराम गरी रहेका थिए, तर पुर्वी पानीले मुख धुन उस्लाई ईच्छा लागेको हुनाले, उस्ले तीस्ताको पानी ले मुख धोयो र अन्जुली भरी पानी लिएर सुकेको घाटि भिजाउन लाग्यो। एक अन्जुली पानी मात्र के पीएको थियो, तीस्ताको पानी उस्लाई साह्रै मिठो लाग्यो र भन्यो "हन यो तीस्ताका पानी केनापो मिठो रैछ बा"। ढुङ्गा मा पल्टेको चैतेको दिमागमा कुरा खेल्न थाल्यो, यस्तो मिठो पानी खादो रहेछन पुर्वी मान्छे, हन यो पानीबाट फलेको धानको भात कती मिठो होला। चैतेको मनमा निकै कुरा खेल्दै गयो, मान्छे त मैले निकै काटे, मेरा बाले कति काटेका थिए होला, मजती त पक्कै काटेनन होला, तिनी त दरबारिया सेना थिए लडाईंमा जाने बित्तिकै मरे, मत अैले सम्म बाचि रहेको छु। फेरी उस्ले सोच्यो, मैले मान्छे काटे जसरी मेरा बालाई पनि कसैले काटे होला है, आखिरी लडाईंमा मरिन्छ कि मारिन्छ त्यो भन्दा अरु केही हुँदैन। यो मान्छेले मान्छेलाई किन मारेको होला भन्ने प्रस्न उस्को दिमागमा आयो, फेरी आँफै जवाफ दियो, यस्तो नगरेको भये बडा महाराजले देश एकिकरन कसरी गर्नु हुन्थियो होला। हामीले जे गरे पनि हाम्रो देश बनाउन गरेको हो। तर मेरो देश त गोर्खा थियो, अैले किन यत्रो ठुलो देश चाहियो र, गोर्खामापनि सबैले खान बस्न मज्जाले पाइ रहेका छन त, फेरी अरु भुभाग थपेर हामीलाई के फाईदा। हाम्रो देश गोर्खा किल्ला रहदा सम्म बडा महाराज गोर्खा दरबारमै बस्नु हुन्थियो तर काठमडौबाट मल्ललाई लखेटेपछी महाराज त्यतै अल्मलिनु भयो। मल्लहरु स्वर्गमा जस्तो दरबारमा पोथी नचाउने गर्थे अरे भन्ने सुनेको थिए, हाम्रा महाराज पनि त्यतै तिर भुले कि कसो भनेर उस्ले सोच्यो। तर म पनि दरबार पसेर पोथी नाचेको हेर्दा साह्रै रमाइलो हुन्छ होला, आहोइ भनेर चैते आँफै दंग्ग पर्यो। फेरी उस्को ध्यान कल्कलाएको खोला तर्फ गयो, यहाँ बाट अब लाग्नु पर्छ, आज राती यतै बास बसेर भोली विजयपुर तिर हानिन्छ होला हाम्रो पल्टन भन्ने उस्ले मन्मनै अड्कल लगायो। फेरी यो भुभाग छोडेरै जानु छ यहाँ किन हमला गरेको होला भन्ने प्रस्नले उस्लाई सतायो, हामीले यत्रो दु:ख गरेर यहाँ सम्म आएर लडाईं गरेर जितेको जमिन, के अब आउने हाम्रा सन्ततिले उपभोग गर्लान त? यो प्रस्नले फेरी उस्को मनमा ठाउँ बनाउदै थियो, अलिक पर बाट आवाज आयो, ओइ चैते, ढिडो बनाउनको लागि दाउरा बटुल्न आइज, चैते सुरुमा झस्याङ भएर हेर्यो अनी फेरी त्यो आवाज सँग सँगै बिर्खे लाई पक्षाउदै दाउरा बटुल्न लाग्यो।

There's no beginning until the darkest day !!!

2009-06-28T01:35:00.000+03:00

I can run to the place
where the sun rise above my head
but how can I leave you there
in the cold stormy rain

I can change my nights to day
change my fortune bright always
but how can I let you go
and live your life alone again

I can fly like a dove
leave my sorrows behind always
but how can I forget you
and the words that you always said

there's no beginning until the darkest day
and there's no more suffering till you are in pain
sometimes it cross my mind to leave all the things behind
but when I turn back you are there with a smile

I can hide from the rain
try to give you shelter and kill your pain
but you can never agree on what I do
cause I use the false method again

trust me once cause I tell the truth
there's no sunlight in the sun itself
it's just burning flames like your heart
trying to survive the world's pain

catch my hand and lets run away
far from this world and everything
where there's no beginning and no end
just you and me and those whole discussions again

My estranged love story !!!

2009-06-28T01:32:00.000+03:00

She is beautiful as summer
but I am ugly as dark winter

she has charm in her face like a diamond
and I have beard covered all over my face

she have perfect set of body a woman can have
but I have lots of extra weight below my chest

she lives life like a warm summer day
but my life is like a stormy winter rain

happiness is everything she wants in her life
but I am running behind money throughout my life

she has everything and she's happy with all she's got
but I want to have all the things that money can buy and still I don't have enough

she have her dreams sky high and love is in her priority
but I am still unknown about love and money is only in my dreams

she thinks life is beautiful and we should love each other
but I think if we all be rich then everything's gonna be alright

I do not understand her feelings and what she wants
neither does she and this is my estranged love.

माइला दाई

2009-06-28T01:17:00.000+03:00

देशमा प्रजातन्त्र चाहिदो रहेछनीत माइला दाई
एक्लौटी शासनले चल्दो रहेनछ
जनतालाई आफ्नो अधिकार चाहिन्छनित माइला दाई
खोसेर लिन नमिल्दो रहेछ

तिम्रा जीवनपनी सुखिमय रहेनछनित माइला दाई
सबै तिरबाट पिरल्दो रहेछ
मुर्ती चोरेको आरोप पनि तिमीलाइनै लाग्दथियो माइला दाई
दाइको हत्यारापनी जनताले तिमीलाई सम्झेछ

देशको अंस नपाउदा छोरोलेपनी छाड्योनित माइला दाई
कसो तिमीलाई बन्दुक तेर्साएनछ
तीन बर्ष देशबाट कमाएको राजस्वले
के तिमीलाई जीवनभरी बसेर खान पुग्दछ?

नपुगे मलाई सुटुक्क भनहै माइला दाई
तिम्रोलागी म चन्दा उठाइदिउला
जस्तो भएपनी मेरो मुलुकको राजा पो थियौ तिमी माइला दाई
श्री ५ महेन्द्रको छोरोलाई म कसरी भोकै मर्न दिउला

तिमीले सोचेजस्तो गर्न नसकेनी माइला दाई
तिम्रा बाबैका बुद्धी तिमीमा अलिकती आएकै हो
फरक यती रहयो तिम्रा बाले देश बनए माइला दाई
देशको सम्पत्ति लुट्ने आरोप तिमीलाई लाग्यो

हुनत तिमी पनि कम् कहाँ हौर माइला दाई
जे गरेनी बाघको सन्तान न पर्यौ
त्यो स्यालजस्तो प्रचन्डले जती खोकेनी
तिम्रो अस्ली अड्डामा हात हल्न सकेन

जनताले तिमीलाई खोरबाट बहिर निकाले माइला दाई
माओवादीले आफ्नो नाम त्यस्मा थपे
सोल्टी र सुर्य बाट पनि निलम्बित गर्छु भने
तर जनता नताते पछी ति आँफै सेलाये

कुरो त तिमीले बुझ्यौ होला नि माइला दाई
जनताको आवाजनै सबै भन्दा ठुलो रहेछ
माओवादीले केही लखेट्ने रहेनछ माइला दाई
जनताको साथ नपाउदा सत्ताबाट पनि हट्नु पर्दो रहेछ

Please vote me for GOD !!!

2009-06-08T10:04:00.000+03:00

I couldn't believe that everything could be possible through vote these days. This shows the unity in the human being, and it clearly says the majority wins. It all started with the parliament and judgment, and now it have its wings spread all over the world. The voting system is one of the most popular thing in this world which is used to gather the people or unite them in groups and the group which has most number of people wins. This system was started quiet a long time ago and now its being more popular. People talk about rights, injustice and equality which is also provided through proper voting system, but lets not include the protest and demonstration before achieving the goal, but the final product is achieved through only the voting system.

Now almost all the nations have adopted the voting system to form their government and run the country and the civil people offers their vote to their right candidate. Due to increment in usage of electronic devices the voting system has also been developed and for the proper utilization of the advancement of the technology, people have created different programs, where the active participation of people and their votes are counted. As we can see, the Reality Shows have gained most popularity in the world, among which The American Idol gained the first most popular status. After the huge success of American Idol the world have revolved around the reality shows, most of commercial TV channel runs at least one reality shows these days. To state some name, Britain's Got Talent, 90210, Big Brother, etc. Well, the world is changing and people doesn't look so much crazy anymore for TV shows like FRIENDS, Gossip Girls, and other programs like that. Most of the young generation only loves the reality shows, I even have encountered the young people talking about those reality shows saying that I am having my finger crossed for Mr./Ms. XYZ to advance to the next level, he/she is so cute or talented, I just love him/her.

That's really appreciable cause the world should have something to entertain and the talented ones are showing their talents through that media and people are loving the talents or talented. At least someone is becoming popular, either it may be for short period of time, the reality shows have really helped the talented people to show their talent and gain popularity. I know the people's old habit wouldn't change, earlier days when they used to watch Baywatch they used to talk about the Pamela Anderson's behavior or character in the serials, in a group of kids someone said they liked her body parts, some said that bloody bitch trying to look sexy through the breast pump, I really hate that bitch, she is not at all sexy. Now in this days there are lots of reality show so, I am really not able to state those but one of my friend in facebook maintained her status saying I hate that bitch XYZ, she is so posy, well by reading her status I checked and confirmed that character was from 90210, and another friend said she have been waiting for whole year for Big Brother and she is ready to quit her social life of going out and partying with friends in weekends because of that program. This shows the craziness about the reality shows among the youngsters and in most of the reality shows peoples should send the votes for their favorite contestant to keep him in the competition. The winner is also decided through the voting system.

There are every types of reality shows today, which means to show their talents. Some reality show leaves the contestants in the isolated place and the survivor or the contestant who reaches the final destination wins the contest. In some reality shows asks the contestants to show their talents either singing, dancing, acting, moral behavior, etc. But the contestant should have some skills and talents to offer the audience and his advancement or ousting will be decided by the general people through the votes either by internet or mobile phone device. I haven't found some suitable reality show for me yet, I want to be extra then the rest of the world. As I have said earlier the Band searches for the members through the reality show, the movie searches their actor through the reality show, now I am waiting for the people's search of God through the reality show. So, if such kind of program will be aired or if anyone will generate the thought of finding the God through the reality show then I will participate in that reality show. I will show my talents to be God at that moment, but I request you all please confirm your vote for me from today itself. I want to be God, at least for a year...

Science and Hinduism

2009-06-07T14:37:00.000+03:00

I am not great fan of Hinduism but still if we read the holy books of Hinduism then we can get lots of inspirations which may help us in our daily lives. Not only holy books of Hindu but also Islam and Christian talks about the way of living life happily of acquire happiness in life. Apart from that, these holy books also inspire the scientists and innovators for creation of different devices. The holy books give the general idea about how the things could be instead of defining the technical aspect about innovation of the device. The human brain has to think about its technical aspect to acquire that thing. In general words, the holy books set the end goals and gives general idea about the end product, and it is the task of human being to reach that goal applying different methodology.

The Hindu's book talked about the universe and the galaxies and also the sun and moon, and it took several years for human to certify that there exist galaxies. In Atharba Vedh, it was instated that the Earth is round in shape and it revolves around the Sun, which was again proved scientifically thousands years after its prediction. The Atharba Vedh also contains lots of stories about the human life and the way of living life. All the stories have their own story lines but the core thing is that, happiness is the final destination of human. But the weird thing it mentions is the only way to find happiness is faith and prayer of god, which I personally disagree at some distinct. Like in my previous article I have discussed about the daVinchi's inspiration from Ramayan to design the flying machine, which Right-Brothers implemented later.

I want to focus on computer, internet, mobile phone, wireless network in this article. As we all know in this modern age we can use computer and internet or even mobile devices for connecting with other peoples. We can do voice chat, take our computer to the beach and use wireless network and have a voice and video chat with our friends in different part of the globe. Even these things are possible through the mobile phone these days, and we should thank the technology for it. If you have read the holy book of Hinduism then it have mentioned in Atharvba Vedh some thousands years ago, that people will be able to talk with other people in different part of the globe but the device was not mentioned. In one of the story from Atharba Vedh, Lord Shiva talked with a Rishi from the Kuru Kingdom. At that time the Rishi was offering his prayer to Lord Shiva and he heard that Rishi's chant in Kailash. Lord Shiva was busy talking with Parvati, so he initially ignored that chant but after sometime that chant voice grew stronger so he thought of talking with that character who was offering him the prayer. He then used his power and called the image of that person to kailash, the Rishi was originally in the Forest still praying his Lord and suddenly an object appeared in front of him with video and voice talking to him. Lord Shiva in kailash also had that Rishi's video and voice in front of him, so they had conversation with each other from their own location using video and voice chat. Like we all do now Lord Shiva used to do that things thousands of years ago, but we use electronic devices for that and they haven't mentioned the device at that period. They said it was all God's power. Still the idea of communication was generated in the Hindu's holy book which was an end result and we human are doing research and trying to find the perfect way of doing it.

The story continues that Parvati was irritated with that Rishi, she felt she was disturbed so understanding her frustration Lord Shiva thought of Visiting the Rishi, so he send his another Avatar in front of Rishi. His one avatar was talking with that Rishi in forest of Kuru Kingdom and another Avatar was busy chatting love talks with his lovely wife Parvati. Now the scientist are still having hard time to find the 4D object which reflects the time and place at a same time. But the technology have created such games like "Second Life", through which we can send our avatar to any part of the world. If you have played second life then you would have better idea of what it is all about. Still it is possible in the today's world through the game that we can send one avatar to one part of the world and have another chatting with other person. This thing is also mentioned in the Hindu's Holy book Atharva Vedh, and I think it will not be the surprise for me if scientist will generate the 4D thing, through which any people can go anywhere in the world at any time. Time machine about which scientist are doing great research is also mentioned in the holy book of Hindu, so, I think all the scientific inventions are inspired from the holy religious books especially Vedhas. And there are still lots of things which inspires us if we read those holy books.

DaVinchi and Ramayan

2009-06-06T13:51:00.000+03:00

Leonardo Da Vinchi, one of the greatest name in the history of humanitarian was well known painter and futurist. Someone refer him as a scientist too, and I don't have any argument in that topic. His painting "The Last Supper" has lots of controversial among Christians and his another painting "Mona Lisa" is the most popular painting in the world. To reflect some fact about him is, he was much more interested in the future rather than present. He wanted to reflect the future through his deeds, and I guess we all know that he have designed a flying machine at that era, but due to lack of fuel he was not able to run that flying machine.

DaVinchi was much interested in holy religious books and religions, as a result we can see that painting of last supper, so, people said that reading bible inspired him to create that flying machine. But, I say that, people are wrong, Davinchi was interested in reading holy books, so he designed the flying machine, but his main source of inspiration was "Ramayan" the holy book of Hinduism about one of the activities of Lord Ram. People have depicted Ramayan as the book of war between Ram's Monkey Soldiers and Ravan the evil King. Some say Ramayan just revolves around Ram and Sita and their love story, but I say that Ramayan was one book which percepts the characteristic of god who wants all to share the love and destroy the evilness. Lets not go to the core, but DaVinchi read the Hindu's holy book Ramayan.

When Ravan came to kidnap Sita he came on the flying machine and took her in that flying machine across the ocean. Now, this made DaVinchi think what kind of device was that, which was not only able to fly but also able to fly across the ocean. In that epic book, the flying machine was not defined from the technical aspect but have said that it had door to enter and decorated beautifully and from that machine everything could be seen in the earth. DaVinchi had deep thought about this thing and felt it is possible to fly in sky so he designed the flying machine but he was not able to fly it because he didn't knew what was required to fly it in the sky. Later Right Brothers had general idea about the DaVinchi's innovation so they flew the airplane in the sky. To tell you all the fact is that the concept about airplane came from Hindu Mythology, so there are lots of other things which Hinduism teaches us, even the scientific creations but still we lack the power to read it and understand what it perfectly means. We need mind or eyes of person like DaVinchi to think about it.

I am the one who fired First Bullet in First World War

2009-06-05T19:17:00.002+03:00

August 7, 1914

It was early morning and the sun was rising on my head, sweats flowing down my cheeks because of hot temperature and I was wearing warm clothes in that summer time. I couldn't take bath this morning because of long distance to travel from our base camp in Gold Coast (Gulf of Guinea) to the border of Togoland, where our battle field was set. I could smell bad smell coming from my body and I was feeling uncomfortable if others may have anything to say about it. Well, I said to myself this is just today, I will go back to the base camp today evening and take a bath, but suddenly I felt, if I will die today in the war then I cannot take bath after that. In the training the first thing I was taught was not to be scared to die, so I thought its foolishness to think about such things, I am a soldier. I opened my cap and wiped my sweats from my face and kept on staring at the other point where the enemies were supposed to come from. Since we were on a battle field my gun was fully loaded and ready to fire, we had medical man, radio operator and carriers who provide ammunition to us. Before leaving to the battle field some soldier were cheering up in base camp saying United States will join our Allies to fight against the Central Powers, so we will win this war for sure. I don't know what it means but I was just concentrated on the upcoming war in Togoland and there we had to fight against the Germans. The mission of this war was to destroy the German Radio Station "Kamina".

Our battalion has one of the longest serving histories by foreigners in British Army, since Sugauli Treaty made in 1816 between my country and East India Company, I am here to serve the British Empire as my ancestors did for about 100 years. Britain have huge faith in Gurkhali and we have good reputation too, so they brought us here to fight against the Germans and this time the war was close enough so we came here by airplane. That was the first time I have ever been in plane or flew in sky, it was awesome feeling, but a bit scary too. The journey from India to Britain was also exciting too, as it was also my first journey on a ship, oh damn it was really huge ship, airplanes are not so huge like ships. Sometimes I used to think why only British people used to travel by airplanes, but it was clear that they were on high ranking posts and we were just soldiers, so if we will reach the high level ranks as them then we may frequently travel by airplane. But in 100 years none of Nepali soldiers have reached any upper level ranks, which was miserable. I said it to myself maybe I can create the history, but again the fear of death was in my head.

As the time was passing, and my eyes were still staring at the other point, sweat was flowing through my forehead and now I couldn't even blink my eyes, cause if I blink my eyes at the same moment bullet may come and pass me through. As I was in the front row, things again came in my mind, why they always keep Nepali soldiers in the first row, as we were all Nepali in the front and second row, and the British army was in the back row, we would be the one to take the first bullets in our chest. There was almost the same strategy in each war that Nepali was implemented. Again I felt what the hell I am doing here, this is not the war of my country, I am not fighting to protect my country nor trying to protect British Empire, and we were trying to fight against Germans to drive them away from Africa. So, why I am fighting for Britain? for money? for pride? for glory? or to kill people? Well I love human being so, possibly I wouldn't want to kill them, and if I was fighting for glory or pride then I don't see my country's name in anything so how can I be proud to fight for others? if I was fighting for money then I would love to pay them my salary amount if they could bring my life back if I die in war. It was useless war for me, without any motto, I felt I am being used by British Empire. So, I looked around if I could move away from there, but I was in the first row and everyone were sitting so congested that it was impossible for me to go back, as the British rule in army there is only going forward, no going back, in spite of my wish I was not able to turn and leave the battle field.

I was having lots of doubt in my mind and also the fear of death too, I was also staring at the other point but now I was not fully concentrated on the war scenario. The Germans came from another point and our radio master shouted the news that French Troops have headed to attack the Togoland from Dahomey. As I was not concentrated fully that I heard the FIRE sound, so mistakenly I fired the first bullet without the captain's order. It was a mistake but there was no any time to realize that as the bullets from other point started rapidly. We hid on the stone wall for a while and suddenly I checked my watch it was 10 past 10 (10:10), after few rounds of fire the captain gave an attack order. The German armies were coming towards us and now I am holding my gun running towards them.

मेरो साथी पुष्प ठुलो मान्छे भयो

2009-06-01T21:37:00.000+03:00

मेरो साथी पुष्प ठुलो मान्छे भयो
रामपुरमा कुटाइ खाइ जंगल तिर पस्यो
जंगल तिर दुई-चार मान्छे बोलाएर लाग्यो
अरु दुइ-चार जना फेरी त्यतै तिर भेट्यो

क्रान्तिको कुरा गर्यो अनी डाका पल्कायो
आफ्नै गाउँ पोहिला लुट्यो अनी हतियार बटुल्यो
त्यही हतियारको भरमा मान्छे तर्सायो
स्कुल बाट केटा केटी पनि जंगल पसायो

दाइलाई गोली हान भनी भाईलाई सिकायो
जो मरे पनि घरमा आमा बा लाई रुवायो
१३००० हजार जनता सक्यो अनी दात कोट्यायो
यती भयी पछी त राजनीति मा खुट्टा तन्कायो

जनता को आवज हामी हौ भनी नारा लगायो
आफ्नो बाटो सिधा आउनेलाई स्वागत रचायो
बाङिने र नटेर्ने लाई चिर्पाट्ले बजायो
चुनाव नारा मा हतियार नउठौने भनी सबैलाई झुक्यायो

मेरो साथी पुष्प ठुलो मान्छे भयो
जिन्दगीमा एक चोटि प्रधान-मन्त्री बनेर देखायो
सत्ता बाट हट्दा पनि गज्रिएर धम्की दिदै हट्यो
मेरो साथी पुष्प ठुलो मान्छे भयो

Ladies and Gentlemen

2009-05-27T13:31:00.000+03:00

Ladies and Gentlemen, may I have your attention please, may I have your attention please, don't panic I am not going to sing slim shaddy or jot its lyrics. I just want to focus on this brutal fact that we all know, or somehow know a little bit or may be sometime have thought about it. Behind every successful man there's a woman and behind every beautiful women there's a man staring at her ass, well this slogan is quite outdated now, but still practically used. My view is quite related with this thing but in different way, I express my views saying, A woman is incomplete without a man. For each and every thing women are related with men, and they cannot function properly without men. It may sound weird in some countries but most of the countries in this world is male dominant either it may be developed country like USA or Japan or some developing country like Maldives or Burkina Faso. Male have dominated the society since the birth of human being.

The main reason being male dominant in the society is women being physically weak and they needed protection which men could only offer. Those were the issues of ancient times but still the fact is women are weak physically, psychologically and mentally and they need men's help in most of the things. So, from ancient times the men and women decided to divide their daily task and men had to go out for hunting or to collect food, and women stayed in home and prepared the food brought by men and serve them. Men gave protection to women in terms of food and shelter and fought with other creature to save her and women offered her service to men like cooking food, washing clothes, caring households, but sex is the thing they both had equal role in.

Since that period women were attached to men so that they cannot live independently, which made them a bit vulnerable, and male started dominating the society. Till now this things are in existence and women are really attached with men. Just a simple example of how women are called, I have listed those below: -
Women - Men (the men appears in the name, like wise below you can find only the words rather than explanations)
Lady - Lad
She - He
Her - He
Girl - exceptional

you can imagine how much women depend upon men that they don't even have menstruation without men.

Every dog has its day

2009-05-24T14:47:00.001+03:00

To refer to the dog, I am the first dog to be defined by me. Though I had several days in my life which I personally feel like dog's day out and try to enjoy the moment like a street dog with a huge single bone. I am a dog who do not want to share the bone with other dogs, I never saw any dogs sharing the same bone before, so why would I? But the world doesn't goes with the selfish dogs like me, they have different themes like sharing and caring, helping others, and helping the disable. But I am yet to see the dog helping the other disable dog, which practically might sound funny. Whenever I had good times I referred it to this slogan every dog has its day, and thought it is my day. But generally we all know that every dog doesn't have everyday, which is just my view, I don't know if it's practically proved or not, but in my case I don't have everyday and that's true.

The luckiest dog I personally feel is Mr. Girija Prasad Koirala, the chairman of Nepali Congress Party. He didn't just had one day but he enjoyed several days like Paris Hilton's dog eating apple crunch pup cakes. He have directly influenced the political situation in Nepal with his efforts or hard word I may say, but must of his success was followed by natural disasters or calamities inside the country like landslide, flood, earthquake, etc, but I don't blame him for all these things cause he was not responsible to bring those disasters in country. He tried to help all the people out with the support and help he got from foreign donations, though actual transactions were still hidden. Whenever his party members were not happy with him or he felt like his power will be overtaken by other members of the party, he confront them and tried to kick them out from the party like a huge shepherd drives the sheeps out of farmers farm. His closest victims were Mr. Sher Bahadur Deuba and Mr. Gagan Thapa, but they both overcame the confront and now are hunting together to other dogs. Mr. Deuba is also another dog who twice or thrice had his day, and Gagan dog is awaiting his day as he is too young and those old junkies dogs doesn't easily let him in. The another dog from the same party was Mr. Krishna Prasad Bhattarai, who never had any mentality to win over other dogs but always wanted to have a dog's day out and finally he had his day out twice or thrice with the help of Girija dog but later he was kicked by the same hungry Girija dog. He tried to confront girija dog by bringing Deuba dog in lime light, which was successful at some instinct, but Deuba dog never really looked more dangerous then Girija dog.

The wild hunter dog Mr. Pushpa Komal Dahal also has a nick name Prachanda roared his way out of the hunting jungle and made his day. He was sick tired of hunting in jungle and wanted to have his dog's day out so he also had his day now. Nobody could win his confront and he made a day for him, but still in his day out he never rested and kept the pressure on other dogs by bringing his hunting team from jungle with him and trying to destroy other dogs out there. But his jungle hunter were not able to fight in open space like in jungle so his day was finally over, but he is wild and I hope him to keep on bouncing back, may be he'll have some other day someday, who knows.

The most unluckiest dog I felt was Mr. Madhav Kumar Nepal, in his long career as a dog he never got a full bone, he had to rely on bone left by full stomached dogs. To his bad, he was follower of The hungriest and oldest dog Mr. Manmohan Adhikari who lied in hospital's bed for 17 days and still said that this is his dog's day out. May be he wanted to be the first dog in history of Nepal who dies during his day out. But due to force of another old dog Mr. Koirala, Adhikari dog have to resign from the day out. Madhav dog waited for his fortune for long but was not able to confront any other dogs in his way because of his weak jaws, but finally the luckiest dog Girija gave him a chance to have his day out. Well now Madhav dog is enjoying his day out and we have to wait and watch how far he can chew the whole hard bone with his weak jaws.

Help me if you can !!!

2009-05-23T03:27:00.001+03:00

All I have is words, the words which can impress you, the words which may depress you, but the only thing that I have to interact with you is words. Well, till my mind frames some set of words I keep on writing some words which might again impress you or again depress you. Well not to go to the philosophy I am here to ask help from you guys, and yes the greatest and the biggest help in this world is financial help. People may give different reasons and try to explain their reasons to ask financial helps with others and I am going to do the same stuff, you can say promoting or marketing my reason for the financial help that I need.

I earn enough to feed me twice a day, pay my rent, have a drink in a bar and others stuffs that I am interested in, but still I am asking for financial help to you. In this modern age of commercializing every product, let me commercialize my needs or reasons whatever you say, I have a dream, like everyone does, and everyone dream about different things, fantasies and other stuffs. Right now I am dreaming about educating my people, well I am not a king to say my people to all Nepali but generally I mean I want all of the Nepali kids to go to school and earn education. I know everyone knows the situation of Nepal but to my bad I blame political instability for that, but apart from political situation if you turn your head towards civil living all around the country, then you'll find lots of kids who never goes to school, may be lack of awareness, lack of money or unwillingness of parents. We are here to change these things, I don't say I will do it by myself but I need your support, not only in terms of finance but moral, motivation, influential, physical and lots of other words what they say in english. I need support is the basic word I want to use, I really need your support.

I am not asking huge lot of amount from you, but just a price of one glass of beer, i.e. 5 euros maximum per month. It's not compulsory to pay 5 euros per month, it depends on your will which may start from 50 cents but please do not pay more than 5 euros per month, I am working on to built a website for this cause and open a bank account in Nepal where everybody can transfer that amount easily. I haven't fixed the country of Bank yet cause if it'd be Finnish bank then they'll deduct high tax amount which I personally feel wastage of help money. Instead of that tax amount 10 students' fees and expenses can be covered.

This is just my initial plan, but all I need is support from you and not only the financial but also in other ways like generating new ideas and sharing your views and information. I still have not decided where will I give that money, because I don't trust NGO's working in Nepal and SOS in Nepal is being more business oriented then helping the children, hopefully we'll find some suitable solution when we start. If you are interested in this thing then please let me know, we shall have meetings to discuss the things related. With your small help if children of Nepal can gain proper education then I guess it'd be a greater step to show your love and affection to your country.

Don't ask me why ???

2009-05-13T03:08:00.001+03:00

In the English language, there are four frequently used W-questions and the word why is one of most popularly used after what. We often hear journalists asking the questions starting from why, and their motto is to gain something from interviewee to publish in their post. As we know there can never be a yes or no reply on why questions, so people have to express something in general terms rather than replying yes or no. This word why seems more small and beautiful but it has darker side than what we generally see. It is easy to ask anyone why, but is really difficult to reply the questions starting from why and till now of my observance I have never found positive attitude of why question. The questioner wants to dig some inner aspect of the replier asking why question. To reply the why question you have to add your feelings, expressions and points which can clarify your words which is not so easy task to do. It may have good sight too like increasing your word formation power because if someone asks why, you should be capable to reply and for that you need perfect set of words in your mind.

Let me take some example to justify my views, suppose a boyfriend is asked why you love your girlfriend, what his answers may be? At first he'll say what comes to his mind to praise about his girlfriend like she is beautiful, she have good thoughts, she cares for me, she earns a handsome salary, she is good from heart, she is not like others, etc, but there is less possibility for him to express his own name in between. He will be totally lost in things related to her and try to identify what all the reasons might be, so he never mentions his own name while replying for that question. It may also sound funny to say I love her because I am handsome, but this is not the wrong answer my friends. When a questioner asks you something to present your view then you can have any view and feelings which cannot be bounded or tied by anything, so to speak it out you shouldn't hesitate about the boundaries in the outer world. It is really tough job to replicate the inner feelings in any spoken or written language, which any person is not able to do cent percent but still try to express maximum is the best possible way. As in example a boyfriend may have lots of feelings towards his girlfriend and if someone suddenly asks him why you love her, then he might be short of words to explain, and if he starts making point then it never ends, because those points are some counts of feelings and feelings never stops, it always grow.

I have encountered several fights, cases and nasty things which start with the word why. To take an example, if a girlfriend dances with another man, her boyfriend may ask why you are dancing with other man? This might be the first point for fight between them. The boy also can ask the same question to another man, why are you dancing with my girl?, again the case of fight. If I describe this things then there might be some other question tags too, but I am just focusing on my topic. Sometimes when you are frustrated then there is maximum possibility for you to start the question with why and play several things inside your mind. Why this, why that. etc can be the questions and you will be searching the perfect answers and when still unconvinced by those answers you will search for more, it may be good to exercise your brain but it is mostly not so good because it just gives you stress and unhappiness. There are several aspects of why which I may define in some other material and may be you can think about these things and make your own conclusions. But for me why is the useless word which I feel doesn't give satisfaction or happiness to human, and I am not happy with the person who generated this word. Though it is not possible, but I would really be happy if this word why will be eliminated from all the languages and also from people's mind.

Do you have Library in your School ???

2009-05-10T00:08:00.000+03:00

Sorry If my message sounds confusing, but according to the title I am not asking you guys if you do have library in your school or not. I picked up this word to be suitable title because the story revolves around this. This was the question asked my cousin when we were studying on 10th grade of school. Unlike other countries in Nepal 10th class is the last year in school and we do have SLC examination to go further to start our college life. I didn't change many schools during my study period, so I was admitted in Peace Zone Residential Secondary School in 1993 and stayed there till 1999. I attended PZRS from 3rd grade till SLC but almost every year during my seven years of stay I wanted to change the school which my parents didn't allow.

If I start to define PZRS then my words would be empty but the definition would still be incomplete, but to start from the best was our 10th class, where we had lots of fun and worst time too. Our principal Mr. Jagadish Prasad Oli was awesome man; he never had any vision for technical growth of the school but always had curiousness to increase the number of students in school and save money by bringing unqualified Indian teachers to teach us. He never bothered about the education level of the teachers who were willing to join the school in cheap salary, and always had plans to boycott the expensive salary earners. This was the case when we were at class 10, the final year of school and SLC was ahead of us, as SLC is considered as Iron Gate in Nepal, which a student must cross to study further. Our classroom was at back of the school, near the cowshed, may be Mr. Oli wanted to give us some privacy during study classes so he put us in the backyard of school near the cowshed, the roof of classes were made of tin and the walls were made up of bamboos. We didn't have any window in the classes but we had one door in each classes for sure, we never needed any window too, cause if we want to look outside then we could easily look through the walls. There were two ceiling fans to kill the heat inside the classroom, and behind out class there was a male toilet. I don't know till now, was it the cow down that smelled the worst or the boy's toilet the staffs in the school often used to spray phenols to kill the smell.

That was just a brief introduction of PZRSS, During the starting of 10th class, new English teacher Mr. Xavier Baghe was introduced to us, who never had any grammar or vocabulary to teach us, but always had his past experience to tell us which is related to the story in the chapter and we enjoyed his class at early stage because he was great storyteller rather then teacher. He left our school in the midterm but our Principal didn't bother to bring his replacement, so we had to do self study for remaining duration of our school till our final SLC exams. Mr. Giridhari Sapkota, a teacher with hidden qualification was our Nepali Teacher. He never studied Nepali in his entire life, he was student of social studies and sanskrit but Mr. Oli appointed him as our Nepali teacher and he used to teach nonsense Nepali grammar and word formation. In exams if we write exactly what he have made us jot during his lecture then we used to get higher marks, but if we used our own logic then there was highest probability to get lowest possible marks. Mr. Madhav Thapa was our Accounts Teacher, well we should blame us to make noise in his class for not listening his lecture, but there was also a fact his voice was too small and unclear for we back-benchers. He was a good teacher who taught very nicely only on the private tuition, but his hearing capacity was great, and there are lots of incidents occurred because of his good hearing capacity. Mr. Rajendra Jha or Sah (I am confused with his last name) was our Mathematics teacher, who really didn't have much time in his life, we never payed attention in his classes because we were confident he'll repeat the same thing in private tuition. But there were few students who used to make fun of him even during private tuition which he didn't like but couldn't confront them. Mr. Sushil Choubey, was a good human being and also a boring teacher for me, he taught me from class 5 to 10, so I was quite bored to see his face everyday. But he was the only sincere teacher during my entire school life, he was good from heart and used to do lots of self study before teaching us, he almost taught every subject during my school days, but he was assigned to teach Health education and Physical Education. He handled two subjects quite comfortably. In physical education we were happy to have his class, cause he used to take us to play the games while others were still in the class. His teaching period was 4th and 7th, and we had Tiffin break after 4th period and holiday after 7th period, that may be the reason everyone seemed happy in his classes. Mr. Jagat Basnet was our science teacher, he was good at maths and as well as science but he never had willingness to teach perfectly in classes. May be lots of students used to go to his home for private tuition, he never had any good intention to teach in classes, instead he used to make us write whole lengthy notes, which were never in use for any of us. The motivation behind him making us write lengthy notes was he was leaving our school to work in a government school where he could earn healthy salary. So, he also left our school like Baghe in middle term and it was the same routine that Mr. Oli couldn't find replacement of Jagat, and we had to do self study for SLC.

It was good for me, cause I personally didn't like that Jagat Basnet cause he said me that I have liquid brain, because of my weakness in studies. apart from studies 10th class was full of fun, full of gossips and talks, tours, picnic and healthy competitions, even unhealthy too. I had a crush on one girl from our class, Prapti Shrestha, I used to think she was the only beautiful girl in this entire world and she is just made for me, but the truth was she never looked at me even though I tried a lot to gain her attention. Once I had fight with my classmate when he said Prapti had affair with some other guy, but that was the fact, she belonged to other guy from our school and I was not willing to accept that. We never used to talk with girls of our class, because if anyone saw a guy from our class talking to the girl then it was shame on him, we never had huge fight with girls but were never interested to talk with girls cause we didn't like them.

When I was in class 10, my cousin sister was also in same standard but in St. Joseph school. We often used to discuss about the studies and school when we met. Once we were talking about the books and she referred me one good book for practicing maths and I said I am not interested to buy new book now, and she expressed her thoughts saying borrow it from the library. There was a big question mark in my face, Library??? do you think they have such book in the library? I asked her, and she said yes they should have after all it is our course book and our school library should have such book. Now I was in big dilemma, cause the only library I knew was our public library near our municipality building and now she is talking about library in school. She asked me again, Do you have Library in your school ??? I replied why should we have library in our school, we already have library in our municipality office area, she just laughed at it. I felt may be I didn't have any idea about the library in school and went another day to ask our vice principal about the library. He said the school authority has decided to establish one library in our school, but currently we have science practical laboratory. I remember the science lab where there were only few instruments for testing chemicals, and our school had one microscope which was only found in the cupboard of principal's office and the teacher had to take principal's permission to bring it to the lab to show us. Well, to my surprise the lab was now replaced by library in our school, there were several story books in the library, which we were authorised to read inside the library but not to take. Even though the library was small and congested I used to visit there to read stories with picture, and our head mistress was always there as a security guard to check if anyone will take that book away, as it was new thing in our entire school she was more curious then others. I doubt her motivation to come to the library, because of story books with picture small kids used to come to the library very often and she had better chance to ask them to show their penis to her, I don’t know why but she was always interested to see her small student's penis. I don't know if PZRSS still have that library but it was positive start to start school library.

Helping Hands

2009-04-22T10:15:00.003+03:00

I often think that I might be the person who is born to help others, but there are several things inside me which have neglected and rejected several things and refused to help someone, so I cannot be the right person for this. Then my mind revolved around the several friends and relatives and the persons whom I know, who might be the candidate that I will choose to be wise. At this moment my mind cannot think any other person than Mr. Mote Dai, because he was true man for his friends. The first thing that comes in my mind about Mote Dai, is my last days in Bangalore. It was Pragat's Birthday at that day and Mote Dai and I went to Bijayanagar to buy some weeds. While going to Bijayanagar we were caught in checking and Mote Dai was a bit drunk, even though he was drunk and driving we managed to scape from there providing some false statement, after that we went to Bir Chakra's room in Bijayanagar, and lots of people there were also celebrating something (I don't remember what). We drank some alcohol and waved goodbye to them and went directly to that weed seller's store, brought 2 packets and was returning back home, but suddenly we fell again in the checking and this time we were caught and no excuses were accepted. Now I realize it was dangerous thing to do, but I was there to argue with policemen carrying two packets of hashish in my back pocket, if they would have checked me then I would still be in jail.

Well I can just laugh now and think about that day as one funny day, because I haven't even packed my bags and I had train at early morning at 5 the next day. When we were caught it was already 11 pm and I came back to my room at 12 am midnight, after that I started packing my bags and finally I was ready till we had train. That was great escape from Bangalore, and I promised myself not to back to that place again in my life.

Mote Dai came to Nepal after few months and it was really unbelievable to receive a call from him, I never expected anyone would call me, but he reached kathmandu and after few days he called me and also his friends, cause he is man of friends and would like to have all his friends around. He never felt to hurt anyone's feelings and would rather talk politely as possible to everyone. I remember lots of people making fun of him saying he is just good to smoke weeds and he doesn't have brain to study, he is just wasting his time and money, etc etc. But I've known him from a bit deeper side and I think he have different talents than what we have. Every normal people want others to be like them but they are only on one track they cannot go beyond to some other tracks to prove them extra ordinary. So, just to be ordinary people is most of people can do but to be extra ordinary only few can, and in my view Mote Dai have an extra ordinary characteristics. He is man of his words for his friends and ever ready to help them in any matter. He had brain with lots of thoughts, he knows history of Kathmandu valley better than others, and he also knows the history of most of the temples around the valley. As he was a bit religious he preferred to collect information about any temples or historical places he was interested, and we generally do not want to do that.

Generally children are forced by their parents to study the subjects which have high demand in the future prospect, I never asked him why he choose to study computer science but one thing I can definitely say that he was really good at astrology, when general people doesn't really have any idea about astrology, he used to check his astrology and knew several facts about it. The best thing about him was his helping nature, he never said No to any of his friends when they asked for help. He was ever willing to help others even if they didn't ask for his help too; when he realizes that they need his help he used to help them without even saying a word. He is the only person whom I can think who never had selfishness in the character or behavior, whatever he did, he did for his friends, either good thing or bad thing, friend was his first priority.

I still remember in Bangalore I brought one second hand computer who’s CPU was not performing and I had to go to that store again to exchange the CPU. I have called Mote Dai earlier to my room to install the operating system as didn't have much idea about it after tying for sometimes he said we have to exchange it cause that CD drive in that CPU was not working. He was having bad times in terms of finance, but also he was ready to go to that store in his bike, we went to that store but unfortunately we parked the bike in wrong lane, so policeman came to fine us, and I should have paid the amount because I brought him there and he didn't have much money left in his account, but he said me lets pay together, I gave the 50% of that fine fee and so did he. He could have said me to pay all the money because I took him there but he never thought things in that way, he cared for his friend first rather than money.

There are lots of incidents that he have helped me a lot, I can guarantee its not only me who have benefited from his helping nature, lots of his other friends also have been helped by him any any term, because helping nature is in his blood and if he is frustrated and doesn't will to help others then also somehow he ends of helping then even unknowingly too, and one more incident about him and me was we were good pals in Kathmandu after our Bachelor's study and we used to meet very often, he used to take me on a ride in his motorbike to different new places, specially Temples. We had very bad days in Kathmandu before moving out to foreign land and certainly those days were days of struggle, though we are still struggling. Once I was running out of money and it was my final days in Kathmandu before returning to my homeland, I also had to vacant my room because of not having enough money to pay the rent, as my roommates left so I vacated my room and lived in Laxman's room also with his brother Sudip. I was quite familiar with Suhil's parents as they knew me very well at that time, he said me to come and live in his house till I stay in Kathmandu. He knew I had huge problem of accommodation so he offered me to live in his room till my stay in Kathmandu, well I was not against it but I really didn't know how long I was going to stay in Kathmandu cause I was still working in Hits FM, and I really didn't want to quit that job. Well I quit that job to go back to my homeland, but still the words from Mote Dai nearly made me cry, he offered me to stay in his room, that also in Kathmandu, nobody does that and I felt myself proud that I may not have earned much money in life but I certainly have earned good friends. Yeah, he is my very good friend but if it was someone else rather than me then his words wouldn't change, because he have that helping hands with him and he would offer his room to any of his friend when they are in need of it.

After coming to foreign land also I have never called him, but still from a long way from here he sometimes calls me and gives me words of his wisdom, and I really appreciate that. I know he is having hard times these days in foreign land but still I know if I need any help and raise my voice he'll be the first one to respond. I am really missing Mote Dai now, I wish he'd be here so I still might be blessed by his helping nature, I know I am being selfish but friends comes first to me as to him so yet to learn some more things from him.

Time is my Biggest Enemy

2009-04-16T14:16:00.001+03:00

I am furious now, because I missed the bus to my university by just a minute. The bus was supposed to come at one time so I managed my journey as per the daily routine but the bus came 1 minute earlier than regular time, so I was unable to catch it. I had important lecture to take and according to course content I need to take at least two guest lectures, and thanks me I already have taken two guest lectures so I don't have to panic much but still I have to sacrifice my grade. I have big issues with buses in Finland because they do not run on the same routine, sometimes it doesn't even arrive 15 minutes after the scheduled time and I have to wait more than half an hour for the same bus. I have waited for the buses for more than half an hour in the cold snowy winter, from university to my home. The schedule of bus shows 5 minutes yet to arrive but the bus still doesn't arrive after half an hour mark. Well, I have made several complaints about these issues to city transportation department but no firm action has been taken. I wonder if they have read my email or just deleted it as junk email. Well it's up to them and I have to make sure I'll be on time from next time.

Time is the most valuable thing in this world says most of the writers, but I don't know why they said that, may be they suffered some critical moments due to time just like me. Most of us have the feelings that time should be utilized to the best, some of us have to say that we are going through wrong time, and someone also says that I had great time. These are just examples linked with time and for someone time values a most and some lazy freaks like me, time is just a shit that rotates around the clock.

It may sound weird but I have different opinion, I say Time is the biggest enemy of human being. Can you imagine anything not related with time in this world, no, I bet for it. Time is just surrounding around you and forcing you to do the things even if you don't want to. I would love to be in my bed and watch movie and if there wasn't any such thing called time then I would have watched several movies without hesitation, but still you may point a finger about the time duration of the movie, so, my view is; time is everywhere around us, we cannot separate it from anything. I blame time to be the only biggest enemy of human nature is they make you do unwilling things. I would love always to be teenager but time made me old, I would love to sleep for some more but, I think about the lecture I have to attend at one time and have to wake up unwillingly. Let me take a case of today, I missed the bus by just one minute, and if time was not my enemy then I would have been able to catch that bus.

Apart from my life, everyone have their own grievance with time. Due to time someone had to break up with their loved ones, someone might have had accident in the road, someone might have missed the important bus, train or flight, someone might have to suffer from unwanted pregnancy at unwilling time, etc, etc. There are lots of examples, and I will salute if someone will come in different conclusion then me about the time being our enemy. Still there are lots of people around who thinks time is our best friend and we should utilize it, but if you are true believer of god then I say you to worship the Time instead of god, cause you will never see god around you but time is always around you either to help you or kick your ass. Don't point at my sentence that time will help you, cause sometimes an enemy can also do some stupid things by which you will be benefited, so time is that enemy of ours which sometimes unknowingly does something on our favor. I cannot consider this and say time is my friend, but I have named it co-incidence for this thing, so time can never be my friend, because it’s my biggest enemy till I am alive.

सिपाहीको गाथा

2009-04-12T00:31:00.000+03:00

आज मनमा हर्श छ
खुशीले आँखालाई पनि भिजएछ
घरबाट आमा बा को चिट्ठी आएछ
पढ्नु भन्दा आघदी रुन मन लगेकोछ

बन्दुकलाई ओतमा राखी
बिच्यौनामा पल्टिये
चिट्ठीको बोक्रा च्याती
गू्दीतिर लम्किये

बाले लेखनु भा रऐछ
आशिर्बाद रहेछ आमाको पनि
भन्नु हुन्छ कस्तो छ तलाई
हामीलाई भेट्न आउछस कहिले ?

युद्धमा छु म अहिले मेरा प्यारा प्राण देयी
भन्न सकिन्न कहिले पो मरिने हो
आफुले सत्रुलाई मार्न तम्सेझै
सत्रुका गोलीले मेरै छाती पनि त तक्दोहो

मर्न त यो बिरानो ठाउँमा
मलाई पनि मन छैन
आफुले सोचेको जस्तो नहुदो रहेछ
सिपाही को जीवनमा आफ्नो मन्परी चल्दैन

दशैं आउन लग्योरे बाले लेखनुभा छ
भाई बहिनीका फर्मायिस पनि थपिदै गाछ
यस्पली त घरमा बोको कट्नै पर्छ रे
नभये छिमेकी हस्लान रे सिपाहीमा छोरो के गर्याछ

चिट्ठी अघी बध्दै गयो
अनी मलाई लाज लगेर आयो
माथ्लो गाउँकी भुन्टी सँग
मेरो बिहाको मन्जुरी नामा भयो

आमाले त्यसैले सुन जोड्ने पैसा नि लिएर आ
भनेर हैकम लौनुभा रहेछ
आरु बिहाको सबै जदौरी आमाकै चलाऊनेरे
केवल जन्ती भोज गर्ने पैसा मात्रै चाहिने रहेछ

झलक्क मेरा आँखा चिट्ठीबाट बाहिर पुग्यो
भित्तामा राखेको बिर्खेको फोटो ले आङ तर्सायो
आस्ती भर्खर बैशाखँ बिहे गरी पल्तन आ थ्यो
हिजो मरै आघाडी छातीमा गोली खायो

के हाल होला त्यस्को दुलहिको
योबनमै बिधुवा बन्दा मर्नु सरह हुँदो हो
आउन लगेको दशैंमा बुडा फर्किने आस थियो होला
तर लास घर पुग्दा कस्को मन कती खदोहो

भावनामा बहदा मलाई कती डर लगेर आयो
तर पनि घर बाट चिट्ठी आको छ मन आझ खुशी नै छ
भोली उठि फेरी युद्ध म जानु छ
भोली नै पो मरिन्छ कि त्यसैले अैलेनै यस्को जवाफ लेखनु छ

मेरा प्यारा बा आमा देखी मैले चिट्ठी सुरु गरे
अनी एउटा भावना म बही गजल लाई समेटे
झरेको आसुँ चिट्ठीमा कोरी पठाउन मिल्दैन,
मुटु जलेपनी पानी हालेर निभाउन मिल्दैन,
कस्तो यो दिन आयो जिन्दगी मा,
पुछेर आसु फेरी पनि आँखा नै रसाउछ,
रसएको आँखा तिम्रो तस्बिर बाट हटाउन मिल्दैन

मेर बा आमाको तस्बिर मैले टोपिमा राख्ने गरेको छु
मर्दा पनि शिरमा मेरा बा आमा नै हुन
युद्ध सकिये यस्पाली दशैंमा आउने बिचार गरेको छु
नसकिये अर्को पल्ट त अवस्य आउने बाचा दिन्छु

नभन्नुहोस् मलाई घरि घरि बाचा गरेर तोड्दछु
यस्तैछ सिपाहीको जीवन बुझ्ने कोशीश गर्नुस्
तर यस्पाली चाँही फर्किये भने गाउँमा लिङे पिङ पनि हल्नेछु
तिहारमा फोड्ने पटकापनी पल्टन्बाटै लिएर आउनेछु

सानो कान्छोलाई देउसी जान मादल पनि ल्याउला
ठुलि कान्छीको घडी लाउने इच्छ्या पनि पुर्यौला
बालाई दात दुख्छरे त्यसैले नयाँ तूथ्ब्रुश र मन्जन ल्याउछु
आमाको खुट्टा गोबरले खायो रे त्यसैले गम्बुट ल्याउला

तलब नथापेको तीन महिना भयो त्यसैले अहिले चिट्ठी मात्र पठाउदै छु
दशैंमा घर आउने बेला भात्ता पनि पो थपिन्छ साथ मै ल्याउनेछु
आहिलेलाई यतीनै लेख्दै सबैलाई सम्झेकोछु भनिदिनु
भोली फेरी लढ्न जानुछ त्यसैले अब एक्छिन को लागि भएनी सुतनेछु

What is this Laxman???

2009-04-07T14:10:00.000+03:00

It’s all about the fairytale that we have been hearing almost since our birth. Ram, who is worshiped as God of Hindu have different twists and turns in life. He was believed to be a human reincarnation of Lord Bishnu during 5000 BC (date varies according to the writer as the fact date is yet to acquire). People have faith in Ramayan - the epic book written by Valmiki, and there's still a true belief that it existed. The book states the story of a lovely boy Ram and things surroundings him during his lifetime. Ramayan is a collection of total 7 books which I cannot explain in details here, but my topic just explores some unusual things related to this epic.

Maybe my dear friend Laxman was shocked to hear this title, but sorry pal it's not a satire for you. Ram was banished 14 years to the jungle according to her step mother's demand and he left the kingdom with his lovely wife Sita and younger brother Laxman. The next demand of Ram's stepmother was her son Bharath to be the king. But Bharath refused to be the king because he had respect for his elder brother and thought Ram is the only person who deserves to be the king. Maybe our previous Kings and ministers didn't read this book as they went ahead to kill their own brothers to become king and ministers. On their way of living life in jungle once an ugly faced lady arrives in front of them. She was called Soorpanaka and she was attracted towards Ram. As we know at that era man used to have several wives so she didn't hesitate to offer herself to Ram, but she did one big mistake of offering sex with Ram in front of Sita. Ram didn't like the way she approached, maybe he would have different thoughts if he was alone, and ordered Laxman to take care of her. Ram was with his wife so his sexual life was fine but Laxman who left his wife back in the palace was alone and craving to have sex. He then offered sex to Soorpanaka but she refused so, he didn't have hesitation to rape her. When Laxman raped Soorpanaka, she was furious and went to her elder brother Ravan to say what happened. The king of Lanka who dreamed of making a golden stairs from earth to heaven was furious to hear his sister was raped and planned of taking immediate action against Laxman.

Instead of taking action against Laxman, Ravan kidnapped his sister-in-law Sita, because she was master piece of beauty. Another saga of the epic starts from here which is totally based on war and its preparation. Instead of raping Sita, Ravan offered her to marry him but she refused. Ravan was a good man who didn't even touched her in spite of possessing her, but Sita had belief that Ram will come someday to release her and take her with him. So, after 18 months of war, Ravan was killed by Ram and Sita was rescued but Ram denies taking her back blaming her not to be pure as she was earlier. Sita passed different tests but Ram denies taking her back and she went to some isolated place to live. She gave birth to two wonderful twins Luv and Kush. I have a doubt here in this part of story, as Sita was also human being like us, how long a lady's pregnancy period will be??? I guess it is 9 months in general and 7 to 10 months in exceptional cases. She had a great sex life with Ram while on jungle safari but she was held by Ravan for 18 months and when she was rescued her husband denied taking her back, now my doubt is whom those children belongs to... Was it Ram again who had break-up sex with her for last time to make her pregnant before denying her, or that child belongs to someone else from Lanka. Well, our epic doesn't clarify these issues.

Jesus for sale

2009-04-02T05:53:00.001+03:00

If I run my mind whole day thinking about the topic what the religion is and why it was created, I'll have distinct thoughts, but cannot reach to a conclusion. The same thing in Buddhism is described differently, they say you cannot reach your destination in only one attempt; you have to keep on trying like Siddhartha Gautama did for years. I have lots of others things in life to do apart from thinking about religions, I have to attend classes in University, study and prepare for my exams, work for my project work and also try to find a job. These are the lists of things that I am doing right now, so, it's not a better idea to think about only the religion now.

But still when I get time I think about such things, which might sound ridiculous but I feel we need to be concerned about it, concerned about things around the world. One of my deepest concern is being religiously aware, we are bound to take the religion of our parents, without being deeply concerned about that religion we grow up in it and try to adopt in that environment. But as the time is changing, people are changing and they look for different changes. Some people changed in the way of living, some changed the country, and some changed the religion too. One of my concern is about the willingness, does these people wants change by their will? There is some additional external factor which also plays its parts.

Every religion has a person to pray or worship, which really sounds funny for me, we have to pray someone whom we've never seen and doesn't take active part in our life, but still he/she is there that we should always have to keep some space for them. One other question arise that why all the gods in most of the religions are men, there seems discrimination between masculine and feminine in gods too. As I said if I start thinking about it, then I guess a day or week or month is not enough so I'll better stick to my title. I heard this sentence God for sale quite a long time ago, in a market a small boy was selling posters of gods and he was shouting "La Ganesh bhagwan panch rupiya ma, Shiva panch, Yasu panch, Buddha panch rupiya" (sale, god Ganesh only in 5 rupees, Shiva in 5, Jesus in 5, Buddha in 5 Rupees), well that boy was selling the posters not the god but people who bought those posters were willing to buy the god instead of posters. Most of them had feelings about god and they thought if they put the god's poster in their walls then good fortune arrives, so, people were trying to buy the god with the poster.

Nepal was the only Hindu country in the world at one era and I remember the establishment of church in my town, may be due to openness of our culture or curiosity that church was built in a hardcore Hindu society. Instead of protesting like Muslims everyone were curious to see what a church would look like, and hundreds of Hindu people were there to celebrate the opening ceremony of that church like it was some big festival of Hindu. That was the starting point of downfall of Hinduism in Nepal, as people were open and curious and of course poor, Christians and Muslims came up with some good commercials to brain wash Nepali people. Even there are some commercialized people like Sai who would love to call himself a god and added Hindu's god name to his last and is called Sairam. But the commercialization of Christianity was quiet different, As I've heard that religions were made to bind the people with some rules and regulations and every religion has different rules, but no any religion tells you to do bad things. If every religion teaches the good deeds then why people fight with each other in the name of religion? Well, I can say some people are stupid. I guess most of the people in this world are bounded by religions, and some people would like to change others religion to their own. I call this thing as complete commercialization of religion and Hinduism really lacks commercialization in Nepal.

Once I received a letter from Christian community which contained a book on life, as an enclosure. The letter said if I'll finish reading that book then I have to inform them so they'll send me another book on the same topic. As a curious kid I read 10 different books sent by them on life and death, pain and suffering and of course earth and nature. It was vast for me to understand those contents at so early age but I did understand the common thing in all those books i.e. greatness about Jesus. Jesus was commercialized through that book, like in classical movies where Heroes are responsible to make everything alright; Jesus was the character in those books who makes everything alright. Most of the children love heroic characters not only in the movie but also in the book. So, their main motive was to washout my brain at early age compelling me to think about the Jesus as the hero who'll save us all and take up Christianity as my religion. They might have done good research on child psychology to come up with that moves, but in some cases I am exceptional...

Apart from that book I was even told to be paid some amount of money on monthly basis if I'll change my religion to Christianity. So, it was not strange for me to find lots of Christians in my town within few years. They used to talk about greatness of Jesus with each other whenever they met and the strangest thing for me was they kept on adding the word "Jesus said that" in front of their conversation. May be they were repeating the words that they read in books of Christianity, but when they were Hindu a few years back, they never talked about Hindu religion neither Hindu gods nor Hindu's sayings. Well, everyone is subject to change, I must admit. I really wonder why Christians are doing this, I haven't read in any book till now but did Jesus say them to keep him for sale? So, they offer money for innocent illiterate people to change their religion to Christianity. Their life might not be the same after changing their religions but is it fair enough to do things like this? Buy the people to increase the popularity of your religion. I think this is completely disrespect to other religions.

As a human we are free to decide whatever we want or would like to be, but to sell our soul and feelings for money is not the thing a wise human should do. We have our own history, books, of our religion, so, please think one more time before changing your religion to Christianity or other religions.

Kiss my Balls

2009-03-28T17:52:00.002+02:00

Sorry for the title, but couldn't find any suitable one, this is basically an open letter to Mr. Fanindra Nepal, who is currently chairman of United Nepal National Front (UNNF).

Dear Mr. Fanindra Nepal,

I am really happy to hear that you are a great patriot and love your country the most. It was great to hear your interview and all the listings about your dream of Greater Nepal. I am still confused what is greater Nepal all after your explanations, maybe I am not educated enough to understand those words or your way of approach. As I too call myself a real patriot of my country even though I live far from it, but my love and thoughts never ends if it comes to my country. Now please don't ask me what have I done to my country so that I am shouting from top up my lungs about my pride, I would reply I haven't created chaos among people and lifted them up for any nonsense things.

I have done a bit research on you before writing an open letter and your past history didn't reflect any signs of patriotism for me. Your unsuccessful political attempts may have been your main motive to take up a job of teacher, but you may have done good deeds while teaching but you were never a successful teacher too. I have heard complaints from your previous students that you never completed the course, god knows if this is called helping your country and your countrymen.

Now you are in different mission to make Nepal a greater Nepal, I would have saluted your thoughts if you were really on a mission to make my country great. Nepal is far away behind in the terms of development, now the term development I used is for country's economic growth, standard in level of education, etc. but your mission seemed to be heading towards the opposite direction. Humanity and harmony are two things that we need the most at this situation and you are trying to stab knife in some small peace effort trying to built up by our poor government. We all are human and the people residing inside Nepal are Nepali, you discriminated them as if you were there to distribute the citizenship for illegal immigrants from India. Never mind, you might have done this by yourself so you better know about it, I don't know much, but the kind of behavior you are showing towards Madhesi is unacceptable. Being a chairperson of any organization it doesn't suit your personality to accuse them all for being illegally migrated after all you don't have proof of it, if you have then I would love to see the data in daily newspapers. Have you ever collected any data about Madhesi in Nepal or just speaking your mind? well I have to say you mister mind your language, cause your perception shows the racist behavior and which is not at all tolerated by the world.

I really don't have much idea about the Sugaunli Treaty made by Nepal government with British East India Company, but what I can say is that treaty is made around 200 years ago and since then Nepal hasn’t claimed those lands, so India is ruling on it. Now the boarder of Nepal in world clearly shows that Nepal is limited between Mechi and Mahakali, so, I trust in this boarder issues and believe we are limited till there. May be we had lots of area before which now belongs to India and I am not comfortable to take it back from them. The question is why? Why should we want our land back? to create more chaos or civil war? But my dear friend your move will never bring peace back in Nepal. I claim you to be racist and you are discriminating Madhesi saying they were never son-of-Nepal, but I am asking you are you truly son-of-Nepal?? your reply might be yes but my assumption on you says no you are not. If we even get those lands from India then also the people residing there cannot be thrown away from their land, who is mostly Madhesi and proud Indian. They will never feel that they are part of Nepal and which gives more problem to my country. We suffered more than 10 years of war inside our country now you are again going to repeat same old mistake done by some bunch of foolish people. Now the war will be of race and struggle for living in Nepal if this kind of nonsense moves keeps on repeating.

I could hear two different words from your interview, one is you want your boarder to be increased and would occupy the land which lies in India and another is you are accusing Madhesi for not being true Nepali, so how you are going to adjust those other Madhesi people residing in that area when you'll get that land back?? I couldn't find any logical thing is your views. If our country will be surrendered to China, then, would you prefer to say yourself Chinese after that?? If No then you should be able to think what the situation might be. That place will be not better than Tibet who is still struggling for the identity, I can also give you example of Kashmir, and so do you think to approach for bigger boundary is still a good move? I know your political career couldn't go well and you are trying to lift-up some people with your nonsense sentences and be well known person. Well you may have other sayings on my views but whatever it is you are just one more headache for my country. Instead we can make our country greater by joining hands with each other and helping the government in their efforts for development of our country. If we all Nepali will be together for this move then we can achieve greater Nepal though development and our country would be most thankful, even we can feel ourselves the patriots of our country. For that we need to help our country in our own field of specialization, if we give our effort in our own field then our country will take lesser time to develop.

If you really want to do something to your country then better teach your students properly in your college about the course matters rather than involving them in such a nonsense. If you cannot continue in teaching then sit quietly as a retired fellow so my country would not have to bear such a headache like you. I know you also know that you are not in a right path, so, please don't create chaos and involve Nepali people again in war, we have lost many lives and if you want to continue with your ridiculous approach then I just have one word to say to you "Kiss my Balls".

My Nepal My Pride

2009-03-24T11:16:00.002+02:00

I have been listening this slogan since I learned to understand the words, till now it have not changed. Oh my god, why would I want it to be changed? sorry for that sentence, yeah I want that slogan to be spelled and pronounced loud and clear "My Nepal My Pride", but sometimes I feel like commercializing Surya cigarette which has the same slogan in TV commercials . But I never understand what is the meaning trying to spread by Surya Tobacco Company, does it mean we Nepali should smoke only that cigarette or we should be proud of that brand. Well too vast to understand and I am not going into it cause I am too lazy to run my imagination on those things. I just want to write something which I know and I am pretty much interested in the people who made us proud to be Nepali. One more thing I am not calling us as Nepalese people because I am not comfortable with it, I am proud to be Nepali and would like to call my people Nepali in my language rather than describing in other language, even though I am using other language to write. sounds weird but that's how I am.
One more weird thing is that in class 7 we read History subject in both the languages (Nepali and English), we had different text books for that and the content was also not the same. It sounds weird to read same subject in two different languages with different contents, may be our school wanted to create history by themselves and the most our principal Mr. Jagadish Prasad Oli was also a weird man. Those history lessons did a bit favor to me and some of my friends like Alok Sitaula who were interested in that topics. I read all the chapters before teacher taught in class because I was more curious about it at that age. So, I still remember lots of things related to Nepalese History and also the world history. The first person who comes in my mind while trying to remember our history is Arniko, he was a great artist and architect during 13th century. Although he left Nepal at the age of 12 and headed China and earned huge status and also preserved in their history as a big personality. But what are we proud about him? did he do anything to our country? no, so why he is still mentioned in Nepali history? Somebody raised this question at one era and if I was there then my reply would be, he was proud to be Nepali. Although he went to China as kid and was treated with respect even by Chinese emperor Kubla Khan, he never felt to change his status like most of Nepali do these days. He stayed Nepali from his heart till his death and even in Chinese history his name is mentioned as wonder kid from Nepal. China would have claimed him to be Chinese like India claim that Gautam Buddha was born in India, but they had respect for his Identity because he was proud to be Nepali.
During early 19th century the average age limitation of Nepali was 48 years, and people used to grow old at the age of 42. They used to marry at the age of 12-18 and have lots of kids and grandchildren at the age of 42 and till then their hair used to turn Grey and have lots of wrinkles in their cheeks. In that era a person at the age of 70 stand stood to fight for our country, he is called Bhakti Thapa. At his age people were hardly able to walk but he went directly towards the Anglo armies and tried to turn their bombard machine towards them and was killed in the process. We also have history of Balabhadra Kunwar who guarded a ford to fight against British on the same period, and there were many Women and Children on his army, even with a shortage of food they fought for several days just drinking water. Someone said me that they are not the national hero but the national enemy of our country, they wouldn't have fought with British and if East India Company would have ruled our country then we would have been more developed. Well, that can be one assumptions but still I ask what these people fought for? Do they have any other motivation behind it, did they fought for money or to be placed in the history of Nepal? They never knew anything about History at that era, they fought for our country, they fought to protect we civilian people from being slaves, they fought to protect our land. Although we lost the war but giving due respect to our bravery British made a treaty not to fight with us and asked us to send our army to join their troops and till date we still recall British Gurkha for identity of our country. Because of their deeds we are still proud that we were never slaves of anybody even though we celebrate independence day.
We still have that ego inside us, but my countrymen never feels proud to be what they are nowadays. Maybe because of the situation of the country or dissatisfaction from different things related to our country. Even though our ego is high we like to criticize our country in much terms, and people thinks about the situation now rather than what we had before. Well, I just can say time always doesn't remain the same and we are changing so, I hope for the better situation of my country in terms of economic and political stability in coming days, but I am still proud to say I am Nepali.

Circulation

2009-03-22T21:46:00.002+02:00

Good times and bad times follow each other, prosperity will surely come!!!, that was the slogan I was holding when I met an American guy who devoted all his life in prayer of Lord Krishna. I heard half an hour of boring lecture from him when I was with my girlfriend going for a movie. I couldn't really neglect him because his words were true but I couldn't even listen to him for long cause movie was about to start and she was pinching me from behind to move from there. Well you all know to keep your girlfriend/boyfriend happy comes in your first priority than to hear a lecture about life so I moved from there with a good excuse. That was the boring drama movie for me with a tragic ending and to watch my girlfriend cry with the flow of movie spoiled my day, I had lots of assignment to do and to change her mood I knew I have to take her for Ice cream in some other romantic place. It never makes you feel bore to spend the time with your loved ones but sometimes you have to spend the time even if you do not want to and keep a fake smile in your face saying that I am okay. Well, I am not complaining about my girlfriend's behavior and how I wasted my time, although she is my ex now. I was trying to focus about how life is, how it circulates within a circle, and the circle of life revolves around which galaxy.

Our life is like the earth, having different parts different from another and contains of different compounds, I can compare all living beings as cells of our body and let trees be the hair, if its fair enough to say. There are lots of other things to consider like what a ocean can be, or where our excrement goes, I don't have reply for this, its just a simple assumption and i am not much deep into it. But like earth rotates around the sun in a spiral way, I call it circle, as we also have a circle in human life. Good times and bad times are compared with the different seasons in a year, but our good times and bad times doesn't start in a particular year and ends in a particular day. Some astrologists say they can calculate these and even change it with some good deeds, god knows what their assumptions are but we really have good times and bad times, and we all wait for the prosperity. I have never heard anyone in this world waiting for bad time in his life, point me wrong if you find any.

I would like to take a line from one song "The circle only has one side", which means whatever you do in life the life circle just lies in one side and it never changes. Sometimes I think this might be true, as I feel I am the one who is always on wrong side, I mean side I don't want to be. I wish it'd be easy to change the side of the circle so I can live in both, but if it was possible then Dalai Lama who is also treated as Rinpuche(god) would have changed his circle to the right one, instead of living such cuss' life of being drove out of his own country. Life is the way how you live is most of the people's viewpoint but it also depends upon how you think and take things. Circle of life is vast to understand and if we try to go more deep in it, then I'll miss my another deadline of assignment, so this much for today, I hope I'll complete this blog after completing my assignments, so sorry folks, it happens sometimes... love ya all...

Who the hell is Jesus???

2009-03-21T04:47:00.000+02:00

My hands are tied and my eyes are open wide, I can see the longest distance from my sight and no any visible point ahead in my eyes. My mouth is sealed and I have thirst in my throat, I can feel the blood circulating through my veins and my nerves are itching. This might be my last time, my last time to remember all the things I have done in life, all the sins and the good things. Others say that you should take god's name while you die and think about the good things that you have done in life, but when I start from the point of holding the memory, I never did anything right. I am a sinner and this is how I should die, a death of pain and death of throe. I lived my whole life in a vain and only god knows what I have done. People said me I am a sinner I need to confess, I need to go to the Jesus and say that I was wrong, but my words never changed and my firm reply was who the hell is Jesus??? Sorry my words were rude enough but I cannot say a man born like us a god, so I prefer to die as I am now, may be called a sinner or insane or out of mind. Someone told me child you are in a wrong path, follow my way and I will make you pure, pure from your inner soul and I'll pure your mind, but my query was what was impurity in me. How can two human be different from each other, he is pure and I am not?? Well Jesus I would like to meet you after my death, I would like to ask you what you taught, what was your perception and how you tried.

Gautam Buddha is also in my list of people whom I'd like to meet, ask him and discuss with him what was his intentions, who said him those things and who made him take such decision. As far as I know he said that he is god and we all are destined to be god, if so then why I am not god now, why they call me sinner?? There are certain rules to be followed to be god I read in one book, if it is for real than I cannot stand the fact how many gods will live in earth. Will it be like Hindu's god and goddess who are 33 million in count (the number of gods were more than of people in earth), it was just a co-incidence but if we all will be god someday than I wonder about the number of gods and still wondering who'll be their followers. Whatever they mean or they may call themselves but one thing is for sure, they are the biggest enemy of the human nature. This was my sentence that I was called sinner for, but I am really not willing to worship another human like me as a god even if they had charismatic power.

All people worship god with a pray in their mind, someone wants to wash their sin with the divine but who is to decide what is sin and what is good?? The coin always has both side and people cannot believe only one side is the world, have to think from another point too. But for me either it may be Jesus or Buddha they brought discrimination between people, they divided people into different groups so human created hatred between each other in the name of god. Now I don think we human need to be blamed for this, what you say if I add the name of Mohammad in it?? This was my message I wanted to spread the world, that we are human and we should love each other no matter of any race, place or religion. I did the best till I can until I died and its all in your hand if you call me sinner. I don't need my name in the history book and not interested to be placed near the gods whom you prayed, if you want to do something for me then please love the human race, my soul would rest in peace if you can spread a bit love with each other. Now its time for me to die and now I can feel my soul fly in the sky, free to fly without a boundary, and its just a human I love human I love.

Where is my country Nepal ???

2009-03-18T00:28:00.000+02:00

First I typed this keyword "Where is Nepal" in Google and it displayed some distinct answers like "Nepal is between India and China- visitnepal.com", well I knew about this fact that my country used to lie between two huge countries India and China, but does it still lie there??? I really don't know now... may be geographically it is located somewhere there but still I am searching for the identity of my country, the country where I was born and lived most of my life. I sometimes ask my countrymen where is our country ?, they laugh at me and say I am insane in the reply, but I really don't know where my country is.. Since my school days I was taught that name of my country is Nepal and it belongs to southern part of Asia. To make it well known, they said Mt. Everest (the highest peak in the world) is in Nepal, Lord Gautam Buddha was born in Nepal, Goddess Sita was also born in Nepal, the brightest star Dhurba and Bhrikuti also belonged to Nepal, Nepal is the second largest country in the world for water resources, etc, etc was taught to me to pick some points on our pride. "Mula kate jhai kate khukuri ghumyo fanana" (we beheaded our enemies as easily as cutting the Radish) I used to be highly proud while reading this line from one poem in our book, it was directly reflected towards the war between Nepal and East India Company (Great Britain). I still know lots of things related to my country but unable to find my country.

You may think I am insane now and tell me to look at the Google map, I searched for it when I had doubt, and it showed exactly where it was before, I was a bit relieved after that, but my search is still going on. We Nepali people have faced lots of trouble in past, and always opted for new revolution and till date we are able to achieve what we wanted, either it may be dethroning the king or establishing new constituent peoples' demands were ever fulfilled. So my fellow citizens are now in verge of changing Nepal in different way, at first the statement from newly formed government stated Nepal to make Switzerland within 10 years (terms and conditions applied), and then the second statement was to bring drastic change in the country, so called New Nepal. I was unable to find my country within my heart because it has change to New Nepal. Our new reformed government made a proposal to change Nepal to New Nepal, but I heard somewhere Mr. Fadindra Nepal is in different mission, his proposal is to change my country to Greater Nepal. The changing of name reminded me of the prostitute in the cabin restaurants who change their name daily to impress the customers, so, is my country being prostitute to impress our own people these days? I don't have the answer for it...

I also have heard that children born from the same parents have different views and thoughts, so how can the huge people of my country have same thoughts. People see, analyze and interpret things differently which can sometimes create chaos, and sometimes I feel this might be the only reason we do not have harmony between our own people. The main thing that made me think my country disappeared is due to change in its name, nowadays the only word in the peoples' mouth is New Nepal, according to the english dictionary I know the meaning of New, but its hard for me to understand the New word attached in front of my country's name. Everyone talks loud about New Nepal and say that Nepal have changed a lot and also in a verge of big change. I did listed some points in which New Nepal is different than my Nepal.

In Nepal we had King and royal family and also the royal palace, most of the colleges and university were named according to the royal names, king had superior power who was atop of all the laws. In New Nepal we have president who doesn't have right to make the decision on his country. He is like a henpecked to the party he is associated, and pressurized from the prime minister who belongs to different political party. The basic meaning of New Nepal was Nepal without a King, royal family and royal palace. In the process of revolution government not only changed the name but also the national anthem and now I heard a rumor of change in national flag. People did rebel for revolution and my country obviously have changed, people are being educated easily without studying (heard another rumor of people who was involved in war will earn a degree, but still not sure what was the degree specialized on), I guess we can increase our literacy rate by 60% within a year. The another big change is everyone can get opportunity to write their name in history, if a people die in a road accident or gang fight, their related party demands them to be named as martyr and placed in a history, I guess its a good move, at least that person died in his homeland and served his country till he died, either his service may be well known or unknown to others. If a couple fight with each other, they call for national strike stating atrocity on women and demand the equal rights for both sexual divisions. Oh, I nearly missed the third sexual group of people who too is demanding for equal distribution of rights and power.

Sometimes I fear about the statement that our government said about making my country as Switzerland, my fear is they may change again the country's name to Switzerland 2.0, well whatever that means, It may help for marketing of our country in terms of tourism. I am a bit conservative so may be I am not willing to take this change so easily and still love what my country was before. I guess a bit less conservative than my government now which banned the miss Nepal contest because they found vulgarism in the well fashionable dress that contestant wears, I am waiting for Hip hop and rock music to be banned and people returning to our own folk music. Our new government reminded me about the era of my beloved king Mahendra (although I haven't seen him), he introduced electricity in Nepal, which used to be supplied 4 hours a day at early stage, Vehicles used to run in our roads in that era too, but King Mahendra made a rule and opened a new petrol pump which used to supply the limited amount of petrol. If I look at our new government than I can say we have developed a lot, at King Mahendra's era the supply of electricity was for 4 hours and now we have 8 hours of electricity supply, the limitation in amount of petrol increased to double. The only fault in these figures is dissatisfaction of people, but I blame we civil people for it, although the supply of electricity have increased we still blame the government instead of blaming us for increasing the usage of electricity. Same is the case with petroleum product, the supply increased by double but we have increased the number of vehicles by 500%, so government shouldn't be blamed for that...

I don't know much about the world but heard that the president of Finland prepares her coffee by herself if she is attending some program, but we have more than 60 political parties in Nepal and each party have a president and some people on the hierarchy, and each president have at least one Personal Assistant, and each personal assistant prefers to keep a people under him who will make coffee or tea to the party's president, So, I can say that we have better employment opportunity. Well, these are just my feelings but I am still in search of my country Nepal.

Winter ::::: Nepal vs Finland

2009-03-12T15:44:00.006+02:00

Everyone talks about cold winter in Finland. The winter have been divided into two categories, normal winter and dark winter. In this period of dark winter we could hardly see the sunlight, and every time it is dark all around. I don't know much about Finland haven't done much research in climate issues, apart from checking daily temperature in the internet of my locality. Being Nepali, everyone guess that I am habituated to play with snow and live in freezing temperature, but this is not the fact. The first thing comes to people's mind about Nepal is mt. Everest, and all those tall Himalayas covered with snow. The life in those top hills are not so easy so most of the peoples like to live in urban or sub-urban areas and most of those urban areas are in Plain(Terai) region. So, I too belong to one of the major city in Terai called Itahari. The temperature in my place varies from 12° to 38° Celsius throughout the year. I have never experienced the temperature below 12° even if it the fog covers the city and you'll feel shaking joints in your bones due to coldness. whereas 12° sounds a bit summer in Finland and people can walk only in half T-Shirts. Finland might have statistically cold temperature all over during winter, but most of my Nepali friends are still unaware of the temperature in our country.

The temperature near the Himalayan areas varies a lot during summer and winter but it never reaches the positive degree. During winter the temperature varies from -46° to -60° and during summer the temperature varies from -19° to -28°. Which is enough to prove that the temperature in Nepal is also statistically higher than of Finland. why I am doing this comparison, is to to prove that Nepal is colder than Finland ?? No, is my reply, my sole intention is to provide information for my countrymen and the foreigners willing to visit Nepal. Winter is cold everywhere by its name, and it cannot be separate for Nepal. As statistically the weather might not look cold in the urban areas but you'll feel more cold even if the temperature is in positive degree Celsius. But even in hot summer days the part of Nepal still have temperature in negative degree Celsius, may be to prevent the thousands of glaciers we have. One more information for the Finns that we also have more than 3500 lakes in our small country, so its not a big deal for us to see the lake and most of those lakes in upper regions are frozen not only in winter but throughout the year.

May be due to lack of proper heating system in Nepal, you won't feel safe inside the house. Throughout winter you have to wear a jacket of inner trousers to keep yourself warm. After residing in Finland the whole winter people might be confident of walking in thin clothes in the winter in Nepal, but to do that is foolishness. The temperature might sound as warm as summer in Finland but due to the air inconsistency that coldness kills you from inside. So, be safe and better wear warm inner wears throughout the winter.

A visit to Bir Narayan Majhi's House

2009-03-10T11:28:00.000+02:00

I do not remember the exact date but it took place during my school days. I was studying in 9th class and there was a rumor all over Nepal that this man Mr. Bir Narayan Majhi (Chaudhary) is the oldest living human in the planet. His estimated birth year was 1857 and he lived till 1998. The rumor was spread all over the world like a flash of light and somebody tried to prove his age scientifically, but no one ever performed any kind of test in him to check his age. His age was all estimated according to his family and close relatives and other peoples who knows him. A barber aged 65 claimed that his grandfather used to cut Mr. Majhi's hair and after the death of his grandfather, his father was appointed as Mr. Majhi's barber and after his father's death he is giving him a hair cut. This rumor was enough to prove Mr. Majhi's age. Because of these rumor people thought he might be a human birth of god and they used to worship him as a living god.

Me and my friends were curious enough to visit this living god's place, nonetheless visit oldest man in earth. We made a plan to hit the road on Saturday, as it was our holiday. Prashant Sitaula, Deepak K.C., Rakesh Khadka and me gathered together in my house (my room was the junction for all of my closest friends) on that day to pay the visit to the god. We had our own bicycles (thankfully), and started our journey from there. His house was located in some other village near Khanar(I don't remember the place name exactly), The distance was three and half kilometers from Itahari to Khanar and after reaching khanar we have to take a gravel road to the northern east to reach his home. We didn't know the place exactly so we asked most of the people whom we met in the road to confirm that we were heading towards the right direction. Although the distance from Itahari to Khanar was long, the duration of the cycling journey from Khanar to his place was longer, may be because of the road structure.

Finally we arrived to his house, and it was not hard task to find his house because someone in the road said that there is a function going on in his house that day, and we could hear loud voices in speaker coming out from his house. When we reached there, we came to know that some minister was there to visit him, as we all know wherever these politicians go, they cannot stay without giving speech, so was the noise in the speaker. As the minister was there, the security was tight and we were not able to enter inside to meet Mr. Majhi. So, we waited a while, and after his boring speech session the minister was on the way out of there. When he left most of the crowd left, cause people pay more attention to politicians in Nepal, and most of the people's sole intention to come there was to listen the minister's speech. Now our turn arrived to meet Mr. Majhi and we went close by, but there was a family ahead of us who was worshiping him. The lady was doing her puja and her husband was clicking her pictures, suddenly Mr. Majhi's face was red with anger and he asked the person next to him (his grandson's son), what they are doing. The man replied they are taking your picture, and the old Majhi shouted "labra ke photo khichal chhi, aankh me jhimik jhimik karel" (why the dick they need to take the picture, the flashes stuns in my eyes). During minister's visit he was filmed by movie camera so he got annoyed to see still camera again taking his picture. All of us laughed hearing this and that family were shocked to hear that. That lady touched his legs and prayed something, I didn't hear properly, she worshiped him as a real god and we were stunned to see that.

We went close to him and when that family left he asked for his hukka (pipe), and started to smoke, as he was chain smoker his grandson's son said that if he would not smoke than he wouldn't have lived so long, it sound opposite to what we read in our health science course. He was still able to walk slowly in his feet at that age, and when I asked him about his birth date, he said his mother told him that he was born on the day when it rained heavily and all the seeds from the mango plants in his farm was washed away. I was amused what was that day?? he refused to talk more and said he have to go to the bathroom and asked us to leave. I still remember his teeth was starting to grow again like of kids in small age and his hands were still strong to hold the stick, with its help he used to walk. And the last word he spoke to us was that god shiva came in his dream and said him that he'll live for 151 years and he'll be renown all over the world. Unfortunately he died the same year and couldn't live for 151 years as he wished but his second dream to be well known was fulfilled, I guess.

We headed back to our place, and on the way we stopped in Khanar to have some breakfast. We used to get 4 bhakka in a rupee at that time and Khanar was famous for bhakka and local alcohol. The bhakka is made up of rice flour, given a certain shape and steamed in vapor. I used to like bhakka a lot and with bhakka we had aluchop and piyaji. while cycling back to our own place we talked about Mr. Majhi alot and also about the lady who prayed him as a god. For years my dear friend Prashant used to do caricature of Mr. Majhi's dialogue "Labra ke photo khichal chhi"... well, whenever I hear that word I remember our journey to Mr. Majhi's house and I can say it was fantastic day.....